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Livin the dream...roadtrippin through life with the law of attraction! A world filled with family, friends, adventure, and pure joy! followin my bliss wherever it leads me!

Saturday, July 12, 2008

The Roadtrip continues!!!!

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The road just keeps getting better and better~!

Ah, summer's here and the time is right for dancing in the streets! whooo hooo!

So, most of you know that the universe has given my soul family a wonderful opportunity, by supporting us financially for over a year while my popi takes an extended rest from conventional employment. We have been living the dream folks, traveling all over the place--mexico, puerto rico, boston, utah, idaho, virginia, maryland oh goodness me, i cant even remember all of the places its been so many and we have had such fun!

So, the summer months are here and the time to continue traveling with the kids is finite--but thats cool cause there are always weekend trips and adventures in the fall--but we had a ton of ideas of what we wanted to do, a few of which are visit my brother and his wife, visit popi's mom, visit a few old friends up in new england and a friend who has some dis-ease in NH...go see a red sox game with my nephew--go see more redsox games with the family, go see a pawsox game, get a week at a timeshare booked (RCI)...and me go to california to see my favorite band and my dear soulmate sister...

so, at first, these things were just kind of floating around in a bowl of soup so to speak, and then, i got this bright idea after going to the workshop to put everything down on paper as a master plan--on one side of the paper were things we wanted to do--on another were things that were already SET and then other possible things that could fit in...

And we had such fun, looking at the list and moving things from one side to another--kind of like the placemat process...and things JUST kept falling into place...

its not all done--but so far, this weekend we have a rock show by the great south bay, then tuesday--we get to watch the all-star game up at popi's mom's house where we will stay for a few days--visiting our friend who needs a VERY good laugh to refocus where he is--then on to rhode island to see my brother at his new apartment and see a pawsox game on JERSEY DAY! ya, we get a free jersey--and popi found a great hotel deal in beautifully redone downtown providence which i had always wanted to see...come home, pack my bags and head out to california on a flight that will eventually give me a free flight..driving a convertible all over northern california and will possibly get to have a drink with an Abraham friend! And it just so happens on one of the days one of my friends who plays in another band will be playing in the area and we might finally get to see her play! Come home--unpack, rest up--grab my nephew-(my neighbor graciously offered to watch our doggie!)-ship off to boston for a red sox game, come home...get ready to go up to Stowe Vermont to stay in a luxurious 3 bedroom mountainside condo with RCI that is basically FREE because we paid our maintenance on a one bedroom in mexico, but traded for this--its at a 4-1/2 star resort! And it allows us to see friends that live up there and we have plenty of room to invite friends who used to live up there so we can all get together and visit!

When we get back, we still wanna go up to boston for a few red sox games, and since popi is home--we can do that midweek...whooo hooo--so much fun stuff--all falling into place--all completely supported by the universe--MORE PLEASE! the more you ask for=the more you EXPECT...the more it comes--and the more it comes--the more abundance FLOWS to support it...

have fun this summer guys! just livin the dream and roadtrippin through life with the law of attraction!

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Thursday, June 12, 2008

Do this....get that!!!

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Do you have the winning ticket???

I just wrote this ramage of appreciation on winning....


I know i will win...

I know the universe loves me so very much and has bankrolled millions upon milliions of dollars for my happy escapades...

i know that i dont earn money--money is given to me, gladly--in large sums because the universe loves all the potential projects, adventures and excitment it can experience through me and my money...

I know i will win because it makes me feel good to think of myself jumping up and down with a lottery ticket in my hand...

I know i will win because i am literally a vaccuum cleaner for money--sucking it to me--because money loves to be in my pocket book--money loves to be in the back pocket of my jeans--money loves that i play with it that i adore it that i deserve it that i love it that i let it do what it wants to do, which is to flow freely and happily around the world...financial freedom is my reality as i roadtrip through life just livin the dream!

money loves me and i love money and i love winning and i know i will win and its all good :)

cause MONEY WICKED ROCKS!

THAT VERY NIGHT!!! this happened!

Driftwood for me today! whooo hooo! ok, so i posted this about winning...

and today my lovely UBER manifesting daughter said to me--mommy, its so hot in school--after we are done with homework, can we please go to the store and buy one of those mini fans that you hold in your hand?

and i said--we will see--i have a meeting tonight--but maybe...

and the meeting was an adult girl scout leader appreciation meeting--and they had snacks and stuff and then they did some raffles of little baskets--and they gave me a raffle ticket--and i said--i will win--and i wasnt even looking at my raffle ticket, but talking to a dear friend when they called my number!

whooo hooo--thank you universe--more please....

cause it gets better...so, i pick out a basket that i see water squirt guns in and i thought--what fun...

and i didnt see anything else in the basket--but went back to my seat and put it in my bag...and went to the car later--and i see peaking out of it--a small mini fan!!!!

