in appreciation...of soil!

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Gettin down and dirty...How AWESOME is that?

I just came in from digging in my garden...since i was a wee little lass i have loved to get my hands into the warm dirt of spring...to feel it crumble, moist between my fingers, full of live things...full of dead things...smelling of leaf mold and deep dark places...soil is synonymous with dirt and dirty--and to me it so far from that--it is potential--like money--it is full of energy, and nurturing and life soon to come and life long gone...

Soil--when i put my hands in it, i connect with the primal mother GAIA, the goddess of the earth--who IS the earth, and we share her body--gaia delivers to us all the physical manifestations of our body--through the elements, organic chemicals, ethers--what thought concieves in the way of life, Gaia provides for us...ask and receive...

What is so wonderful also about soil--is its eternalness...it is a substance in itself, but not made by itself--it takes in the left overs of millions of plants and animals long gone--it takes in the dust of rocks that were once mighty mountains, the clay from deep in the moist banks of the sea, sea minerals, metal ores, ancient water from hidden aquifers...it takes it all, and layers the earth--and says...grow here...come and be warm here, come and sprout strong roots, and grow ot the light...come and make your beauty known, out of my deep dank lovely depths...come and open to the world...and enhance it...where ever there is soil and water...drop in a seed and it will grow...no matter what else is around...no matter what anyone says--on the sides of a highway--in abandoned back lots--in a prison yard...soil has its own agenda...its own destiny--it says...grow, live, feed...i am here...lowly to some, but one of the most powerful things on earth...

Why wouldnt you LOVE to get your hands into that soil--that mother of all life on earth--that mother of all nourishment here on earth, that final resting place of all that have died on earth--that keeper of the seeds and home of the worms...the energy of it--the promise--is so intoxicating!!!

Here's to soil--I love ya! You wicked ROCK!

thats what i want....ya...thats what i want!!!

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We are beloved children of the universe and deserve everthing our hearts desire--just like this lovely little tropical cottage!

I love what abraham says about money and abundance and potential--that folks go around WANTING money for the sake of money--but that money is actually potential for ACTION or material creation in one's life and unless you have an IDEA of how to spend those vasts amount of money, that money really wont want to come to you--well, it will COME to you to the level that you allow it and to the level that YOU believe you deserve it...

and i have found that to be the case in my life--i used to work hard, and get paid a decent wage--and i used to pray to the universe that we would always make ends meet--and guess what? we did--and i was grateful for that...

and then, me and my poppi decided that we were going to get rid of the apartment in our home and make it a one family--and we also decided that i was going to stay home and raise our daughter soon to be plural--and so we took a 2/3 cut in earnings in one year...and we knew we would get by--we prayed to the universe that we would make ends meet--and we did--and we were grateful and it was good...

But then, i started to change that prayer--and that prayer became, that we would always have enough money to do all the things we wanted to do--and by golly--we did--and then we started increasing the things we wanted to do--and by golly we still had enough money!

And then i changed my prayer to be that we would always have MORE than enough money to do all the wonderful magical adventurous things we wanted to do--and guess what????

So...now i am expanding my idea of what i would do with vasts amount of abundance--what i would do with financial freedom on a luxury level...poppi and i just went out to lunch and here are some of the things we would do with our abundance that is already IN our vibrational escrow--and the universe is preparing to deliver it to us immediately when we come into alignment with feeling worthy of it and knowing where to use that potential...

so here are some fun things..that we ARE doing with our abundance...

Thank you for the land in new hampshire where we keep our own sugarbush to make organic maple syrup--its wide and vast and serves as a nature preserve as well as a place to maintain traditional methods of sugaring and keep lovely new england ways alive...We thank you for the connected organic educational farm as well....where people can come and learn about the land and sample traditional food stuffs, and kids can play with farm animals and ride horses that have been rescued and adopted to live in this lovely rural setting...

Thank you for the trip across the US to all the American League ball parks to see our favorite Red Sox play...thank you for the bus load of friends who will join us and enjoy our passion for baseball...thank you for batting practice at fenway, and the lovely 3 bedroom penthouse apartment where we stay when we come to boston to use our season tickets...

Thank you for the warehouse where we store our classic cars...especially for the 57 chevy nomad that i have dreamed about for so long--its such a beauty with teal paint and pearl inlays and lovely custom leather upholstery! i just have so much fun driving it!

