What if...things were different?

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We are all one in the spiritual, but sometimes walk alone in the physical

my live is fucking AMAZING--no question about it--but some people started to talk about the dynamic of selfishness in relationship to being IN relationships and existing IN society as opposed to really living on the cutting edge with your vibration alone.

my thought was more theoretical than that...What if, i took everything that abraham teaches at face value and completely VIBED 100% freedom in a relationship--100% independance of those in my soul group whom i birthed--100% UN-conditional love for all in my life--100% free-will/choice in all matters being 100% selfish....

And my answer to that thought was--well, i couldnt be vibrating where i am with who i am with and Have all those things without an INTENSE amount of work on my own part to maintain my vibration...

And so--the answer is this--i dont really WANT to be there...i want to be HERE--and i made the choices i made to BE where i am, knowing full well that i was giving up some part of my own personal freedom...

there are days when i do daydream of living in a city filled with millions of people, living in a nice apartment all for myself--interacting socially and sexually with whomever tickles my vibrational fancy--having independant means to do whatever i want when every i want with no strings attached to anyone...

and for about 23 minutes--that feels good...

and then, i think of all i would miss out on--my babies growing up--my lovely husband and i sharing an intimate afternoon in bed--us rocking out at a concert--us partying with friends...Us screaming at the television when our team is winning--my birds, my cats, my dog, my house, my garden, my art studio, my ballet barre....

You either choose to exist in society and make a niche for yourself with those as close to vibrational alignment as possible--or you choose to exist outside of society and hug your vibration...atleast that has been the observations that i have made in my long life..


Maybe the rockets of desire have been sent off for a future where we are all freer to do as we please and others will understand that and want that for us...

its an interesting and complicated debate

Co-creation....

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Many hands and hearts make light work of co-creation!

Abraham has often said, you cannot create in anothers experience...and i think they say that so folks will not focus on changing others...as in, well, you might want to drop the if they change i will love them bit...it never works...

but i do strongly believe that my family is a wonderful team...and while we have individual desires and shoot off individual rockets of desire--we have always focused on the soul cluster aspect of our family--while allowing personal freedom, privacy and support for all individual endeavors...

That said--i have long settled into and been comfortable with the idea that people give me money to be who i am--i havent worked at a paying job in over 15 years, and still i am tremendously abundant...

This past february, due to some extreme desires on the parts of all family members, my beloved vibrated out of a very contrasty work situation, and the universe has blessed us with abundance for an entire year and then some...we have been having the time of our lives, traveling--enjoying each others company--just being together and spontaneously deciding to do things...its been such sheer joy--and as the school year ends and my kids have more time-we are looking forward to more suprises and wonderous adventures provided by the universe--because this is what we focus on...

every morning, when we can--we all climb into our huge feather bed--cat included and we hug--and cuddle--all four of us--and then, we hold hands and we set intentions with the universe...dear lord and goddess, dear universe, we thank you for our lives and all that you have given us--we know that it is through your blessings and your love that we can accomplish anything we desire--and then we talk on what we wish to focus on for the day--for the week--for our lives--abundance, financial freedom, health, happiness, adventures, harmony, love, life etc...and more specifics, like great tickets to see the red sox, the kids doing awesome on their finals--me facilitiating a ton of girl scout things, etc...

and it feel so very good--and we know that through the four of us--we focus our intentions on co-creating an amazing life together...

and we know the universe will always support us--and it is so...because law of attraction says it is so--we live a happy lovely life...

and others would have us focus on what is--and sometimes some of us do focus on what is--and what is in the future--and tell a story that is not to the liking of all of us--and so, i sit here, and i will tell the story of our co-creation that would bring us all great joy--and i ask the universe for all our inner beings to converse--and to come into alignment with our joint desires...

We want to spend loving time together freely--whenever we wish to share time--the time is there--and it is good

we want to share financial freedom together--and know that the unverse will always provide us with all we need and more to do all the things we wish to do...abundaceis ours and comes from many avenues...we need do nothing but come into alignment with abundance and with great joy feel it fill us up.

we want to share health and happiness and harmony together---because we love each other and we know we can shine

we want to share adventures and surprises and thrills together, because it is what we love to do together--

we want to be able to take the time we need alone for each other--and bless that time apart as recharging and joyous private time...filled with individual freedom and bliss...we want to support each being in our family team in their individual pursuits and goals....

we want to travel together happily...and see new places and meet wonderful new people...because it is what we love

we want all of us to be doing things that they love--doing things that are engaging, exciting, fulfilling and enjoyable, because life can be that way--and the universe supports us in that desire..

and so...it is

The TRUTH is always about ME!!!

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What is your truth whispering to you?

Our emotional guidance system is ALWAYS evaluating what we are thinking and comparing it to our personal manifesto (as alex so eloquently put it) that our inner being is vibrating...

and so--when you think a thought and you are feeling GOOD that thought is part of your truth...it is true for you in the physical and it is true for you in the non-physical--and it is a match and it FEELS great and you are at that point in your creative power--your valve is open, your cork is floating, your boat is facing downstream and all is well...

but...

if you are thinking a thought that is NOT in alignment with who you really are--and you are feeling bad--your emotional guidance system will give you a feeling on the scale that shows you EXACTLY how far away you are from alignment with your source--and you see that what you are thinking is NOT your truth...

so, example...

I got dressed this morning--after vibrating that i was a red hot momma and that i had extreme power and magnetism and i was on fire...i put on a pair of capris and a cute top and looked in the mirror with my hair piled willy nilly on my head, curls cascading down and a beautiful crystal on my neck...and i looked and FELT wonderful because my thoughts about ME and my inner beings KNOWING who i really am were in complete alignment...and so, i trotted off to church with my kids--which i use as a time to meditate and be grateful for the universe and also to see my mother...which she loves and i am in alignment wiht that==so its all good.

And i sat down next to her, and i guess the top i chose was not to her liking because she looked at my cleavage and made a face..and i immediately felt badly and my hand went to my breasts and i pulled up the edge of the fabric...i caught myself feeling bad--and i then evaluated the situation...