I was on cloud nine--and i thought--wow--chri is going to be so excited about this fan and her manifestation...

and as i was driving home and thinking about it, i thought of my other daughter--and how SHE would love one of those fans too and i wished i had one for her...

so, when i got home, i told them both i had a surprise--then i asked christina if she remembered what she wanted earlier that day--and she said YES>..and i said--well, you manifested it!!! you can both open the basket...

and when they did--TADA...TWO FANS!!!!

Wow--i sooo wicked rock! So does my creative genius daughter--and so does the universe for playing with me!!! i LOVE to win--i win and i win and i win! and it is GOOD! :) MORE PLEASE!!! and thank you!

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Friday, May 30, 2008

challenges...to improve..or do we just change focus?

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Raise your hand if you wanna raise your energy!

A dear friend told me about an Abraham challenge that is listed on YOUTUBE where you follow along and focus on certain things every day in order to "improve" your vibration or your life overall...she said she didnt like the idea of a "challenge" because it made her feel like someone was either judging her, or giving her a directive and that didnt feel right to her--so, she decided to make her next 100 days into days of awareness and not so much a challenge, and i love that--my other dear friend was focusing on finding JOY in may...you can find her great stuff at www.onthejoypath.com. Seems that a lot of people feel the need for a spring cleaning, or a rededication to the law of attraction principles and especially the teachings of abraham...

I love this...what i love is that each person can use the teachings of abraham to formulate the way that THEY want to grow, and vibe up the individual areas that are most important to them!

see? with abe its not==this has to change for you to be good--its WHAT do you want in your life that will bring you the most joy?

awesome...

I will definitely be following along a similar path--I am a freedom seeking being too, and give me a calendar and a schedule and i say--noooooo wayyy! lol

so, i will check in with you all when my vibe feels like it~!

what i love to focus on daily is:

Seeing divine love all around me...in the people i meet, through my own vibration, through nature, the lovely beasts...divine love is permeating all we see, it is the true matrix...

Seeing divine abundance all around me...I am a beloved child of the universe--and i am stuck right in the center of potential....i can see, daily, through the driftwood that flows by me on my river, that anything i want can be mine, from a position of sincere gratitude and a longing for more...its such a joy.

Seeing divine wellbeing abound...in my self, in my family, in all the people i come into contact with...wellbeing is the way--every cell in my body is focused on it--and i see daily ways in which to let that soak into my body--what a joy!

Seeing divine joy all around me--in the choices i can make--its endless--and its so much fun--what to do in this very breath? in the next breath? we have SO much variety to choose from!

:) adventure after adventure, on and on to perfect health, wealth, joy....it never ends and its sooo delicious!

enjoy!

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Monday, May 12, 2008

thats what i want....ya...thats what i want!!!

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We are beloved children of the universe and deserve everthing our hearts desire--just like this lovely little tropical cottage!



I love what abraham says about money and abundance and potential--that folks go around WANTING money for the sake of money--but that money is actually potential for ACTION or material creation in one's life and unless you have an IDEA of how to spend those vasts amount of money, that money really wont want to come to you--well, it will COME to you to the level that you allow it and to the level that YOU believe you deserve it...

and i have found that to be the case in my life--i used to work hard, and get paid a decent wage--and i used to pray to the universe that we would always make ends meet--and guess what? we did--and i was grateful for that...

and then, me and my poppi decided that we were going to get rid of the apartment in our home and make it a one family--and we also decided that i was going to stay home and raise our daughter soon to be plural--and so we took a 2/3 cut in earnings in one year...and we knew we would get by--we prayed to the universe that we would make ends meet--and we did--and we were grateful and it was good...

But then, i started to change that prayer--and that prayer became, that we would always have enough money to do all the things we wanted to do--and by golly--we did--and then we started increasing the things we wanted to do--and by golly we still had enough money!

And then i changed my prayer to be that we would always have MORE than enough money to do all the wonderful magical adventurous things we wanted to do--and guess what????

So...now i am expanding my idea of what i would do with vasts amount of abundance--what i would do with financial freedom on a luxury level...poppi and i just went out to lunch and here are some of the things we would do with our abundance that is already IN our vibrational escrow--and the universe is preparing to deliver it to us immediately when we come into alignment with feeling worthy of it and knowing where to use that potential...

so here are some fun things..that we ARE doing with our abundance...

