On death, and dying....

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We are all just passing through....

A friend of mine is awaiting the passing of his very elderly grandmother--he knows she had a good life and is ready to leave, but his family is angry with him for not being in the fear and grieving space that they have chosen--I shared this story of my grandmothers passing with him to help him see how truly wonderful it is to return to pure positive energy....


people feel fear surrounding death for a number of reasons--and when anyone dies, it reminds them of their own mortality....they are where they are, and you are where you are...and YOU can intend and prepave to have this experience be a blessing for you, and allow them to have their own feelings as well.

you need not explain yourself to others, but maybe you could offer words as you offered them to us here related to how you are feeling--i think anyone would agree that your granny was a wonderful person, she lived a full life and she wouldnt have wanted to suffer and pine away--she wants to move on and thats what she wants and everyone is going to eventually have to accept that..

i will tell you a wonderful story--the passing of my lovely tassy granny at 94--she had a wonderful life as well, but things were starting to weigh heavy on her here, not the least of which was the fact that because of minor strokes, my mom could no longer take care of her at home--and so, she went into a very lovely adult home and finally into a nursing home--we visited often, my mother every day--and one day, i was wheeling her outside and she said to me--alex, i am tired, i am tired of living and i want to die...and i looked at her and said--granny, wanting something and willing it to be so are two different things--if you want to die--then die...she smiled and we had a lovely rest of the afternoon--my granny believed in the "life force" and in her later years had rejected formal religion--but to make my mother happy, she went through all the final religious rites...though i knew in her heart she believed as i do...

about a week later--my parents and I were supposed to go out sailing--but the wind was tremendous, and so, they came over to our house instead to visit--we got a call there that my granny was in congestive heart failure--and so, we all ran to the nursing home--she was huffing and puffing and my mother had her put on oxygen...i gently took my mothers arm and led her out--and told her granny wants to die--she signed a DNR and that means no special help--my mother wanted to fight this, but in the end, my father who is also a dr. and also intuitive asked for it to be removed...granny struggled a bit with fear at that point, but my lovely daughter--who was 2 at the time went up to her as we were leaving for the evening and kissed her and said--its ok granny, the angels are not here for you--its not your time...

The next day when we went to visit her, she was comfortable, but definitely laboring--and we sat around and talked with her about life and funny stories from our childhood--my whole family was there wiht her--and it was like being at a birth--we were waiting for the reaper--we all knew that--but it was joyous, it was standing on the edge of the divide and we were in heavens waiting room--waiting for the call so to speak.

I had to drive my older daughter to dance and thought against it, but my parents told me to go--before we left, my younger daughter was very quiet and looking around the room--my sister was holding her and she who is also intuitive said to chri--do you have something to say to tassie--and she looked wide eyed around the room and then said--tassy,they are here for you--you can go now...she kissed her and left...

ten minutes later we got the call from my father that tassy had passed--she was holding hands with my sister and mother--gave a suprised gasp, smiled and that was the last breath she took--her death face was not one of pain or fear, but one of happy surprise...

when we returned--my mother, who is a midwife and nurse was given permission to wash my grandmothers body, so there were no nurses present in the room when we came...my mother told us each to go in and say our goodbyes--and i went in and kissed her and touched her lovely wattled soft neck skin that i thought was so soft and beautiful as a child--and her old hands, which had knit millions of things for us kids when we were children..i walked back out and my mother was trying to contain chri--she wanted to go see tassy--and my mother said oh no--she is dead--and she wouldnt stop fidgetting until she broke free and ran into the room-she climbed up on that bed--and kissed tassy on the cheeks and hugged her and said bye bye! she then took the throw blanket off her (one she had bought from home) and took her knitting back--threw them over her shoulders and said--these are mine now--she wont need them anymore...and walked out--(she still sleeps with that blanket and tassy still visits her in her dreams)...

when i got home, i had a call from a very gifted friend--who said to me--your granny was a grand lady (this woman didnt know her, and i hadnt told her she had died--but my grandmother was from landed gentry in england--her family went back to the doomsday book)...she also told me that a great wind was blowing for her--warm and soothing...

