all hell breaking loose....

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Up up and away...it can make you feel giddy!

Over the past few days, a number of dear friends have spoken to me on the issue of using new spritual techniques in order to change and grow and how invariably, "all hell breaks loose" at the point where you are finally feeling GOOD about the new stuff--and it feels like backsliding or scary and why does this type of thing happen...this is what i wrote..


oh, this is a lovely thing to talk about--because people hear the term and they get scared! I like the idea of it being like shaking things up--and cleaning house...

what i have also noticed, and this came up for me the other day after meeting with a very gifted spiritual healer who worked on some VERY OLD holding in my body and released it--that most of the time when you release an energetic holding pattern that you unconsciously felt was "protecting" you--you draw to YOU once again, an event or situation that tests the actual need for the holding--you go through the process then without that holding pattern and you deal with the event in a different way...thus--it is now completely released...

example...

I had some energetic holding (stagnant energy aka resistance aka body armor) in my sacral and root chakras...i understood already that many of my issues in life have dealt with these two areas--a number of abuse issues, spoke to the sacral chakra holding--but the root chakra issues spoke to a feeling of being picked on--a feeling of not being allowed to be different, and a feeling that NO one would stand up for me in life--that i always had to take care of myself--I knew what the issues were--and i had been working on releasing them myself--but sometimes it takes a gifted hand to HELP vibrationally because our holding patterns are sometimes so ingrained, so subtle, we dont even "feel" them anylonger...

so, she released this stuff...and the VERY next day--all hell broke loose for me regarding the root chakra issues...i had someone Pick on me related to something i was doing that was highly sucessful--to the point she reported me to the administration related to that project...and even though i was RIGHT--I felt so angry--so hurt, and did not understand why she would pick on me, although i knew energetically that it related to jealousy--which is not an emotion that i have EVER had in my being--so, i dont understand the driving force behind it...

in the past, i would have kept this to myself--i would have held it in--and i wouldnt have asked for help--this time--i cried out loud, i allowed myself to FEEL the emotions i felt and then, i asked for help--and this time--instead of feeling rejected and alone--people came to my aid--stood up for me--made things right...and it felt good--because i reached out where i wouldnt have done that before...i have been completely able to release this because i know its not about me--i was just an easy target, and it wasnt about ME being less than--it was about ME thinking on the situation and seeing it was NOT MY TRUTH...

so, yes, all hell broke loose--and i dealt with it in a different way than ever before--because i didnt fall back on old patterns--and it felt marvelous afterwards...

here's to all hell breaking loose--and shaking things up a bit!