Thank you for the land in new hampshire where we keep our own sugarbush to make organic maple syrup--its wide and vast and serves as a nature preserve as well as a place to maintain traditional methods of sugaring and keep lovely new england ways alive...We thank you for the connected organic educational farm as well....where people can come and learn about the land and sample traditional food stuffs, and kids can play with farm animals and ride horses that have been rescued and adopted to live in this lovely rural setting...

Thank you for the trip across the US to all the American League ball parks to see our favorite Red Sox play...thank you for the bus load of friends who will join us and enjoy our passion for baseball...thank you for batting practice at fenway, and the lovely 3 bedroom penthouse apartment where we stay when we come to boston to use our season tickets...

Thank you for the warehouse where we store our classic cars...especially for the 57 chevy nomad that i have dreamed about for so long--its such a beauty with teal paint and pearl inlays and lovely custom leather upholstery! i just have so much fun driving it!

Thank you for the contractor/architect/interior designer who completely remodeled and refurnished our current home which we will be staying in for the next 6 years until chri graduates from high school--we love this house and we love this neighborhood--so with the new amenities, like master suite with jaccuzzi tub, indoor lap pool, sauna, yoga studio, green house, whirl pool, gym and media center--its a perfect home base--thank you as well for our lovely housekeeper who keeps things running smoothly and loves to take care of our pets when we go on extended trips...

Thank you for first class travel all over the world to see greece, italy, england, franch, china, tahiti, spain, morrocco, monaco, brazil, portugal, japan, australia to visit my sister, figi, bora bora, thiland just to start...we will also greatly enjoy cruising the meditteranean, the entire caribbean, scuba diving in hawaii and touring alaska....Thank you for the giant world map with the big red stickys that we have placed on all the wonderful places we have visited!

thank you for first class travel within the united states to see all the sights and especially for hiking in all the national parks, like yellow stone, the grand canyon, bryce canyon, mount rushmore....acadia, croatan....we love the listings of the national parks and enjoy crossing them off one by one as we visit them and take tons of lovely pictures on our state of the art digital camera and video...

Thank you for allowing us to have fun with random acts of kindness--we especailly love to go to our favorite restaurants and theaters and tell the owners that we will pay for everyones meal or show all day long as long as they dont tell them ahead of time--we enjoy greatly the thrill people get when they are suprised! We love to give people surprises and we will continue to create bigger and bigger suprises for bigger and bigger joy!

We thank you for allowing us to support our favorite rock bands with VIP luxury travel for their touring--we have so enjoyed sharing music and time with them, and we will greatly enjoy giving back to them so they can enjoy their road experience more...

Oh joy, oh rapture, of adventure, oh charmed life--wonderful things happen to us--there simply is no limit to the fun we can have--and the abundance we create by giving the universe a reason to bestow its potential on us! :) it WICKED ROCKS!

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Thursday, May 8, 2008

lets tell a story....

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I love love love being LUCKY!!!!

a dear friend and soul guide asked me to start telling a story that made me feel good--its an abraham process that she is very interested in and it sparked me to do the same thing...

so many stories to choose from from my past that make me feel GOOD..so, i thought--what is the dominant thought that i want to vibrate at...

and i decided to combine two smaller stories into one exponentially bigger story surrounding LOA and abundance and it makes me feel GREAT...

and you are supposed to tell your story to as many people as possible and repeat your story over and over and then "see what happens..."

so...here goes...

Even before i was attracted to abraham, i always knew that good things came to me, and they came to me when i knew they were gravy on the top of the roast beef, but they also came to me when i asked for them...and they continue to come to me...

and it felt so good one day when my husband decided he didnt want to go to this church fund raising dance, but i said to him, well, we have to go because i already bought the tickets, and besides, we are going to win the door prize which was a 52 inch toshiba big screen HD tv...

and so, when we got to the dance, we had a ton of fun, and then, they announced the winner of the door prize and sure enough--we won...and we walked up onto that stage all giggles and whooo hooos! and we got it! and when we finally got it home--and put it in our basement it was wonderful to have this thing that came to us out of our "luck" out of our complete and total belief that it was OURS before it was delivered--it is such a delicious feeling to just think--YES...we are going to win--abundance is going to come to us...

and once i was in vegas with a friend of mine and her husband was playing slots and we sat down and started playing slots too and she said to me, and i agreed with her--we are going to get LUCKY--and i played 10 bucks and we won a little, but then she handed me another ten and said--we are lucky together...and then the next play--we hit for over 250 bucks...and that felt soo good, because we KNEW we were going to win and it was such a lovely feeling collecting those winnings and having a delicious meal with them...

good, abundant things come to me--i am blessed, i am simply a miraculous, abundant, lucky winner in all things in life and what i want comes to me easily--as if i am beconning it with a soft whisper--come to me--i deserve you--i desire you--you are mine! :)

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Friday, March 21, 2008

just a quick hi! Something wonderful to share!

