giving up finally...and the universe delivers!

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Finally understanding what it means to release something to the universe....

For many years I had heard from religious friends--to LET GO and LET GOD...a friend of mine even gave me a little funny saying frame that said--give your troubles to god before you go to bed, he will be up all night anyway...

and i kind of let it in and mulled it over and struggled with the idea that i wanted to BE dependant on myself and not some outside source of inspiration--i knew i had my own spirit and my own guidance and my own piece of the universe inside of me and i didnt need to give anything over to something ELSE to make things work--i ONLY had to know that it was possible--i ONLY had to get into a good feeling place about it and all would be well...

well....

Up comes the whole idea of blogger not posting to custom domains--and this wasnt just affecting ME, but it was affecting hundreds of thousands of long time users all over the globe...and there was a lot of negative energy focused on it...

At first, i waited--and then i decided to put up this sister site so i could keep up to date on posts--and it felt ok to redirect readers to this site, but i didnt feel right putting it up onto an rss feed or anything other than asking readers to come here through a shoutbox link--which was amazing that i could even do that...

Finally...after 2 months, i realized that i need to change things--and completely let it go and decided to take down the original site and redirect to the sister sight--technical terms aside--i was giving up and letting go and moving on...

so, i got on the phone with my lovely soul sister who is blessed with technical knowledge and we started to take the original site down...she completely deleted it...and then when we refreshed--all my test posts from months of trying popped up! the sight--which we had LET GO...was there! and now i can post to it again with full capacity!!!!

Amazing.....complete release of wanting--complete release of any outcome related to what i had wanted to occur--in the face of thousands of folks negative feelings about a situation...I just said--who cares--lets do something else--felt GOOD about that...new it would be ok--and BAM...I got what i wanted originally! I finally understand what others meant by let go and let god...when i released all expectations of something happening in the face of others MASS negative consciousness around a subject and looked for something better...the universe allowed into my experience what i wanted in the first place because i was NO longer blocking it by looking at what the nay sayers were thinking or saying--i completely removed my gaze from the situation, and it righted itself--how cool is that...?

So...i will continue to post threads on both the orginal site--www.rocknrollgoddessspeaks.com where people can subscribe to my rss feed and get the site content updates delivered directly to their computer and the light weight sister sight http:/rocknrollgoddessspeaks.blogspot.com for those who have come into my rockin roadtrip blogosphere through that link.

Thanks everyone for reading--thanks to everyone for being patient...things are gonna wicked rock even more now--you will see! whooo hooo! life is GOOOD! more please! love, alex.

Oh, the JOY of surprises!!!

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Surprises make ya jump for joy!!!

Hello fellow roadtrippers...just got back from boston and i wanted to share with you the deliciousness of something my poppi and i love to do--that is surprise our children...it is one of the most delicious things to do--because you have all that fun planning the surprise, you have all that lovely anticipation of the surprise going off as expected-and then you have this HUGE wellspring of happy energy to bask in when the surprise comes off--and then finally the love and gratitude of the person(s) you are surprising...

So...We went to a lovely birthday luncheon for my mother in law--who absolutely LOVED that surprise--(as you can see, the children were focused on surprises already--as they were excited to be a part of their granny's surprise...) but they thought we were driving home that same night--

my poppi and i had other plans--we secured a hotel room in boston and tickets to a red sox game--something the kids love--we have surprised them twice before with tickets, one time being a double surprise where they THOUGHT they were surprising their dad with something, only to find out he was IN on the trick and surprised them with something totally different...but as i said, we had surprised them twice before along the same lines and you would think they would get smart to it and call us on it...

but they dont--and i think thats because they are in alignment with and LOVE and attract these surprises and they want to be AS surprised as we want them to be...

so, it was funny because we DONT go through boston to get home from this trip--but this time we obviously had to, and they didnt notice the situation until we were almost to the exit for fenway park...they had been watching a movie--they questioned the situation then, and poppi said he had taken a wrong turn and could get on the mass pike from local roads--as we passed fenway, with all the crowds of people decked out in red sox garb happily walking to the game, the kids begged, "can we go to the game please!!!" and we said--no, we dont have tickets (you CANT get tickets day of game without knowing the tricks and waiting on line for 4 hours...so, they knew we couldnt go)...they even said--"we are being punished for something!" and literally had tears in their eyes as we passed by the park...

now, with that emotion coming up--we were tempted to tell them then...but decided no--lets play it all the way out--and continued to talk about finding the entrance to the highway--and how we could get tickets another time, but really needed to be HOME tonight...we then turned into the hilton and unwound the window as the bell captain asked us if we were checking in...pete smiled and said yes--and i turned to the girls and said--SURPRISE!!!

they held it in all the way to the room--but as the bellboy closed the door, they let out a huge WHOOOOOOOOOOP and grabbed us both and jumped up and down literally for JOY...and the energy felt so amazing!!!

needless to say, we had a wonderful time--they won the game and everyone was happy as a clam...and so, you see on our life roadtrip we attract adventure, abundance, love, harmony, health and as many surprises as we can get! :)

and it WICKED ROCKS!

hola...playing with the universe in paradise!