I know who i am--i dont give a rip what anyone else thinks of me--i know i look good and i was dressing for ME and who i really am--my inner being is in complete alignment with that...but i have old habits and as a child, looked to my mother for approval--and that always felt badly--

why?

because my inner being knows i dont need anyone elses approval to be who i really am--and so, in looking to and reacting to my mother so she can be comfortable with ME, i was "dishonoring" myself and that felt bad...

so...

i took a deep breath--and i focused on being in alignment with my mother and the fun part of her spirit...i focused on her accepting me as i was, and me being ok to show her who i am...

do you know--in less than five minutes, my mother got the giggles...she was also whispering to me in the middle of the sermon and telling silly things to make me laugh and complaining about how long the sermon was and how she wasnt getting anything out of it and how she would rather be out living the day...

we even held hands...

so, i listened to myself--realigned based on the complete knowing that whenever i feel badly its because i am thinking a thought that is not my truth--and i realigned myself and my thoughts to be MY TRUTH with the full knowledge that it is MY thoughts, MY vibration and MY decision to in any given moment powerfully turn my boat around and get back to being ME...

happy mothers day--in gratitude to all the mothers i have had...

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Eternal mother of the universe--conduit of all physical children--we thank you

ON this mothers day, I sat in bed with a big plate of home made french toast that my kids made for me, reading home made cards and loving my new red sox jersey that my family got me for mothers day...and i feel so blessed and thankful for my life--my family team--my soul group--for being a mother, and for all the mothers i have had through eternity...for as an eternal being that has manifested many times, i have come into vibrational alignment with many women--with many souls who have agreed to be the vessel for my physical manifestation...

how wonderful is that???? I got to choose! They got to choose! the agreement was made in the non-physical again and again--and souls shared a journey here on earth!

For me, being a mother, and an artist, it was such a joy to look at the physical creation of my girls as the ultimate act of creativity--the sacral chakra is indeed a creative and emotional center--and the uterus and ovaries are right there in the center of it--soaking up all that creative energy and emotional passion...I also find it interesting to see how, in microcosm--the ovary is its own creative universe...energy is focused, potential is gathered, physical matter is created, and if all the requirements are met, that tiny physical speck of matter expands its potential to be the vessel for a soul! wow....and it happens again and again and again and again-all over the world, every day, every year, a new mother and a new child makes a soul agreement and a new point of physical perspective is created for the universe!

whooo hooo---WE are god--we are--we are the conduit through which spiritual matter is incarnated here on earth...we are the ultimate creators of the physical beings who inhabit this plane of consciousness! we are powerful, and gentle, strong, and loving, nurturing and creative, supporting and passionate...

We read stories
we create stories
we tuck kids into bed
we wipe snotty noses
we share joy and excitement
we calm fears
we teach by example
we pass on tradition
we share history
we wrap our arms around the world
we raise and watch grow
we nurture and tend
and then, we let go....and let fly....and watch life again manifest--away from us...as it should be...

here is to the blessing of mother hood...to all mothers out there--we have all been born from woman--not one of us is here who hasnt come out of a womb...some of us have shared life with our mothers, some have not--some have experienced great love and kindness from our mothers, some have experienced great contrast from our mothers--but we have ALL been born of a mother--and that mother in the physical agreed from the non-physical to give us what we desired--which was LIFE....and love so profound that they would give us the hard knocks we asked for...we expected and we desired, in order to become the expanded spiritual beings we are striving to become...

:) hugs~

being grateful....for my mom...

my mom and some of her grandkids being silly at christmas!

Like everyone, I have had some ups and downs with my mom...and through the study of law of attraction, and soul clusters, and abraham-hicks--i have come to realize that any contrast i experience with her is a blessing...it has helped me decide what it is I want to be like--what it is i want in my life experience etc...but i didnt always feel that way--knowing that her inner being created contrast for me lovingly based on things I wanted to experience before i joyfully incarnated here has been a great source or comfort and relief around the subject...

So, here is a rampage of appreciation for my mother...

I love my mom--she is a strong woman
my mother is a great cook
my mother is a great nurse and nurturer
my mother is very interesting
my mother is supportive
my mother is a great grandmother
my mother is a good housekeeper
my mother is an amazing gardener
my mother can be the life of the party
my mother is friendly
my mother loves to tell stories
my mother is intelligent
my mother is very detail oriented
my mother is loving
my mother is a great mom to 4 children
my mother can handle a heavy load
my mother is a great wife
my mother is a great caregiver
my mother can be a lot of fun
my mother was a good story teller and loved to read to us as kids
my mother is great with little babies
children love my mother
my mother makes friends easily
my mother takes on responsibility well
my mother is independant
my mom can be silly
my mom loves a good joke
my mom loves a walk in the garden
I love my mother~and my mother loves me!!!

Hugs to my mom--and all moms--more on moms probably tomorrow! :)

how to talk about things and not add energy to them...

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Having a heart-to-heart doesnt mean you will get more of what you dont want...

Someone was asking me about discussing past issues, or current challenges in light of what the Law of Attraction folks say about getting what you talk about--if you dont want to add energy to a subject so as not to attract more of it-do you just ignore it? cover it up? hide from it? how do you discuss it without it coming back to bite you in the butt?

one of the most valuable pieces of information regarding the universe is this...

if YOU decide on a process that feels good to YOU--and you get in alignment with that....then the universe will bend over backwards to make that so for you...you literally CREATE your own TRUTH...

That said--i have with a dear soul sister friend of mine developed a process that really works so you CAN discuss anything that is in your current now--or anything that was in your past that you feel reflects on your current now, without ADDING energy to that thing...

If you have ever seen or heard about how they do open heart surgery--they use a blood recirculator--this system takes all the blood out of the body and recycles it through the brain and body, thus nurturing the body, but it bypasses the main pumping muscles of the heart, so they can operate on it without the person losing all their blood...when i talk to certain people about things i am currently experiencing, i use a similar system like this--its a spiritual energy recirculator and it works like this...