The day i went in to see my granny before she died--i had whispered to her...gran, today is a good day to die--you have a great tailwind...

to this day, i feel blessed to have shared with her her passing--i wish i could have been there in that moment--but it is what it is and thats that--she was with family--but she was also with others, who came to take her--to her great suprise and delight...

death does not exist--life is eternal--we shift--from one plane to the next and return to pure positive energy--YOU know this to be true--your grandmother knows this to be true...all that matters in this is how YOU feel about it....you dont owe them any explanation at all for your beliefs--unless they are in the right space--they wont even be able to hear you--and you can never feel badly enough to make them feel better...you can honor their choices though, by not rubbing your feelings in their face...

The tree of life...

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I thought that i should never see, a thing as lovely as a tree....

Someone asked recently about soul clusters...and was confused because Abraham-hicks states that we are all one and all part of the same source...and so, ofcourse does EVERY single major religion...its in the differentiation that we feel from individual physical perspective that we feel separate...but we do have "closer" relations within the overall scheme of things and these are the soul bits and pieces that we continue to interact with over multiple lives...

the way its been explained to me from source is this...

There is the tree of life (source) that is all that is--that takes in energy from the sun and creates nutrients for its physical being (creation, manifestation, law of attraction, expansion) and takes in water and minerals from its roots (creation of phyiscal substance from thought forms and energy)....and so, all that is is a living, breathing, expanding creating being...ALL ONE...

but this tree has roots--and it has a trunk--and it has branches, and it has twigs and then it has leaves, flowers, and fruit...

and WE as individual physical manifestations of source are the leaves--tiny individuated powerhouses of creative source, that are completely self sufficient in being able to take energy and nutrients and create MORE...IFFFFFFF we remain connected to source....

And...as a leaf, you have a leaf neighbor...and you have a soul cluster within that branch of your tree...and you can grow together, experiencing great expansion if you join energetic forces...

while the branch on the opposite side of the tree is experiencing different light, different wind, different humidity...etc AKA a different DESIRE for life expansion--those on your side of the tree will generally be focused in a similar direction=--they will have chose, as jody said--a loose decision to help each other experience the contrast they so desired so they could see this individual life from a pre-chosen perspective...for expansion, knowledge and indeed joy...

and at the end of the season (life in the physical) the leaves turn miraculous colors (return to pure positive energy) and shed their dead dry leaves (physical bodies) which are then recycled by the earth to create compost and soil that again FEEDS the tree of life (nothing is wasted, energy comes into form, through form and out of form)...the potential for new life remains inside the tree (universe, source, all that is) and when the right climactic and light situations occur (desire for coming into the physical again for creation)...new leaves grow...tiny buds flower with GREAT joy and feed the bees, and the birds and bless the world with fresh air and begin the cycle of creation again...

So, bless the tree...the flower, the plant--all physical representatives of this wonderful universe within which we live and breath and have our being...and know that you are indeed a member of a soul branch that shares much...and creates much for the entire universe...

Oh, the JOY of surprises!!!

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Surprises make ya jump for joy!!!

Hello fellow roadtrippers...just got back from boston and i wanted to share with you the deliciousness of something my poppi and i love to do--that is surprise our children...it is one of the most delicious things to do--because you have all that fun planning the surprise, you have all that lovely anticipation of the surprise going off as expected-and then you have this HUGE wellspring of happy energy to bask in when the surprise comes off--and then finally the love and gratitude of the person(s) you are surprising...

So...We went to a lovely birthday luncheon for my mother in law--who absolutely LOVED that surprise--(as you can see, the children were focused on surprises already--as they were excited to be a part of their granny's surprise...) but they thought we were driving home that same night--

my poppi and i had other plans--we secured a hotel room in boston and tickets to a red sox game--something the kids love--we have surprised them twice before with tickets, one time being a double surprise where they THOUGHT they were surprising their dad with something, only to find out he was IN on the trick and surprised them with something totally different...but as i said, we had surprised them twice before along the same lines and you would think they would get smart to it and call us on it...

but they dont--and i think thats because they are in alignment with and LOVE and attract these surprises and they want to be AS surprised as we want them to be...