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In through the out door.....


On the road in california...a beautiful day and i will be sharing it with some wonderful friends....so, my entry today is short....I wanted to share a wonderful site that i stumbled upon...its called portals to peace...a lovely law of attraction site with poetry, photos and affirmations-each listed in separate categories so you can pick and choose the vibrations you wanna work with...i always love to share things like this that i stumble upon...so, please check it out...

http://www.portalstopeace.com/Portals.htm

but most of all--hope you are all having a wonderful, happy, abundant, adventurous, exciting and joyfilled day! :)

See ya on the flip side! :) The Goddess--rockin the west coast!

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Wednesday, March 19, 2008

eye candy announcement!

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Oh so sweet new feature treats!

Hey sweet roadtrippers! Just a few things i wanted to point out to you...This lovely blog is in its infancy and it OH so wants to grow! Will be adding other wonderful features in the near future, but wanted to point out that getting the word out to the wide world is key to keeping things growing stronger every day...

on that front, i have added a number of social bookmarking tools to the roadhouse...look over in the right hand column, and you can see places to bookmark this attraction in delicious, technorati, or any bookmarking tool you use...you can also subscribe to my wicked fast burned feed and get updates on my content through your favorite feed reader~you can give me a kudo on the zimbo spot, and also click over there to see some of my articles posted on their wicked awesome wikizines...

Will also be connecting to blog rush in the near future that will show you various spirituality blogs and let you view them directly so your experience is enhanced by alternate content.

Within a blog post, you now also have the opportunity to subscribe to my feed, email the article to a friend, bookmark on delicious, stumble the site on stumble upon etc....and if you really like this site and i HOPE you do, you can email the entire content to a friend by clicking the little send a page icon in the tool bar.

Loads of fun stuff...i can feel this place growing and i really appreciate each and every one of you who comes and reads and shares their energy with me...if you would like to write to me directly with questions that you would like to see answered, but dont want to leave in the comments spots, please scroll to the very bottom of this site and click on my name and i will receive the email privately.

Off i go, on a wonderful roadtrip to the west coast over the next few days--livin the dream, so my posting may be spotty...but know i am gorging on new experiences that will give me wonderful new insight and expanding my spirit and that will benefit us all~

You all wicked ROCK!!! :)

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Monday, March 17, 2008

ARE you feeling WORTHY of abundance????

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Abundance LOVES you and you should KNOW THAT!!!


Someone recently asked me a question about bringing money into the home—and felt they weren’t pulling their weight because they were staying home with kids….wanted to know what to do to increase their income and make it feel more equitably balanced between their spouse…since i have lived this situation for 15 years since "retiring" to pursue a more joyful life guiding my children, i gave the following answer....

***well....being a stay at home mom who retired from a top advertising position to raise my kids and tend a house, which created a drop in salary by 2/3 after we had just released our income producing apartment which drew thousands of extra dollars a year to cover our mortgage and insurance..i can honestly say, i have been in your shoes...but only for a short while...

because i did an exercise that cured me of what you are feeling...

I went to the library (no internet back then!) and did a job search and income history on a number of jobs that i was currently doing...then i started keeping a time sheet for 1 month...

so, we would have needed, a cook, a personal shopper, a nanny, a housekeeper, a landscape architect, a dog sitter, a cat sitter, a bird setter, a window washer, a car washer, a chauffeur, a therapist, a party planner, a travel agent, a laundress, a messenger, a book keeper and a prostitute to do all the things that i do for my husband in order for him to run the household at the level of comfort he and the children had come to expect....(and this doesnt include my volunteer work running two girl scout troops and teaching religious education)....

so, even at the low end of the salaries for these positions, and the low end of the hours, for which i worked way more--with no vacation days, no sick days, no holidays etc...I would have billed my husband TWICE--yes, you heard me TWICE his gross income every year...

puts it into perspective for me really quick==i am invaluable--I worked for years, i paid for my husbands student loans (i had none) i paid for my own engagement ring--i paid for my own wedding ring--i got our first apartment and carried him for a year wihtout income because he was still in school all because i loved him and had faith in his potential for expansion...

and wihtout ME at home, giving him the freedom NOT to be carrying half the burden of childcare and house work that we used to share when we were both working--he has the potential at work to expand FAR beyond what he would have achieved had he NOT had the LUXURY of a stay at home partner...

