When the warm fuzzies of LOA grate on ya.....

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When focusing on LOA makes you feel like this....

hello blessed one! so glad to see you here! that wasnt a co-incidence....you want to believe in loa--you want to move so fast to joy and feeling good and having all these things--but your life experience is giving you something different--what we expect and what we manifest are always a match--and sometimes we arent even aware of what vibrations we are putting out--and when others tell us HOW to do it--and we see the magnitude of processes available to us--it can just piss us off--

you are where you are....you are feeling what you are feeling--abraham said something to me this weekend that made me realize a thing or two....trying to MOVE too fast when you are out of alignment--adding speed to a car that is "out of alignment" only makes things worse and your feelings are going to be worse...

so...lets take the focus off the story that you are now telling--and lets try and find a tiny bit of relief....why dont we focus on YOU--because you are important--

I know i am where i am....and thats OK
I know i have emotions that tell me quite a few things...but the most important thing they are telling me is whether what i am looking at is MY TRUTH--or its not my truth....and it also tells me that there is a gap between where i am in the physical and what i have BECOME in my vibrational escrow...

and that pisses me off sometimes--and it gets me MAD that others are always trying to tell me to work up the emotional guidance scale so i can BE who is in my vibrational escrow...

and the reason that pisses me off is because i FEEL/think--=that i am NOT ready to be that person. I am not ready to align (beating the drum of where you are)...

But thats OK because the more i focus ONLY on what i know i have in my vibrational escrow--and the more i use my guidance not to pinpoint myself on the scale and see which is up or down--but only to see whether what i am observing is my TRUTH or not my TRUTH--then in any given moment, i can honestly know what is right for me...

we arent even gonna speak about joy--because that is such a huge leap--we are gonna speak about truth for me or not truth for me....and when I feel that something is not my truth--i am gonna stop--take a breath and try to formulate in my mind what in that very moment is my truth/...

and i am going to do that breath by breath if i have to....and i am going to let go of any expectations other than feeling in the now momemt that i am breathing--and that i am confident in my ability to know what my truth is...

hugs! just breathe....and follow your truth...and eventually--after you have breathed enough--and followed your truth enough--you will find that it has led you...to joy....it doesnt matter how long that takes--it doesnt matter what path you take--because you are never finished, and you never get it all done and you Cant get it wrong!!! so...just breathe...and be...and follow your truth...and your path will be YOURS....and yours alone....and thats such a good thing...

The TRUTH is always about ME!!!

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What is your truth whispering to you?

Our emotional guidance system is ALWAYS evaluating what we are thinking and comparing it to our personal manifesto (as alex so eloquently put it) that our inner being is vibrating...

and so--when you think a thought and you are feeling GOOD that thought is part of your truth...it is true for you in the physical and it is true for you in the non-physical--and it is a match and it FEELS great and you are at that point in your creative power--your valve is open, your cork is floating, your boat is facing downstream and all is well...

but...

if you are thinking a thought that is NOT in alignment with who you really are--and you are feeling bad--your emotional guidance system will give you a feeling on the scale that shows you EXACTLY how far away you are from alignment with your source--and you see that what you are thinking is NOT your truth...

so, example...

I got dressed this morning--after vibrating that i was a red hot momma and that i had extreme power and magnetism and i was on fire...i put on a pair of capris and a cute top and looked in the mirror with my hair piled willy nilly on my head, curls cascading down and a beautiful crystal on my neck...and i looked and FELT wonderful because my thoughts about ME and my inner beings KNOWING who i really am were in complete alignment...and so, i trotted off to church with my kids--which i use as a time to meditate and be grateful for the universe and also to see my mother...which she loves and i am in alignment wiht that==so its all good.

And i sat down next to her, and i guess the top i chose was not to her liking because she looked at my cleavage and made a face..and i immediately felt badly and my hand went to my breasts and i pulled up the edge of the fabric...i caught myself feeling bad--and i then evaluated the situation...

