cow as teacher...lovely story to share...

Lovely Jewelia MOO...a little hazy picture, but the best we could do....


A dear friend of mine has just gone through an event that i feel was life transforming for her--and i think she would agree...i asked her if i could post her story here because it was so moving to me...here it is...the universe is always listening--and the only mistake you make is not asking....

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I have written extensively, and possibly toooo much about my cow Jewelia. She was a dream come true for me and in some ways, the culmination of my dream of a perfect farm. I would look at her and my heart would swell. I would find ways to remember her throughout the day to get the feeling of unconditional love and generosity she gave me. I was so freaky as to try and smell her on my hands and arms. It's hard to explain and perhaps, a little too unusual for the average person to grasp. Luckily, I've found a place where the above average person exists!

My Jewelia transitioned very suddenly into nonphysical on May 16th 36 hours after giving birth, leaving me wondering how I could be on top of the world one day and dragging in the muck the next. I was very puzzled and wrote about it on the Abe forum. I was given words of support and encouragement there and even some tools to help me. One was Brad Yates' eft video "tap of the morning." Thanks Pat I began that one immediately. One part said, "I can't feel badly enough to change the past."

I rebounded, for the most part, remarkably well. I had friends who were upset that I wasn't overtly sad enough for them. They said they thought they were sadder than me. Well, I agreed to let them claim that title. I did my share of crying but I certainly tried not to talk about it. I wanted to move forward, blessing my dear Jewelia for the amazing gifts she had given me. They were beyond description.

For a couple of weeks, I'd been moving up the scale as best I could. I stated to most everyone that I was not going to look for a new cow. She would have to find me. I had looked for 2 years for Jewelia and eventually, someone called me and asked if I would like to buy her, this after contacting everyone in 3 states about a Jersey cow. She was mostly a family pet and they couldn't keep her because we had a drought and they didn't have hay. They wanted a loving person to get her. ME!

I had written to a dear fellow aber about Jewelia and she said, "Tell me about you new cow." I felt a shift in my being when I read that. It was big.I wrote to her and said something like "she is 4 years old, a Jersey, has had 2 calves, both heifers (girls), she's just had a calf so she's freshened and ready to milk, she's healthy, has a beautiful udder, has been handmilked, and her name is Buttercup." I told that story to anyone who would listen.

The night of June 9th, I had a dream that I went to the barn and the middle stall door was open a crack. There was a shaft of light coming in. I looked in and saw a Jersey cow. My husband had bought her for me (not at all likely).

On June 11th, I woke up, meditated, did yoga and Abe exercises and decided it was time to watch The Omega Shift. I told my husband I wasn't to be disturbed for 90 minutes. That's not easy on a farm in the summer! So, I watched it. OMG!!!!!! Bliss me out! Major shifting going on. I suggest you eek out 90 minutes and change your life forever! So, I was practicing the exercises that day and relaxing and enjoying and remembering that you can work all day OR relax and let it in.

I had been checking a local publication, online,for weeks for goats and Wednesday is the day it comes out. I checked and it wasn't up. I was feeling a little heavy headed and felt I needed to let things go and nap.

I woke up from my nap and came to the computer, feeling a little otherwordly. I pulled up the publication and before my eyes was: " Jersey cow, 4 years old, freshened in April, handmilked." I could not believe my eyes, really. After that it said, "call Jeff". That's my husband's name and I thought he'd placed the ad and she wasn't really for sale after all. Then I saw the number and it wasn't mine. I almost fell over myself, after recovering from shock, to get to the phone.

I called and they said she has had 2 calves, both heifers, she is healthy and her name is Fig - the only thing I didn't get right. I even said, "you know, I thought you'd say her name is Buttercup."

I went to see her on Friday night and she's beautiful. She has a perfect udder - did I mention that's crucial?!

A funny thing is, about 3 weeks ago, after Jewelia had passed, I had a major craving for fig newtons. I hadn't eaten them in 20 years, probably. I bought a whole box of fig newmans and ate and ate. I'm not a big sweet eater and buying a box of cookies happens maybe once a year, or less. I couldn't get enough of those damn cookies and wondered what the hell was wrong with me. I thought about them all the time and had to stop myself from looking at them in the store.

The new cow's name is Fig! The woman told me Friday that she also had a cow named Newton!

Our dear RnR Goddess encouraged me to post this here. She has been a huge helpmate too in all of this. I really feel like finding the Omega Shift on here was GIANT for me. Big hugs to ya'll too.

So,folks, magic happens ALL THE TIME! Tune in! It's great!

happymanifesting,