Thank you for the contractor/architect/interior designer who completely remodeled and refurnished our current home which we will be staying in for the next 6 years until chri graduates from high school--we love this house and we love this neighborhood--so with the new amenities, like master suite with jaccuzzi tub, indoor lap pool, sauna, yoga studio, green house, whirl pool, gym and media center--its a perfect home base--thank you as well for our lovely housekeeper who keeps things running smoothly and loves to take care of our pets when we go on extended trips...

Thank you for first class travel all over the world to see greece, italy, england, franch, china, tahiti, spain, morrocco, monaco, brazil, portugal, japan, australia to visit my sister, figi, bora bora, thiland just to start...we will also greatly enjoy cruising the meditteranean, the entire caribbean, scuba diving in hawaii and touring alaska....Thank you for the giant world map with the big red stickys that we have placed on all the wonderful places we have visited!

thank you for first class travel within the united states to see all the sights and especially for hiking in all the national parks, like yellow stone, the grand canyon, bryce canyon, mount rushmore....acadia, croatan....we love the listings of the national parks and enjoy crossing them off one by one as we visit them and take tons of lovely pictures on our state of the art digital camera and video...

Thank you for allowing us to have fun with random acts of kindness--we especailly love to go to our favorite restaurants and theaters and tell the owners that we will pay for everyones meal or show all day long as long as they dont tell them ahead of time--we enjoy greatly the thrill people get when they are suprised! We love to give people surprises and we will continue to create bigger and bigger suprises for bigger and bigger joy!

We thank you for allowing us to support our favorite rock bands with VIP luxury travel for their touring--we have so enjoyed sharing music and time with them, and we will greatly enjoy giving back to them so they can enjoy their road experience more...

Oh joy, oh rapture, of adventure, oh charmed life--wonderful things happen to us--there simply is no limit to the fun we can have--and the abundance we create by giving the universe a reason to bestow its potential on us! :) it WICKED ROCKS!

happy mothers day--in gratitude to all the mothers i have had...

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Eternal mother of the universe--conduit of all physical children--we thank you

ON this mothers day, I sat in bed with a big plate of home made french toast that my kids made for me, reading home made cards and loving my new red sox jersey that my family got me for mothers day...and i feel so blessed and thankful for my life--my family team--my soul group--for being a mother, and for all the mothers i have had through eternity...for as an eternal being that has manifested many times, i have come into vibrational alignment with many women--with many souls who have agreed to be the vessel for my physical manifestation...

how wonderful is that???? I got to choose! They got to choose! the agreement was made in the non-physical again and again--and souls shared a journey here on earth!

For me, being a mother, and an artist, it was such a joy to look at the physical creation of my girls as the ultimate act of creativity--the sacral chakra is indeed a creative and emotional center--and the uterus and ovaries are right there in the center of it--soaking up all that creative energy and emotional passion...I also find it interesting to see how, in microcosm--the ovary is its own creative universe...energy is focused, potential is gathered, physical matter is created, and if all the requirements are met, that tiny physical speck of matter expands its potential to be the vessel for a soul! wow....and it happens again and again and again and again-all over the world, every day, every year, a new mother and a new child makes a soul agreement and a new point of physical perspective is created for the universe!

whooo hooo---WE are god--we are--we are the conduit through which spiritual matter is incarnated here on earth...we are the ultimate creators of the physical beings who inhabit this plane of consciousness! we are powerful, and gentle, strong, and loving, nurturing and creative, supporting and passionate...

We read stories
we create stories
we tuck kids into bed
we wipe snotty noses
we share joy and excitement
we calm fears
we teach by example
we pass on tradition
we share history
we wrap our arms around the world
we raise and watch grow
we nurture and tend
and then, we let go....and let fly....and watch life again manifest--away from us...as it should be...

here is to the blessing of mother hood...to all mothers out there--we have all been born from woman--not one of us is here who hasnt come out of a womb...some of us have shared life with our mothers, some have not--some have experienced great love and kindness from our mothers, some have experienced great contrast from our mothers--but we have ALL been born of a mother--and that mother in the physical agreed from the non-physical to give us what we desired--which was LIFE....and love so profound that they would give us the hard knocks we asked for...we expected and we desired, in order to become the expanded spiritual beings we are striving to become...

:) hugs~

being grateful....for my mom...

my mom and some of her grandkids being silly at christmas!