so, it was funny because we DONT go through boston to get home from this trip--but this time we obviously had to, and they didnt notice the situation until we were almost to the exit for fenway park...they had been watching a movie--they questioned the situation then, and poppi said he had taken a wrong turn and could get on the mass pike from local roads--as we passed fenway, with all the crowds of people decked out in red sox garb happily walking to the game, the kids begged, "can we go to the game please!!!" and we said--no, we dont have tickets (you CANT get tickets day of game without knowing the tricks and waiting on line for 4 hours...so, they knew we couldnt go)...they even said--"we are being punished for something!" and literally had tears in their eyes as we passed by the park...

now, with that emotion coming up--we were tempted to tell them then...but decided no--lets play it all the way out--and continued to talk about finding the entrance to the highway--and how we could get tickets another time, but really needed to be HOME tonight...we then turned into the hilton and unwound the window as the bell captain asked us if we were checking in...pete smiled and said yes--and i turned to the girls and said--SURPRISE!!!

they held it in all the way to the room--but as the bellboy closed the door, they let out a huge WHOOOOOOOOOOP and grabbed us both and jumped up and down literally for JOY...and the energy felt so amazing!!!

needless to say, we had a wonderful time--they won the game and everyone was happy as a clam...and so, you see on our life roadtrip we attract adventure, abundance, love, harmony, health and as many surprises as we can get! :)

and it WICKED ROCKS!

off we go to celebrate!

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Happy Birthday Gramma C!!!!

Just a quick entry today cause we are out the door again...this time up to new hampshire to celebrate the 80'th birthday of my poppis mother...and what a wonderful woman she is--free spirit, full of positive energy and love...she has gone through tremendous contrast in her life--divorce, losing a child, having 7 kids, losing her husband, but through all that contrast, she has expanded, continued to be curious about life--continued to learn--continued to travel all over the world--

I would say that my mother in law is the first person i ever met who was thankful every day for her wonderful family--warts and all--for the life that she had--even if she had tough times, she knew that things could get worse, or better--depending on her attitude...

so, here is to my wonderful mother in law-who gave birth to my wonderful poppi--who is my soulmate and the last of her 7 children...and i honor the ancestors who brought her into the world because without her, he wouldnt be...nor our lovely children...

the universe draws to us those who we are supposed to spend time with--i love that those drawn into my sphere are so much fun to be around! :)

see you all monday--off to roadtrip again! it wicked rocks!

hola...playing with the universe in paradise!

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One of the lovely sea creatures that i saw snorkeling in mexico that i had never seen before!

Hello fellow roadtrippers! Just got back from an amazing trip to mexico, and i thought i would share with you the wonderful manifestations we had while playing with the universe in mexico...Some times, when you are completely relaxed and at ease, and you know you have no "action journey" in mind, but can just play, things come to you at an amazing rate...

When going down to our place in mexico, I intended for easier internet access, just in case i wanted to check into the "real world"...as the last time i was there, it was spotty at best...this time, we had wi-fi! and it was great to sit by the pool with our lovely laptop and check our mail with ease!

My daughter desired to go parasailing while we were in mexico--and at first i had some resistance to that--but then before we left, i lined up with it--and two folks who i dearly admire told me that they had gone on a tandem parasail and loved it--i then lined up with finding a tandem parasailing outfit that was close to our place in cancun so we wouldnt have to travel to go and do it--upon investigating, we found a lovely outfit just across the strip from us on the beach at a lovely hotel, with a great beach...so, off we went...my younger daughter wasnt sure she would go, but after watching her sister and dad have so much fun, up we went...

before going up, i intended to see some sea creatures from the sky....and the universe didnt disappoint me--we saw two giant manta rays swimming languidly through the clear turquoise water...leaving a trail of sand cloud behind them--we were both filled with such joy--we even let go of the railings and pretended to fly through the sky--it was such an amazing feeling of elation...when we landed, we spent a lovely hour in the beautiful warm water while pelicans weaved and dove for fish around us...

We had great fun attracting and feeding fish and iguanas at our compound...years ago, there were only two iguanas on the property, but this year there were atleast 10...and we were able to feed them this time with hibiscus flowers and bananas...our old fish friends also came to the dock each night to eat bananas and fried potatoes...it was such fun to see them all again...