If i feel the need to "open the valve to let off steam" i get into a mental place where i say--i am disconnecting my main power from the universe and i am going to recirculate...

I can then, VENT, RANT, BITCH, MOAN, feel sad, discuss, whatever, knowing full well that what i am talking about in that brief time is not affecting my overall vibration--and that energy is not going out to the universe...this place is also the VAULT...what goes in, does not go out--and we trade time talking about what we need to talk about, but whatever we hear is put in the vault and doesnt come out again--it isnt even thought about, or worried about, or dwelt on by the other partner--because you cant love and worry at the same time--its completely opposite vibrations

At the end of the discussion period, i always find a better feeling place on the matter--and then i honor the contrast, or the situation, that created in me a huge rocket of desire that set off a creative vortex to make my life even better--i do not leave that space of recirculation until i find even a little bit better feeling place and a little bit of hope...I then "mentally and spiritually reconnect with my main power source" and i thank my "witness" the person working with me on the issue for the blessing of having them sit and observe in a non-judgemental and unconditionally loving way...

i have created this mental process for myself--aligned with it--felt good about it, used it to great success and so--it IS....

others feel fear about discussing what is because they will draw more of that to them--and i can understand that--if i were talking about these issues constantly and trying to get sympathy for them, or have someone else give me solutions to them, then i would definitely be drawing them to me...

but to voice what is--release any pent up energy around it, so your cork is floating nicely downstream and then find a better feeling place--that is a wonderful thing...because, as a life long sailor--i KNOW full well that if you are running with the wind it takes a lot to turn that boat around and tack in another direction--especially if the current is strong...

hugs!

The tree of life...

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I thought that i should never see, a thing as lovely as a tree....

Someone asked recently about soul clusters...and was confused because Abraham-hicks states that we are all one and all part of the same source...and so, ofcourse does EVERY single major religion...its in the differentiation that we feel from individual physical perspective that we feel separate...but we do have "closer" relations within the overall scheme of things and these are the soul bits and pieces that we continue to interact with over multiple lives...

the way its been explained to me from source is this...

There is the tree of life (source) that is all that is--that takes in energy from the sun and creates nutrients for its physical being (creation, manifestation, law of attraction, expansion) and takes in water and minerals from its roots (creation of phyiscal substance from thought forms and energy)....and so, all that is is a living, breathing, expanding creating being...ALL ONE...

but this tree has roots--and it has a trunk--and it has branches, and it has twigs and then it has leaves, flowers, and fruit...

and WE as individual physical manifestations of source are the leaves--tiny individuated powerhouses of creative source, that are completely self sufficient in being able to take energy and nutrients and create MORE...IFFFFFFF we remain connected to source....

And...as a leaf, you have a leaf neighbor...and you have a soul cluster within that branch of your tree...and you can grow together, experiencing great expansion if you join energetic forces...

while the branch on the opposite side of the tree is experiencing different light, different wind, different humidity...etc AKA a different DESIRE for life expansion--those on your side of the tree will generally be focused in a similar direction=--they will have chose, as jody said--a loose decision to help each other experience the contrast they so desired so they could see this individual life from a pre-chosen perspective...for expansion, knowledge and indeed joy...

and at the end of the season (life in the physical) the leaves turn miraculous colors (return to pure positive energy) and shed their dead dry leaves (physical bodies) which are then recycled by the earth to create compost and soil that again FEEDS the tree of life (nothing is wasted, energy comes into form, through form and out of form)...the potential for new life remains inside the tree (universe, source, all that is) and when the right climactic and light situations occur (desire for coming into the physical again for creation)...new leaves grow...tiny buds flower with GREAT joy and feed the bees, and the birds and bless the world with fresh air and begin the cycle of creation again...

So, bless the tree...the flower, the plant--all physical representatives of this wonderful universe within which we live and breath and have our being...and know that you are indeed a member of a soul branch that shares much...and creates much for the entire universe...

off we go to celebrate!

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Happy Birthday Gramma C!!!!

Just a quick entry today cause we are out the door again...this time up to new hampshire to celebrate the 80'th birthday of my poppis mother...and what a wonderful woman she is--free spirit, full of positive energy and love...she has gone through tremendous contrast in her life--divorce, losing a child, having 7 kids, losing her husband, but through all that contrast, she has expanded, continued to be curious about life--continued to learn--continued to travel all over the world--

I would say that my mother in law is the first person i ever met who was thankful every day for her wonderful family--warts and all--for the life that she had--even if she had tough times, she knew that things could get worse, or better--depending on her attitude...

so, here is to my wonderful mother in law-who gave birth to my wonderful poppi--who is my soulmate and the last of her 7 children...and i honor the ancestors who brought her into the world because without her, he wouldnt be...nor our lovely children...

the universe draws to us those who we are supposed to spend time with--i love that those drawn into my sphere are so much fun to be around! :)

see you all monday--off to roadtrip again! it wicked rocks!

I love me....and so does the universe....

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Feelin the LOVE....for ME!!!!

A dear friend brought this lovely Abraham quote to my attention:

Source says unequivocally, all day everyday:

I love you, I love you, I love you.

You are lovable.

You are worthy.

Abraham-Hicks, Philadelphia, PA, 5-17-07



it is like the truth that stands as a column in the center of your path....calling to you--this is the TRUTH...and as you walk your path towards that truth--you can turn towards, it, you can side step it, you can turn away from it--heck, you can even jump over it...

but what feels best????????????? what brings the most joy????

i have found, over the years...that within society, to admit that you love yourself is looked on in a very negative way--its almost as if you are "full of yourself" and first off==what is wrong with that? what is wrong with being pleased with who you are? what is wrong with loving yourself and treating yourself with respect and giving yourself all the things you want and desire? nothing....

but we have been trained by society, by family, by religious sects to be humble--not to blow our own horns...to know that deep down inside we are failures, sinners, weaklings, not good enough...and definitely not deserved, in our natural state of the pure love of GOD/Universe/All that is...

and so, we incarnate into this world KNOWING that we are loved beyond measure--knowing that we are beloved children of the universe and we deserve to have each and every desire we choose to be met....but we also choose from the non-physical perspective to "forget who we really are" and thus, we forget that the universe inherently loves us...

and so, part of our path...if that is what we choose--is to figure that out all over again...and for some--reading the words, that the universe doth love us brings blessed relief, but for others it brings a DEEP sense of discomfort....a deep sense of this is not so for ME....