Like everyone, I have had some ups and downs with my mom...and through the study of law of attraction, and soul clusters, and abraham-hicks--i have come to realize that any contrast i experience with her is a blessing...it has helped me decide what it is I want to be like--what it is i want in my life experience etc...but i didnt always feel that way--knowing that her inner being created contrast for me lovingly based on things I wanted to experience before i joyfully incarnated here has been a great source or comfort and relief around the subject...

So, here is a rampage of appreciation for my mother...

I love my mom--she is a strong woman
my mother is a great cook
my mother is a great nurse and nurturer
my mother is very interesting
my mother is supportive
my mother is a great grandmother
my mother is a good housekeeper
my mother is an amazing gardener
my mother can be the life of the party
my mother is friendly
my mother loves to tell stories
my mother is intelligent
my mother is very detail oriented
my mother is loving
my mother is a great mom to 4 children
my mother can handle a heavy load
my mother is a great wife
my mother is a great caregiver
my mother can be a lot of fun
my mother was a good story teller and loved to read to us as kids
my mother is great with little babies
children love my mother
my mother makes friends easily
my mother takes on responsibility well
my mother is independant
my mom can be silly
my mom loves a good joke
my mom loves a walk in the garden
I love my mother~and my mother loves me!!!

Hugs to my mom--and all moms--more on moms probably tomorrow! :)

giving up finally...and the universe delivers!

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Finally understanding what it means to release something to the universe....

For many years I had heard from religious friends--to LET GO and LET GOD...a friend of mine even gave me a little funny saying frame that said--give your troubles to god before you go to bed, he will be up all night anyway...

and i kind of let it in and mulled it over and struggled with the idea that i wanted to BE dependant on myself and not some outside source of inspiration--i knew i had my own spirit and my own guidance and my own piece of the universe inside of me and i didnt need to give anything over to something ELSE to make things work--i ONLY had to know that it was possible--i ONLY had to get into a good feeling place about it and all would be well...

well....

Up comes the whole idea of blogger not posting to custom domains--and this wasnt just affecting ME, but it was affecting hundreds of thousands of long time users all over the globe...and there was a lot of negative energy focused on it...

At first, i waited--and then i decided to put up this sister site so i could keep up to date on posts--and it felt ok to redirect readers to this site, but i didnt feel right putting it up onto an rss feed or anything other than asking readers to come here through a shoutbox link--which was amazing that i could even do that...

Finally...after 2 months, i realized that i need to change things--and completely let it go and decided to take down the original site and redirect to the sister sight--technical terms aside--i was giving up and letting go and moving on...

so, i got on the phone with my lovely soul sister who is blessed with technical knowledge and we started to take the original site down...she completely deleted it...and then when we refreshed--all my test posts from months of trying popped up! the sight--which we had LET GO...was there! and now i can post to it again with full capacity!!!!

Amazing.....complete release of wanting--complete release of any outcome related to what i had wanted to occur--in the face of thousands of folks negative feelings about a situation...I just said--who cares--lets do something else--felt GOOD about that...new it would be ok--and BAM...I got what i wanted originally! I finally understand what others meant by let go and let god...when i released all expectations of something happening in the face of others MASS negative consciousness around a subject and looked for something better...the universe allowed into my experience what i wanted in the first place because i was NO longer blocking it by looking at what the nay sayers were thinking or saying--i completely removed my gaze from the situation, and it righted itself--how cool is that...?

So...i will continue to post threads on both the orginal site--www.rocknrollgoddessspeaks.com where people can subscribe to my rss feed and get the site content updates delivered directly to their computer and the light weight sister sight http:/rocknrollgoddessspeaks.blogspot.com for those who have come into my rockin roadtrip blogosphere through that link.

Thanks everyone for reading--thanks to everyone for being patient...things are gonna wicked rock even more now--you will see! whooo hooo! life is GOOOD! more please! love, alex.

off we go to celebrate!

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Happy Birthday Gramma C!!!!

Just a quick entry today cause we are out the door again...this time up to new hampshire to celebrate the 80'th birthday of my poppis mother...and what a wonderful woman she is--free spirit, full of positive energy and love...she has gone through tremendous contrast in her life--divorce, losing a child, having 7 kids, losing her husband, but through all that contrast, she has expanded, continued to be curious about life--continued to learn--continued to travel all over the world--

I would say that my mother in law is the first person i ever met who was thankful every day for her wonderful family--warts and all--for the life that she had--even if she had tough times, she knew that things could get worse, or better--depending on her attitude...

so, here is to my wonderful mother in law-who gave birth to my wonderful poppi--who is my soulmate and the last of her 7 children...and i honor the ancestors who brought her into the world because without her, he wouldnt be...nor our lovely children...

the universe draws to us those who we are supposed to spend time with--i love that those drawn into my sphere are so much fun to be around! :)

see you all monday--off to roadtrip again! it wicked rocks!