I had heard that there were crocodiles living in the lagoon by the dock, but in all the years i have been visiting, i had never seen one--my daughters and i set an intention to see one this year...and sure enough, on our last day there, we saw a young female nestled against the seawall, taking the sun...it was amazing to see such a powerful wild creature up close!

I love the earth, I got a huge positive sign this past week in mexico that the earth is indeed flourishing--i have been scuba diving for over 26 years...this time, i only snorkeled, but i saw sea creatures that i havent EVER seen, and others that have been depleted over the years and are now in abundance and bigger than ever...above the ground, there is still evidence of hurricane damage, but the trees and plants are growing again and will cover over any damage left....

when you look for signs that the earth is healthy, you will find them--it is law...just as you attract what you think about....we had fun playing with nature and the universe this past week! Its one of the reasons we love to roadtrip through this lovely plane....its just so much fun!!! :)

up, up and away again...:)

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Our little corner of paradise! Cant wait to get back there!

Hello fellow roadtrippers! Just livin the dream..roadtrippin through life with the law of attraction...yep, my mantra, and tomorrow I strike out with my little family group on yet another adventure--this time to mexico...God, i LOVE mexico--if you ever have the chance to go there and visit with all the lovely people and enjoy the terrific food and tequila and culture and history--its a true GEM...and just wonderful that it is soooo close to the US, but parts are like another world...

so...off we go--intending yet again to have such joy--such tremendous adventure--knowing that wonderful things happen in our lives--that we are indeed charmed and blessed and receiving the wonderful abundance of the universe because we are open to it--feel we deserve it--ask for it on a regular basis, get happy knowing its there for the taking--and being VERY grateful for each and every blessed minute of love, joy, health, harmony, abundance, happiness...more please! :)

Internet is spotty at our place in Mexico...so, if you check in and dont see me, its only cause i am having an amazing time--and i am sure i will collect more stories from the leading edge of creating with the law of attraction that i will share with you on our return!

Until then--WICKED ROCK ONNNN! :) the goddess!

Relationships--conflict as the secret gift of the universe....

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You are a team in your Soul's Expansion!

Someone recently commented on my long marriage and asked me about our success...they also asked how to see clearly relationship issues full of conflict and how to avoid them…I looked at them in a puzzled way, because i had never wanted to AVOID anything in my relationship with my Poppi--what ever had to happen, had to happen in order to build this wonderful friendship that has given us both so much LOVE and JOY and GROWTH....so, here was my answer...

one thing that always helps ME whenever i experience relationship contrast is to look at it from the non-physical perspective of everything really is perfect...

and the person "doing me wrong" is really part of my own shared inner being that LOVES me so much it is giving me the contrast, situation or event i desired to experience in order to shoot off rockets of desire for change...

and i will say, that looking back over a 25 year relationship with my husband, it has been a roller coaster--and i realize that there was indeed a pattern of internal contrast--expansion=--plateau--external contrast--pulling together into a deeper tighter relationship--resolution--gratitude--plateau--internal contrast...expansion...

etc. etc....and so on and so on--always evolving...as two mountain climbers inch their way up the frozen mountain face...sometimes pushing, sometimes pulling, sometimes climbing, sometimes scrambling for a foot or hand hold...but always exhilarated, and moving steadily upwards to the summit--into the light...to find the success of overcoming--only to climb back down and start again some other day....there IS no end...it is always evolving...and it never gets done...even at the end of this life...there is more--and generally, you can bet that if you have a deep relationship with someone that brings you great JOY and great consternation--you will be spending more lifetimes with that soulmate...cause its DELICIOUS and exciting and productive...

i am NOT saying that sometimes, to love yourself or because you are vibrating differently that leaving a relationship is not the right thing to do--i am just trying to put into perspective that contrast in a relationship is a gift--

the minute my marriage stops giving me contrast is the minute we stop growing--and the relationship ceases to have meaning....it loses its reason for being...

with the pain, comes the joy--and i am thankful for it all--

and i am loving to see how all of you who have suffered previously are REALLY getting into alignment, and shooting off desires for what you REALLY want--because contrast helps you FOCUS more keenly on what you really truly want in a relationship, in a soul mate, in anything....and what you want can come in the form of who you are already with, or it can come in the form of someone else...its all about focusing on the essence of what you want--through the gift of contrast that other souls lovingly bestow on you...

