Co-creation....

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Many hands and hearts make light work of co-creation!

Abraham has often said, you cannot create in anothers experience...and i think they say that so folks will not focus on changing others...as in, well, you might want to drop the if they change i will love them bit...it never works...

but i do strongly believe that my family is a wonderful team...and while we have individual desires and shoot off individual rockets of desire--we have always focused on the soul cluster aspect of our family--while allowing personal freedom, privacy and support for all individual endeavors...

That said--i have long settled into and been comfortable with the idea that people give me money to be who i am--i havent worked at a paying job in over 15 years, and still i am tremendously abundant...

This past february, due to some extreme desires on the parts of all family members, my beloved vibrated out of a very contrasty work situation, and the universe has blessed us with abundance for an entire year and then some...we have been having the time of our lives, traveling--enjoying each others company--just being together and spontaneously deciding to do things...its been such sheer joy--and as the school year ends and my kids have more time-we are looking forward to more suprises and wonderous adventures provided by the universe--because this is what we focus on...

every morning, when we can--we all climb into our huge feather bed--cat included and we hug--and cuddle--all four of us--and then, we hold hands and we set intentions with the universe...dear lord and goddess, dear universe, we thank you for our lives and all that you have given us--we know that it is through your blessings and your love that we can accomplish anything we desire--and then we talk on what we wish to focus on for the day--for the week--for our lives--abundance, financial freedom, health, happiness, adventures, harmony, love, life etc...and more specifics, like great tickets to see the red sox, the kids doing awesome on their finals--me facilitiating a ton of girl scout things, etc...

and it feel so very good--and we know that through the four of us--we focus our intentions on co-creating an amazing life together...

and we know the universe will always support us--and it is so...because law of attraction says it is so--we live a happy lovely life...

and others would have us focus on what is--and sometimes some of us do focus on what is--and what is in the future--and tell a story that is not to the liking of all of us--and so, i sit here, and i will tell the story of our co-creation that would bring us all great joy--and i ask the universe for all our inner beings to converse--and to come into alignment with our joint desires...

We want to spend loving time together freely--whenever we wish to share time--the time is there--and it is good

we want to share financial freedom together--and know that the unverse will always provide us with all we need and more to do all the things we wish to do...abundaceis ours and comes from many avenues...we need do nothing but come into alignment with abundance and with great joy feel it fill us up.

we want to share health and happiness and harmony together---because we love each other and we know we can shine

we want to share adventures and surprises and thrills together, because it is what we love to do together--

we want to be able to take the time we need alone for each other--and bless that time apart as recharging and joyous private time...filled with individual freedom and bliss...we want to support each being in our family team in their individual pursuits and goals....

we want to travel together happily...and see new places and meet wonderful new people...because it is what we love

we want all of us to be doing things that they love--doing things that are engaging, exciting, fulfilling and enjoyable, because life can be that way--and the universe supports us in that desire..

and so...it is

all hell breaking loose....

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Up up and away...it can make you feel giddy!

Over the past few days, a number of dear friends have spoken to me on the issue of using new spritual techniques in order to change and grow and how invariably, "all hell breaks loose" at the point where you are finally feeling GOOD about the new stuff--and it feels like backsliding or scary and why does this type of thing happen...this is what i wrote..


oh, this is a lovely thing to talk about--because people hear the term and they get scared! I like the idea of it being like shaking things up--and cleaning house...

what i have also noticed, and this came up for me the other day after meeting with a very gifted spiritual healer who worked on some VERY OLD holding in my body and released it--that most of the time when you release an energetic holding pattern that you unconsciously felt was "protecting" you--you draw to YOU once again, an event or situation that tests the actual need for the holding--you go through the process then without that holding pattern and you deal with the event in a different way...thus--it is now completely released...

example...

I had some energetic holding (stagnant energy aka resistance aka body armor) in my sacral and root chakras...i understood already that many of my issues in life have dealt with these two areas--a number of abuse issues, spoke to the sacral chakra holding--but the root chakra issues spoke to a feeling of being picked on--a feeling of not being allowed to be different, and a feeling that NO one would stand up for me in life--that i always had to take care of myself--I knew what the issues were--and i had been working on releasing them myself--but sometimes it takes a gifted hand to HELP vibrationally because our holding patterns are sometimes so ingrained, so subtle, we dont even "feel" them anylonger...

so, she released this stuff...and the VERY next day--all hell broke loose for me regarding the root chakra issues...i had someone Pick on me related to something i was doing that was highly sucessful--to the point she reported me to the administration related to that project...and even though i was RIGHT--I felt so angry--so hurt, and did not understand why she would pick on me, although i knew energetically that it related to jealousy--which is not an emotion that i have EVER had in my being--so, i dont understand the driving force behind it...

in the past, i would have kept this to myself--i would have held it in--and i wouldnt have asked for help--this time--i cried out loud, i allowed myself to FEEL the emotions i felt and then, i asked for help--and this time--instead of feeling rejected and alone--people came to my aid--stood up for me--made things right...and it felt good--because i reached out where i wouldnt have done that before...i have been completely able to release this because i know its not about me--i was just an easy target, and it wasnt about ME being less than--it was about ME thinking on the situation and seeing it was NOT MY TRUTH...

so, yes, all hell broke loose--and i dealt with it in a different way than ever before--because i didnt fall back on old patterns--and it felt marvelous afterwards...

here's to all hell breaking loose--and shaking things up a bit!