I love me....and so does the universe....

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Feelin the LOVE....for ME!!!!

A dear friend brought this lovely Abraham quote to my attention:

Source says unequivocally, all day everyday:

I love you, I love you, I love you.

You are lovable.

You are worthy.

Abraham-Hicks, Philadelphia, PA, 5-17-07



it is like the truth that stands as a column in the center of your path....calling to you--this is the TRUTH...and as you walk your path towards that truth--you can turn towards, it, you can side step it, you can turn away from it--heck, you can even jump over it...

but what feels best????????????? what brings the most joy????

i have found, over the years...that within society, to admit that you love yourself is looked on in a very negative way--its almost as if you are "full of yourself" and first off==what is wrong with that? what is wrong with being pleased with who you are? what is wrong with loving yourself and treating yourself with respect and giving yourself all the things you want and desire? nothing....

but we have been trained by society, by family, by religious sects to be humble--not to blow our own horns...to know that deep down inside we are failures, sinners, weaklings, not good enough...and definitely not deserved, in our natural state of the pure love of GOD/Universe/All that is...

and so, we incarnate into this world KNOWING that we are loved beyond measure--knowing that we are beloved children of the universe and we deserve to have each and every desire we choose to be met....but we also choose from the non-physical perspective to "forget who we really are" and thus, we forget that the universe inherently loves us...

and so, part of our path...if that is what we choose--is to figure that out all over again...and for some--reading the words, that the universe doth love us brings blessed relief, but for others it brings a DEEP sense of discomfort....a deep sense of this is not so for ME....

But the more you look upon the column of love in the center of your path--the more you strip away the false beliefs, the false impressions, the false sense of self that has been created for you on the physical plane--and the more your true sense of self will come through--and the sweeter and sweeter those words will become for you...

until, you can here them--I LOVE YOU--you are a magnificent creation! You are a joy to behold, you are a marvelous, blessed, beautiful, wicked rocking child of the universe and i will shower on thee great things--your hearts desire--anything you choose simply because you are marvelous and i love you, i love you, i love you....

and you will bubble with excitement, anticipation and joy because you know this to be TRUE....

:)

lets tell a story....

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I love love love being LUCKY!!!!

a dear friend and soul guide asked me to start telling a story that made me feel good--its an abraham process that she is very interested in and it sparked me to do the same thing...

so many stories to choose from from my past that make me feel GOOD..so, i thought--what is the dominant thought that i want to vibrate at...

and i decided to combine two smaller stories into one exponentially bigger story surrounding LOA and abundance and it makes me feel GREAT...

and you are supposed to tell your story to as many people as possible and repeat your story over and over and then "see what happens..."

so...here goes...

Even before i was attracted to abraham, i always knew that good things came to me, and they came to me when i knew they were gravy on the top of the roast beef, but they also came to me when i asked for them...and they continue to come to me...

and it felt so good one day when my husband decided he didnt want to go to this church fund raising dance, but i said to him, well, we have to go because i already bought the tickets, and besides, we are going to win the door prize which was a 52 inch toshiba big screen HD tv...

and so, when we got to the dance, we had a ton of fun, and then, they announced the winner of the door prize and sure enough--we won...and we walked up onto that stage all giggles and whooo hooos! and we got it! and when we finally got it home--and put it in our basement it was wonderful to have this thing that came to us out of our "luck" out of our complete and total belief that it was OURS before it was delivered--it is such a delicious feeling to just think--YES...we are going to win--abundance is going to come to us...

and once i was in vegas with a friend of mine and her husband was playing slots and we sat down and started playing slots too and she said to me, and i agreed with her--we are going to get LUCKY--and i played 10 bucks and we won a little, but then she handed me another ten and said--we are lucky together...and then the next play--we hit for over 250 bucks...and that felt soo good, because we KNEW we were going to win and it was such a lovely feeling collecting those winnings and having a delicious meal with them...

good, abundant things come to me--i am blessed, i am simply a miraculous, abundant, lucky winner in all things in life and what i want comes to me easily--as if i am beconning it with a soft whisper--come to me--i deserve you--i desire you--you are mine!