This knowing...this viewing contrast as a gift can be so freeing! Its also wonderful to understand--to really get to the meat of the idea that EVERY piece of contrast that you encounter is there because YOU desired it--from the non-physical perspective--YOU choose to expand! and you requested the expansion and other soulmates lined up and offered to give you the contrast you chose! So, you will feel such a huge sense of relief to know that what is coming was lovingly planned--and you will go through it much more smoothly becuase you will be ALLOWING and reaching for the honed desire and putting that out to the universe and knowing beyond all doubt that what you desire shall be yours--in life, in love, in health, in abundance...in all aspects of your wonderful existence...

how wicked rockin is that????

Im Back in the saddle again--some old stuff on manifesting...

Beautiful Fenway Park! Home of the Amazing Manifestational Red Sox!

Hi everyone! Had a WONDERFUL trip to the west coast with dear friends following my favorite rockin band...the timing of the trip was perfect, as my freedom desire and adventure desire were high...more on that later---

didnt want to leave you all high and dry here in cyberland, so i am posting an old piece i did on attracting situations and creating even in a tough situation...and how our thoughts and feelings are MOST important when we are flowing in a fast stream....new stuff coming in the following days as i settle back into this wonderful homelife of mine! hugs all!

*******this is an old piece showing how even in a difficult situation we are attracting…

I am online today because i am in a hotel room in boston on a Red Sox baseball roadtrip with my family--and one very sick little girl who either has food poisoning or a massive allergic reaction to clams...

she seems to be doing fine--after much intending--but she cant DO anything but sleep and sit in the bathtub and suck on ice cubes...

what is interesting about all this is that a number of things happened this week that showed me we were indeed flowing the energy at an amazingly quick rate--and miracles were happening with regard to our wonderful adventure--like getting tickets to every game we wanted to go to---and to get tickets to the most prestigious areas of Fenway park at face value--free food, etc. even had my husband call that a foul ball would come right at us and it did--he is indeed a marvelous creator...

but we were getting stuck on having tickets for the thursday game--and while some tickets were available--none of them seemed right--and so, we decided to just let it ride---that we would either wait in line for tickets or something would come up in the morning...

The day before, at lunch time, my oldest daughter had seared ahi tuna on a salad because she FELT she had been eating poorly and since she has a DELICATE tummy, she wanted to have something HEALTHY==-we talked about seared tuna and how they handle it very carefully because you can easily get FOOD poisoning from poorly handled seafood....

BINGO--dynamic set up....a week before, she had eaten a hamburger that had sat out for a while and then been reheated--and she had a very mild case of food poisoning...then, someone put the seafood and food poisoning thing in her mind...

at the park, we sat in an area where they bring you your food and you order from a menu--the week before, my husband had been given a free legal seafoods clam chowder and had raved about it--S decided she didnt want a meal--only her OWN and FIRST full bowl of clam chowder....Poppi had a few bites, but she ate the whole thing...

the rest is history--or should we say, it was flushed down the toilet...and man did she get sick--but taking her to a strange dr. or hospital in a city that is not her own, only to be given IV fluids and bedrest seemed very upstream to me...so, we are in contact with her favorite dr. by phone, who is monitoring her situation....

and ofcourse, we just happened to be given a suite in this hotel, that has a giant conference table, a seperate bedroom with two big beds and a living room--all at the same rate as a simpler room because when we got here they didnt have our room ready...

So...even though we are currently dealing with the manifestation of my lovely daughter--we are co-=creating a much softer experience--as i type, my younger daughter C is getting ready to go to the pool and jaccuzi with me--Poppi is resting on the couch (he also felt ill from the few bites of clam chowder he had--but he had also been focusing on feeling BAD that he had eaten poorly this week) and i am at my very own conference table typing--while S is sleeping peacefully in the other room with my healing quartz crystal around her neck and homeopathics at the ready...

the universe takes care of its own--Fast moving streams need tending...but always remember, your thoughts can change whatever is coming down the pike and NOTHING is set in stone!

Rock on! :)