But the more you look upon the column of love in the center of your path--the more you strip away the false beliefs, the false impressions, the false sense of self that has been created for you on the physical plane--and the more your true sense of self will come through--and the sweeter and sweeter those words will become for you...

until, you can here them--I LOVE YOU--you are a magnificent creation! You are a joy to behold, you are a marvelous, blessed, beautiful, wicked rocking child of the universe and i will shower on thee great things--your hearts desire--anything you choose simply because you are marvelous and i love you, i love you, i love you....

and you will bubble with excitement, anticipation and joy because you know this to be TRUE....

:)

In defense of resting.....if you dont do it, the universe does it for you....

Slinky, the queen of relaxing!

YAWN!!!! Oh, i had such a wonderful trip out west with some dear friends and my favorite rock and roll band! This coming off a very busy time in my life, where my hubby has been home for an extended period of time....and its a sheer joy to have him home, but i also extremely enjoy time by myself--i LOVE being alone in the solitude of my home, with my animals and my projects and my imagination--but lately its been constant contact with humans...so, this trip came at the perfect time...DUH! thats the way the universe works...

But...on the flight out, i was thinking, oh, i cant wait to have some time alone, and soak in the beautiful japanese soaking tub at the hotel...it will be divine! Though, i knew i was meeting a dear friend at the airport and going to a rock show that night, I figured i could steal a few minutes to recharge and do what i had been longing to do....soak!

So, when i got to the airport after a lovely flight, watching movies (If you havent flown Virgin America yet, its tons of fun--you get this cool video screen and can check your email and chat with other passengers and make your own wicked cool music playlist and order food right from your seat...its mad awesome! and Non-stop from NY to SFO!), i got my bag and called my buddy, only to find out she had missed her flight! She wouldnt be in for another 4 hours and our other friends would pick her up at the airport and deliver her to our hotel in time for the show...

so....BAM....the universe gave me 4 hours alone time....and then BAM...her husband checked to make sure i could check into the hotel and yes i could...and BAM, i wouldnt have to come back to the airport to pick her up....so, i got my time alone--to soak...

now, i could have felt guilty about it--that she had to miss a flight and spend extra time in the airport...but frankly--that was her path-her vibration, her life--and my path, my vibration, and my life intersects with hers, but not on every level....when she finally showed up, she had had a nice time visiting with some folks also stranded and was laughing and giggling...so it wasnt sooo bad....

Well, the whold trip was amazing...we had a BLAST in cali and las vegas...got home late on monday and had to take care of hubby after a wisdom tooth out on early tuesday morning--and i was spent...and i thought--gosh, i dont wanna do anything but rest...i felt a bit bad about that cause i knew i had stuff i should be doing....but i went to bed early, in the hopes that i could get back on east coast time...

not to be--i got sick in the night--a bad cough and my time of the month all at the same time--so guess what???? on wednesday--i sat on my butt all day and rested! The universe--BAM gave me what i had been asking for--an excuse to rest...

ofcourse, i could have just rested--i dont need an excuse to rest--when you look at it from the broader perspective...everything gets done in the end and there is no pressure really for a do it NOW mentality in most cases...so, i juice fasted for two days--and now i am feeling much better...

And not only better--more enthusiastic to get the action journey started...Hubby is traveling this weekend--perfect time to get the place in order and get back into the swing of things---

So, the moral of this long assed ramble is this--if you need to rest--if you need time alone--take the time...you are worth it--and the universe will do what it can to help you! :)

You all wicked ROCK! :) alex

Relationships--conflict as the secret gift of the universe....

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You are a team in your Soul's Expansion!

Someone recently commented on my long marriage and asked me about our success...they also asked how to see clearly relationship issues full of conflict and how to avoid them…I looked at them in a puzzled way, because i had never wanted to AVOID anything in my relationship with my Poppi--what ever had to happen, had to happen in order to build this wonderful friendship that has given us both so much LOVE and JOY and GROWTH....so, here was my answer...

one thing that always helps ME whenever i experience relationship contrast is to look at it from the non-physical perspective of everything really is perfect...

and the person "doing me wrong" is really part of my own shared inner being that LOVES me so much it is giving me the contrast, situation or event i desired to experience in order to shoot off rockets of desire for change...

and i will say, that looking back over a 25 year relationship with my husband, it has been a roller coaster--and i realize that there was indeed a pattern of internal contrast--expansion=--plateau--external contrast--pulling together into a deeper tighter relationship--resolution--gratitude--plateau--internal contrast...expansion...

etc. etc....and so on and so on--always evolving...as two mountain climbers inch their way up the frozen mountain face...sometimes pushing, sometimes pulling, sometimes climbing, sometimes scrambling for a foot or hand hold...but always exhilarated, and moving steadily upwards to the summit--into the light...to find the success of overcoming--only to climb back down and start again some other day....there IS no end...it is always evolving...and it never gets done...even at the end of this life...there is more--and generally, you can bet that if you have a deep relationship with someone that brings you great JOY and great consternation--you will be spending more lifetimes with that soulmate...cause its DELICIOUS and exciting and productive...

i am NOT saying that sometimes, to love yourself or because you are vibrating differently that leaving a relationship is not the right thing to do--i am just trying to put into perspective that contrast in a relationship is a gift--

the minute my marriage stops giving me contrast is the minute we stop growing--and the relationship ceases to have meaning....it loses its reason for being...

with the pain, comes the joy--and i am thankful for it all--

and i am loving to see how all of you who have suffered previously are REALLY getting into alignment, and shooting off desires for what you REALLY want--because contrast helps you FOCUS more keenly on what you really truly want in a relationship, in a soul mate, in anything....and what you want can come in the form of who you are already with, or it can come in the form of someone else...its all about focusing on the essence of what you want--through the gift of contrast that other souls lovingly bestow on you...