I know who i am--i dont give a rip what anyone else thinks of me--i know i look good and i was dressing for ME and who i really am--my inner being is in complete alignment with that...but i have old habits and as a child, looked to my mother for approval--and that always felt badly--

why?

because my inner being knows i dont need anyone elses approval to be who i really am--and so, in looking to and reacting to my mother so she can be comfortable with ME, i was "dishonoring" myself and that felt bad...

so...

i took a deep breath--and i focused on being in alignment with my mother and the fun part of her spirit...i focused on her accepting me as i was, and me being ok to show her who i am...

do you know--in less than five minutes, my mother got the giggles...she was also whispering to me in the middle of the sermon and telling silly things to make me laugh and complaining about how long the sermon was and how she wasnt getting anything out of it and how she would rather be out living the day...

we even held hands...

so, i listened to myself--realigned based on the complete knowing that whenever i feel badly its because i am thinking a thought that is not my truth--and i realigned myself and my thoughts to be MY TRUTH with the full knowledge that it is MY thoughts, MY vibration and MY decision to in any given moment powerfully turn my boat around and get back to being ME...

Nice body baby! lessons from a young one...

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What do you see when you look at yourself?

I spent the earlier part of this afternoon soothing my dear daughter back into alignment. It was a very contrasty experience because it brought up a great many issues that i may have felt as a young girl, but we really did a lot of moving forward and going from deep sadness to joy (she was hysterical, and now she is sitting and singing opera to herself...you can only do that when you are in joy!)

She is a lovely young woman--sparkly, kind, a real energy ball--and astoundingly beautiful, singularly so--and i am trying not to be biased--but in this space, i can say what i want and not be seen as arrogant! lol...When she was young, she had such cute baby cheeks and baby belly, that she carried happily into young adult hood--and because no one was comparing her to anyone, because everyone told her how wonderful and beautiful she was, and accepted her for who she really was...she grew into a petite, but long torsoed healthy bodied teen--oh to have that long waist! lol with long red hair and a smear of freckles accross her translucent skin...

Lately, she has been hanging out with a group of girls that are VERY into their bodies--very into their shapes and being skinny and looking a certain way. She had never really been close to these girls, but because she had been taking a break from hanging out with her best guy friend, she listened to these girls complaining and bitching and started to take on their beliefs because she wanted to belong to the group which is what ALL girls want right?

She had never wanted that before--she had been happy to just flit through life doing her own thing--but for some reason--possibly a desire to experience the group mentality--she fell into place there...and took on their beliefs--and started to feel VERY badly about herself--because she thought she was (GASP--because it is so far from true) Fat...

There is nothing inherently wrong with being plump--I have been EVERY weight--ultra thin, curvy, pudgy and downright fat...and i always loved myself, even as i wished for things to be a bit different...here she was beating herself up because she didnt fit their beliefs related to weight...

and so, i told her the story of how as a young girl i had been a ballerina, and was never thin enough even though you could see my ribs! and because I fell for someone elses beliefs, my body lost its ability to self evaluate in a realistic way. No one tells you these things when you are young, but you will CRAVE that young body that was perfectly fine--but we all tend to fall into a trap of wishing to be what we arent, when if we truly stood up for ourselves and loved ourselves and said NO--i will be who i am, and not who you want me to be...then you would never want to be what you arent because it simply wouldnt be your truth and you wouldnt stand for that!

She realized that she was feeling BADLY because she was having a thought--and that thought was not her truth--and her inner being was telling her STRONGLY (and it always tells her things strongly) that those thoughts were not her truth...she was able to align quite easily again with knowing her lovely body was fine the way it is...she as also able to align easily with the idea that having a friend is not more important than honoring your own internal guidance...that a true friend is a person who sees you for who you really are--and is just fine with that--no matter what...

so, here is to my lovely daughter--who again reminded me that MY body is perfectly fine the way it is--and who reminded me to love myself every day because i wicked ROCK!