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One of the lovely sea creatures that i saw snorkeling in mexico that i had never seen before!

Hello fellow roadtrippers! Just got back from an amazing trip to mexico, and i thought i would share with you the wonderful manifestations we had while playing with the universe in mexico...Some times, when you are completely relaxed and at ease, and you know you have no "action journey" in mind, but can just play, things come to you at an amazing rate...

When going down to our place in mexico, I intended for easier internet access, just in case i wanted to check into the "real world"...as the last time i was there, it was spotty at best...this time, we had wi-fi! and it was great to sit by the pool with our lovely laptop and check our mail with ease!

My daughter desired to go parasailing while we were in mexico--and at first i had some resistance to that--but then before we left, i lined up with it--and two folks who i dearly admire told me that they had gone on a tandem parasail and loved it--i then lined up with finding a tandem parasailing outfit that was close to our place in cancun so we wouldnt have to travel to go and do it--upon investigating, we found a lovely outfit just across the strip from us on the beach at a lovely hotel, with a great beach...so, off we went...my younger daughter wasnt sure she would go, but after watching her sister and dad have so much fun, up we went...

before going up, i intended to see some sea creatures from the sky....and the universe didnt disappoint me--we saw two giant manta rays swimming languidly through the clear turquoise water...leaving a trail of sand cloud behind them--we were both filled with such joy--we even let go of the railings and pretended to fly through the sky--it was such an amazing feeling of elation...when we landed, we spent a lovely hour in the beautiful warm water while pelicans weaved and dove for fish around us...

We had great fun attracting and feeding fish and iguanas at our compound...years ago, there were only two iguanas on the property, but this year there were atleast 10...and we were able to feed them this time with hibiscus flowers and bananas...our old fish friends also came to the dock each night to eat bananas and fried potatoes...it was such fun to see them all again...

I had heard that there were crocodiles living in the lagoon by the dock, but in all the years i have been visiting, i had never seen one--my daughters and i set an intention to see one this year...and sure enough, on our last day there, we saw a young female nestled against the seawall, taking the sun...it was amazing to see such a powerful wild creature up close!

I love the earth, I got a huge positive sign this past week in mexico that the earth is indeed flourishing--i have been scuba diving for over 26 years...this time, i only snorkeled, but i saw sea creatures that i havent EVER seen, and others that have been depleted over the years and are now in abundance and bigger than ever...above the ground, there is still evidence of hurricane damage, but the trees and plants are growing again and will cover over any damage left....

when you look for signs that the earth is healthy, you will find them--it is law...just as you attract what you think about....we had fun playing with nature and the universe this past week! Its one of the reasons we love to roadtrip through this lovely plane....its just so much fun!!! :)

lets tell a story....

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I love love love being LUCKY!!!!

a dear friend and soul guide asked me to start telling a story that made me feel good--its an abraham process that she is very interested in and it sparked me to do the same thing...

so many stories to choose from from my past that make me feel GOOD..so, i thought--what is the dominant thought that i want to vibrate at...

and i decided to combine two smaller stories into one exponentially bigger story surrounding LOA and abundance and it makes me feel GREAT...

and you are supposed to tell your story to as many people as possible and repeat your story over and over and then "see what happens..."

so...here goes...

Even before i was attracted to abraham, i always knew that good things came to me, and they came to me when i knew they were gravy on the top of the roast beef, but they also came to me when i asked for them...and they continue to come to me...

and it felt so good one day when my husband decided he didnt want to go to this church fund raising dance, but i said to him, well, we have to go because i already bought the tickets, and besides, we are going to win the door prize which was a 52 inch toshiba big screen HD tv...

and so, when we got to the dance, we had a ton of fun, and then, they announced the winner of the door prize and sure enough--we won...and we walked up onto that stage all giggles and whooo hooos! and we got it! and when we finally got it home--and put it in our basement it was wonderful to have this thing that came to us out of our "luck" out of our complete and total belief that it was OURS before it was delivered--it is such a delicious feeling to just think--YES...we are going to win--abundance is going to come to us...

and once i was in vegas with a friend of mine and her husband was playing slots and we sat down and started playing slots too and she said to me, and i agreed with her--we are going to get LUCKY--and i played 10 bucks and we won a little, but then she handed me another ten and said--we are lucky together...and then the next play--we hit for over 250 bucks...and that felt soo good, because we KNEW we were going to win and it was such a lovely feeling collecting those winnings and having a delicious meal with them...

good, abundant things come to me--i am blessed, i am simply a miraculous, abundant, lucky winner in all things in life and what i want comes to me easily--as if i am beconning it with a soft whisper--come to me--i deserve you--i desire you--you are mine!