This knowing...this viewing contrast as a gift can be so freeing! Its also wonderful to understand--to really get to the meat of the idea that EVERY piece of contrast that you encounter is there because YOU desired it--from the non-physical perspective--YOU choose to expand! and you requested the expansion and other soulmates lined up and offered to give you the contrast you chose! So, you will feel such a huge sense of relief to know that what is coming was lovingly planned--and you will go through it much more smoothly becuase you will be ALLOWING and reaching for the honed desire and putting that out to the universe and knowing beyond all doubt that what you desire shall be yours--in life, in love, in health, in abundance...in all aspects of your wonderful existence...

how wicked rockin is that????

Im Back in the saddle again--some old stuff on manifesting...

Beautiful Fenway Park! Home of the Amazing Manifestational Red Sox!

Hi everyone! Had a WONDERFUL trip to the west coast with dear friends following my favorite rockin band...the timing of the trip was perfect, as my freedom desire and adventure desire were high...more on that later---

didnt want to leave you all high and dry here in cyberland, so i am posting an old piece i did on attracting situations and creating even in a tough situation...and how our thoughts and feelings are MOST important when we are flowing in a fast stream....new stuff coming in the following days as i settle back into this wonderful homelife of mine! hugs all!

*******this is an old piece showing how even in a difficult situation we are attracting…

I am online today because i am in a hotel room in boston on a Red Sox baseball roadtrip with my family--and one very sick little girl who either has food poisoning or a massive allergic reaction to clams...

she seems to be doing fine--after much intending--but she cant DO anything but sleep and sit in the bathtub and suck on ice cubes...

what is interesting about all this is that a number of things happened this week that showed me we were indeed flowing the energy at an amazingly quick rate--and miracles were happening with regard to our wonderful adventure--like getting tickets to every game we wanted to go to---and to get tickets to the most prestigious areas of Fenway park at face value--free food, etc. even had my husband call that a foul ball would come right at us and it did--he is indeed a marvelous creator...

but we were getting stuck on having tickets for the thursday game--and while some tickets were available--none of them seemed right--and so, we decided to just let it ride---that we would either wait in line for tickets or something would come up in the morning...

The day before, at lunch time, my oldest daughter had seared ahi tuna on a salad because she FELT she had been eating poorly and since she has a DELICATE tummy, she wanted to have something HEALTHY==-we talked about seared tuna and how they handle it very carefully because you can easily get FOOD poisoning from poorly handled seafood....

BINGO--dynamic set up....a week before, she had eaten a hamburger that had sat out for a while and then been reheated--and she had a very mild case of food poisoning...then, someone put the seafood and food poisoning thing in her mind...

at the park, we sat in an area where they bring you your food and you order from a menu--the week before, my husband had been given a free legal seafoods clam chowder and had raved about it--S decided she didnt want a meal--only her OWN and FIRST full bowl of clam chowder....Poppi had a few bites, but she ate the whole thing...

the rest is history--or should we say, it was flushed down the toilet...and man did she get sick--but taking her to a strange dr. or hospital in a city that is not her own, only to be given IV fluids and bedrest seemed very upstream to me...so, we are in contact with her favorite dr. by phone, who is monitoring her situation....

and ofcourse, we just happened to be given a suite in this hotel, that has a giant conference table, a seperate bedroom with two big beds and a living room--all at the same rate as a simpler room because when we got here they didnt have our room ready...

So...even though we are currently dealing with the manifestation of my lovely daughter--we are co-=creating a much softer experience--as i type, my younger daughter C is getting ready to go to the pool and jaccuzi with me--Poppi is resting on the couch (he also felt ill from the few bites of clam chowder he had--but he had also been focusing on feeling BAD that he had eaten poorly this week) and i am at my very own conference table typing--while S is sleeping peacefully in the other room with my healing quartz crystal around her neck and homeopathics at the ready...

the universe takes care of its own--Fast moving streams need tending...but always remember, your thoughts can change whatever is coming down the pike and NOTHING is set in stone!

Rock on! :)

opposites attract.....

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Every color of the rainbow has its counterpart in the opposite side of the spectrum

so, i was laying in my huge bed...my comfy bed with the feather bed mattress and down comforter--all tucked up in there...and i was so excited about all this knowing pouring into me--and then i started thinking about how joyous coming into knowing is--and about my beloved penny analogy...and how i would like to expand on that and expand on the IB escrow...

and then i had another knowing...and it comes into your head in a rush--and you are thinking 6 different directions at once and then it all flows...

IF YOU LOOK AT ALL YOUR DEAR FRIENDS, ALL YOUR FAMILY, ALL THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE--YOU WILL SEE THAT NOT A SINGLE ONE OF THEM HAS THE SAME BELIEFS AS YOU ON EVERY SUBJECT...

so...they are here to present you with contrast--that is their job...if YOU are the center of your reality, they are indeed tools created by you through your inner being for the express purpose of contrast and data collection so that you will be constantly and consistently refocusing your desire and sending off new rockets of desire into your vibrational escrow...

without this blessing, without these individuals sent to pointedly test your positions, you would cease to expand...

without their beloved contrast--you would cease to feel the need to grow..

So, i am blessing my sister, my mother, my brothers, my friends, my father, my crazy neighbor... i am blessing them for bringing me contrast, and helping me to know unequivocably what i desire...

I know, you will say, well, what about my lover? they are everything i want and i truly believe they believe as i do--and i will tell you that yes, while you are bonding, in that insatiable lusty period called infatuation, the universe sees fit to make you believe that they agree with you--but are YOU really showing THEM who you really are at that point? no--you arent--you are being who YOU believe they want...(or maybe you were pre abe...) then, once the heart bonds are strong, and the sex bonds are strong...you relax and you leave that stage of infatuation and you get to the more loving stage...

and if you think about it this is where many folks fall out of it--because all of a sudden, they are feeling contrast and seeing that person for the very first time...

I celebrated my 20th anniversary of marriage this october--and i have been with my husband/soul partner for 25 years, and i can say that consistently he surprises me with his shifts--with his different views--with his challenges to my beliefs and his decisive choosing of the opposition...and i love him for it...

I do remember dating people years ago, who agreed with every word i said--who had the same beliefs--and you know what? eventually, i felt them weak...and they lost their appeal for me--because i was NO longer challenged...

So, i will cease, from this point on--knowing that the individuals who i love share my collective inner being--from wishing that any of them were any different...i bless them for their path and i thank them for the contrast that they bring into my life--so that i can focus--and refocus--and the contrast that makes the good times together so amazingly sweet and rewarding

thanks for listening--love you all!! now back to your regularly scheduled happy day!

rockin it out in San Francisco on the first day of my westcoast roadtrip--the Goddess....

hugs everyone!!!

Playing at life, in Real Life….

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YOU CAME HERE TO HAVE FUN!!!!

With great anticipation of what was to come, you said YES to life, a thousand times YES, and in you came, incarnating into another physical lifetime. Now that you know about soul-groups, it’s obvious that you did indeed choose your parents, and they choose you as well to be a part of their Life Play, but while the Life Plays intersect, they are in no way dependant on each other for anything other than the bare bones of the scenario. You get to decide what you want to DO and how you want to BE within the context of the basic life scenario that you chose, and through the law of attraction, you drew into your life, people (often soul mates), things, experiences, places and even animals (who are also part of your soul-group, and often, even part of your own soul!) that would help you to enact the Life Play scenario that you had chosen and allow you to experience the things you wanted to gain wisdom on and create further desires for MORE.

From the very earliest moments of your life, you were a powerful creator of your reality. Your desires, from a soul perspective, set forth before you even came into this world, influenced all that you felt, all that you experienced, how you were treated, where you went and who you interacted with. You influenced your social status, your race and ethnicity, how your parents, brothers and sisters, teachers and friends acted towards you, and where you lived in the wide world.

Since you also agreed to participate in the Life Plays of other soul-group members, you were witness to their revolving struggles and joys in life, while you continued to have experiences based on your personal Life Play scenario which became your Path and your Truth. Every major life experience has been coordinated in order to give you more information, more data, more wisdom and more desire based on the Path that you chose.

It’s also interesting to note that while YOU are experiencing life and expanding your own personal wisdom and soul wisdom, you are also sending back to the divine realm information about the physical plane and helping the universe to expand in a richer, more textured, more detailed version of itself. You are helping, through your life experiences, and your thoughts, desires and creations to expand the entire universe, because you are indeed Divinity focused in a physical body!

So, how much more detailed would the information sent back to source energy be on any given topic or situation, if MORE THAN ONE physical being were sending it back? Exponentially more detailed, my dear friends! Instead of experiencing an event, and sending a one-sided “accounting” of the situation and the desires it created, when two or more soul mates experience together, they are all sending back their own personal “accounting” of the situation and desires it created, and Divine Source is responding to them ALL and thus expands out in many different directions, and includes all the variations of desires and creations, instead of just one. You could liken the situation to a comparision of a flat cartoon graphic and a three dimensional clay model of the event. Obviously, the more data Source collects from individually focused spiritual beings here in the physical plane, the more Source can expand based on the desires of all involved.

OH how that wicked ROCKS!!! the Universe LOVES to play--it loves to mix it up--and then it loves to pour it out--all over us LUCKY spritual/physical beings! ENJOY~!!!

who i really am....losing and finding myself again...

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Life is all about the journey not the destination!

I kind of jumped into this blogging thing assuming that most of the folks who were visiting knew a little bit about me....well, as the universe would have it, more and more folks are connecting with the energy here, and i thought it fitting to give a WEEEEEE bit of background into who i am and what i would like to do here in my happy corner of the bloggerverse....

As a small child, I always followed my joy....and when i did that, things would always turn out the way i wanted them too...and life was indeed magical....indeed thrilling...and i was a happy being, full of imagination and enthusiasm for life....ofcourse, this way of being got me into trouble with those who thought they could show me how to live life according to the script that society has set forth for young women in America in the latter part of the 20th century...

I grew up in a family that was living the AMERICAN DREAM. Both my parents were immigrants to this country, and came here with little more than their education, the clothes on their back and a dream that they could do anything they put their mind to. While they saw their lack of understanding of American culture as a disability, I view it, in retrospect as something that greatly benefited me in my development as a strong being. I lived with a passionate and emotional family where creativity was encouraged, but self-sufficiency was expected. I had big dreams, which were eventually shifted and curtailed as i integrated into society. Some of my newly revised dreams were influenced by what I thought my parents wanted for me ( i wanted to please them because they loved me and i loved them), and others influenced by what society expected of young women coming of age at that time.

Even though I didn’t achieve some parts of my dream, I did achieve others, graduating from college and creating a successful career, personal relationships and material success. I also gladly gave many of them up in order to get married and have a family. Along that path, I put who I was on the back burner and offered all my love, all my support, all my care and creativity to my children and my family, working long hours at a career in the advertising industry that had long ago lost its luster for me, coming home to create the perfect household, tend to my children and be supportive for my husband. Beyond the basics of self maintenance, I was not at all thinking of my needs or desires or dreams in the equation that had become my life, because that is what was expected of me in a society that worships the young and wild, but still pointedly assumed a transition to “family first” for women as they marry and raise children. I got on with the busy work of life, and ignored the lonely hole that was developing at the core of my being. I worried a bit about that lonely spot, but tried to blow it off as just me being silly, because I was basically happy with the trappings of a successful life, and lucky to have a great husband and supportive family. It was not until much later that I realized that that loneliness was ME longing for contact with who I really was, my true self and my own independent spirit, which had always followed its own bliss, but was not being stiffled by what others wanted and expected.

That’s when fate dealt me a strong blow, or so I thought, when I became debilitatingly ill with Lymes Disease. Speaking with doctors and suffering through treatment, I settled into a hopelessness and depression that this was all my life would be. In retrospect, this seeming crisis actually set me on a path to personal growth that far exceeded any dreams I had for myself previously.

Along this path, I have learned above all else, to put myself FIRST, selfishly, solely and completely FIRST in line when it comes to any thing I do. I have also, in the long periods of time that it took for me to recover and completely erase the illness from my body, spent many hours following my heart in the exploration of all spiritual paths that felt good to me. I finally and completely released myself from meeting any requirements that society expected of me and eclectically put together a life that has brought me a great reawakening of who I really am, and led me consistently farther and farther along the path to where my joy and bliss resides.

In my meanderings and exploration of finding what brought me elation, I came across many wonderful truths from a wide variety of teachings and beliefs. Some are as ancient as this world, others relatively new, and still others, recycled and expanded versions of older truths. It is with immense joy that I share this sampling of various teachings with you, and my personal realizations for expanding my life that have brought me to know myself completely. I am confident that at the completion of reading these musings, that you will feel a tug to begin exploring more fully who YOU really are and allow that person more complete acceptance and expression in your life.

First, I will tell you what this blog is NOT. It is not a blog about blaming society, or blaming our mothers and fathers, or blaming our husbands or wives, or blaming our children, or blaming ourselves for where we are and what we are feeling.

This blog is about understanding that WE create it all for ourselves and we can RE-create it all again for ourselves, if we aren’t happy with where we are! Its also about reconnecting with the universal wisdom of our souls and using the natural laws of the universe to create a dynamic life where you can be yourself and enjoy miraculous relationships with others and satisfy EVERYONE by satisfying yourself FIRST…I will go over ways you can refine your view of the world and tools you can use to create the life you dream of having. A life where you are the centerpiece in the lovely display that is your universe.

So sit back, get comfy, put the kids to bed, take the phone off the hook and enjoy YOUR time reconnecting with YOU….its gonna be a wicked rockin journey!

happy birthday to MEEE....happy birthday to MEEE

OH, i woke in such a joyous mood today! its my birthday! and i was so filled with gratitude to the universe for all the wonderful fun adventures i have had in this incarnation. It really is a joy to be ME in this body right NOW at this time in the world....so, i thought i would do a rampage of appreciation--one of my favorite Abraham processes--on my life and times here roadtrippin through the universe...

I love this world--and all that are in it
I love who i am--the silly and the profound
I love where i am--by the ocean, on an island, by the city, in the green forest...
I love who i am with--my parents, who taught me so much, and gave me the lessons i needed to learn, my husband, who knew me the first time he saw me and has shared this roadtrip with me, my beautiful daughters, who shine like a light from heaven and create and have fun and just love being, my dearest friends, who have come to me from all over the world, connecting as the universe has bent over backwards to bring them to me!!!
I love the things that interest me--abraham, the abeforum, this lovely blog, rock and roll, blue oyster cult! traveling, cooking, reading, yoga, you name it, i will try it and usually love it!
I love that i can laugh, and look at life as the game that it is...
I love that i can look at pain as the gift that it is
I love that i am abundant in many ways-health, wealth, joy, gratitude, wisdom
I love that every day brings me something new to ponder, something new to experience
I love that i am curious
I love that i LOVE....

happy birthday to me...i love me, i am a beloved child of the universe...I deserve all the abundance of the universe and anything else that tickles my fancy--this is a wonderful place to be!!!and i WICKED ROCK!!! :)

So how do you expand the universe through your Life Plays?

a smile from the universe!
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From your very limited human perspective, you see your life experiences as happening TO you and most likely beyond your control, but obviously, from your small degree of focus, you have yet to discover that you are literally creating the world with your thoughts and desires.

Have any of you seen a crystal forming, or frost spreading across glass on a cold winter’s night? You see that on one side of the crystal, there is nothingness...blank space, and on the other side there is the ice crystal formed, pattern intact, singularly beautiful and unique. At the edge, there are tiny needles shooting out, every which way, in no apparent pattern, darting here and there, crossing each other, becoming thicker and thicker, moving one way and then another until they cross so much that the randomness disappears and the pattern comes forth. Again, similar to what came before, but unique in its own way.

That seemingly simple, divinely beautiful, yet exceedingly complex process exactly mirrors how humans, through their desires for more, expand their souls and the universe. The universe simply cannot expand without the physical life force experiencing situations, which create desires for different and expanded experience, which issues requests for more to the universe (the ice needles) which are then focused upon, and energy is added to them and they become part of the REALITY that you desire.

Most folks are sitting in the middle of the frost, its observable reality, its comfortable, it’s there. Life shows them some intensity that creates desires in them for change, but the change is slower, their overall creative energy slower. It’s a comfortable life, but their degree of enjoyment from creating an intensely passionate life with the subsequent expansion of their soul and soul group and the universe is much smaller. Others may feel frozen as if in a rut or groove of the ice crystal, and feel unable to create the energy and passion needed to jump the tracks and manifest the life they truly desire. It’s always wonderful to know that the law of attraction is eternally working, no matter where you are in your life, and you can instantly decide to make a change just by focusing on the things you truly desire. The universe will summon forth all that is necessary for the creation, as long as you follow your happiness and honor your own personal Truth.

Some folks are more conscious of the creation process and closer to the defining edge of the creation--in the frosty pattern that is beginning to develop. They are the ones experiencing great intensity in their lives, and they are the ones sending out those ice fingers, requesting more from the universe, with their positive energy and focus, affecting the expansion of the universe through their desires and the Future path of ALL THAT IS.

So, we as humans are standing on the frontier of the universe, creating physically and through our desires for MORE, energy is being stored and vibrations are being pushed up and up and up--and matter...is literally being formed out of nothing but thought and energy.

For things to CHANGE--for a desire to be created in the physical realm, the level of vibration has to raise enough TO MAINTAIN THAT CHANGE AND CREATION in the physical realm. It is not enough to CREATE the change--you have to have the momentum to maintain the change.

This is why things do not just appear out of thin air when you desire them, though, if you truly believed it could be so, it would happen. As you develop and practice more skills for conscious living, you will learn to actively focus your energy and increase the vibration of manifestation more quickly, by releasing any beliefs that are holding you back, and by constantly looking to feel good about where you are and where you are going.

It’s also important to note a very interesting phenomenon in this physical dimension. Every single person has their own reality, and you can only truly see your own, because you can only get into your own head. No matter how much you know someone else, how long you have known them, how much you have shared and even if you have known them their entire life, you cannot ever share every single moment and thought they are having. Each has come into this world with different perceptions, abilities, perceived biases and a chosen Life Play to enact, and all of these things are valid and acceptable for them alone, just as yours are such for you. When we accept that no two people see things exactly the same way, we realize what a moot point it would be to try and get others to see our points of view and accept them as their own. They CANT! They can only see their own point of view. They may empathize with you, or dissuade you, but the best position would be to accept you as you are and allow you your views, just as that would be the perfect stance for you in all physical interactions. Imagine how wonderful it would be to live in a world where all views were allowed, and no one asked anyone else to change in order for the other to feel comfortable and safe.

Divine Source has also set it up this way from the earliest time to ensure a broad range of viewpoints, experience, desire and a varied asking for MORE. This stimulates continued Universal expansion in many directions and keeps everything divinely balanced. If we all had the same reality, the same experiences and desires, the expansion would be one dimensional and unsustainable, but because of the wide variety of Life Plays, we are all experiencing different things and asking for more in a multitude of areas.

update on the abeforum

for those of you wondering, the abe forum took a major crash. David is currently doing his best to retrieve it, but posts and information may be lost. If you talk to people who are wondering, please give them this website address so they can check in for updates. Steph and i are in the process of putting together a forum for LOA roadtrippers, and i will be posting information on that soon. All are welcome and all conversations allowed. :) hugs to you all and i will keep you posted! alex.

How you came to be YOU then you… your soul group, family, youth and life experiences..

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We are all one family we are all ONE!

First, an introduction to your soul, soul mates and soul-group—even though they have known you forever!

Long before you incarnated into the body that you now inhabit, you came into conscious being as a shining silver and gold string of light and love energy. You were pure love, pure energy and pure consciousness. You knew you were YOU and you knew that you were not alone, because you were intertwined with many many other similar soul strands that formed different branches, many interweaving to form roots and ultimately the trunk of the tree of universal source energy that is the life force of creation in the universe.

You had the ability to focus your thoughts and energy and through the law of attraction, which operates in both the physical and non-physical dimensions of the universe, you were able to use your creativity and desire to manifest into the physical.

You found it so very enticing to know “Who You Really Are”, which is a piece of divine source energy with the magnificent power to create anything you desire from your own thoughts and focus. You also knew that you, and all your connected souls, each linked by the thin silver threads of source energy, expanded the entire universe with your desires and creations. You literally stretched the boundaries of what was, what was indeed possible, and created out of nothing but thought and desire things that were once impossible.

This true creative power was so intoxicating to you, that you desired to use it again and again in an ever changing environment so you could experience different scenarios in the physical plane and develop new desires and create new things. Since you are an eternal being, the idea of using one lifetime did not seem enjoyable to you, for you wished to use this creative power again and again, adding each time, a perfect pearl of life incarnation to the strand of soul energy that remained at the core, eternal, always safe, always protected and always pure divinity.

Since you wanted each incarnation to be fresh, and since you so enjoyed discovering over and over your VAST creative power and your own exciting soul identity, you chose to come into the physical plane with a type of amnesia related to your power, so you could see it as freshly as a new born baby would see it.

Of course, you were far from a new born baby, because each incarnation you lived, provided you with vast knowledge and experience that focused your desires and expanded your soul and all of that wisdom and knowledge were available to you. With each incarnation, you were literally MORE than you were before, and so was the universe.

You moved through these lives and continue to move through these lives, but you do not do it alone. You are accompanied on your journey to a varying degree by soul mates, which are members of your original soul branch and are bound close to you vibrationally, as two gold strands are twined together on a necklace. There are many soul mates on a soul branch, and in each lifetime, they may play different roles. Sometimes one of your soul mates is your sister, another time, your mother, another time a lover. Many people believe that there is only one soul mate in this world for each person, and this is completely the opposite of what is true. There are countless soul mates, and most if not all of your immediate family are members of your soul-group. If you encounter a non-related individual who is a soul mate, you will feel a very strong sense of knowing them before, and either a very strong sense of friendship and love, or anger and distain. Soul mates can be here to give us the greatest love or show us the hardest time! During each lifetime they are there for you, and you for them to help you live out the scenarios that you thought you would enjoy during this incarnation. These are the soul beings who love you eternally, unconditionally and enthusiastically, and they will always answer YES to you when you ask from the soul perspective for them to participate in your life so you can experience a life situation that will expand your soul into ever growing knowledge of the world and the universe.

You are here to have experiences. As I said previously, there are no good or bad experiences or choices, there are only experiences and choices and it is your view of them that polarizes them. From the soul’s perspective, that knows there is no real death, that you can come back again and again, that the soul is always protected and nothing bad can happen to it or damage it because it is pure eternal divine energy, all experience is enthusiastically embraced and accepted. Additionally, a soul knows exactly what they are going to run into when they choose to come into the physical, and the universe never forces any soul to come into a life that they did not choose, that they did not excitedly anticipate and take part in creating.

As you pondered in the non-physical realm, the life that you wished to live, you chose the basic scenario, not the complete day to day details. You chose specific experiences you wanted to have that would create great desire within you for specific outcomes, and you asked your soul-group for assistance in creating these experiences in the physical plane. You created the outline for this LIFE PLAY and you lovingly assigned roles to those soul mates that would be incarnating with you or rendezvousing with you along the path you had chosen