I know my value--

He owes me...not the other way around--and i know that through My desires for things, the universe expands our abundance which at the present moment a majority of which is coming through his paycheck.

You dont need to figure out work--what you need to do is clear up the vibration surrounding your worth--if you dont, abundance will indeed elude you...do the experiment and see what you can come up with--be fair, be accurate and you will be amazed at the numbers~!

i also keep a jar for money found in the universe and then put that in the coinstar and put that in the bank--and its becoming a LOT of abundance--all from tiny little signs from the universe that i am abundant! i even set up accounts for my kids so they will know they are magnificent abundant creators...

my daughter wanted more money of her own--so i said, focus on your existing abundance and play with your money and thank it--and something will come to bring you more money...

so, a few days later, my accupunturist out of the blue asked if she would like to babysit--and sam set a low rate because she was a friend of mine--and my accupunturist said to me--i hope sam will set a rate that is worthy of her--so i shared that with sam, and she changed her rate back to being in alignment with what she really felt she was worth...

and after she set--my accupunturist actually paid her her rate plus a tip for being so wonderful!

so--she didnt even have to FIND something to BRING her more money (action) she aligned with MORE--and the universe presented a way--and she LOVES kids--so this is really just FUN for her...:)

find what you LOVE to do, and do it and the abundance will FLOW!!! as long as you VALUE your own worth....then all will WICKED ROCK! :)

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Sunday, March 16, 2008

Playing at life, in Real Life….

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YOU CAME HERE TO HAVE FUN!!!!

With great anticipation of what was to come, you said YES to life, a thousand times YES, and in you came, incarnating into another physical lifetime. Now that you know about soul-groups, it’s obvious that you did indeed choose your parents, and they choose you as well to be a part of their Life Play, but while the Life Plays intersect, they are in no way dependant on each other for anything other than the bare bones of the scenario. You get to decide what you want to DO and how you want to BE within the context of the basic life scenario that you chose, and through the law of attraction, you drew into your life, people (often soul mates), things, experiences, places and even animals (who are also part of your soul-group, and often, even part of your own soul!) that would help you to enact the Life Play scenario that you had chosen and allow you to experience the things you wanted to gain wisdom on and create further desires for MORE.

From the very earliest moments of your life, you were a powerful creator of your reality. Your desires, from a soul perspective, set forth before you even came into this world, influenced all that you felt, all that you experienced, how you were treated, where you went and who you interacted with. You influenced your social status, your race and ethnicity, how your parents, brothers and sisters, teachers and friends acted towards you, and where you lived in the wide world.

Since you also agreed to participate in the Life Plays of other soul-group members, you were witness to their revolving struggles and joys in life, while you continued to have experiences based on your personal Life Play scenario which became your Path and your Truth. Every major life experience has been coordinated in order to give you more information, more data, more wisdom and more desire based on the Path that you chose.

It’s also interesting to note that while YOU are experiencing life and expanding your own personal wisdom and soul wisdom, you are also sending back to the divine realm information about the physical plane and helping the universe to expand in a richer, more textured, more detailed version of itself. You are helping, through your life experiences, and your thoughts, desires and creations to expand the entire universe, because you are indeed Divinity focused in a physical body!

So, how much more detailed would the information sent back to source energy be on any given topic or situation, if MORE THAN ONE physical being were sending it back? Exponentially more detailed, my dear friends! Instead of experiencing an event, and sending a one-sided “accounting” of the situation and the desires it created, when two or more soul mates experience together, they are all sending back their own personal “accounting” of the situation and desires it created, and Divine Source is responding to them ALL and thus expands out in many different directions, and includes all the variations of desires and creations, instead of just one. You could liken the situation to a comparision of a flat cartoon graphic and a three dimensional clay model of the event. Obviously, the more data Source collects from individually focused spiritual beings here in the physical plane, the more Source can expand based on the desires of all involved.


OH how that wicked ROCKS!!! the Universe LOVES to play--it loves to mix it up--and then it loves to pour it out--all over us LUCKY spritual/physical beings! ENJOY~!!!

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Saturday, March 15, 2008

who i really am....losing and finding myself again...

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Life is all about the journey not the destination!


I kind of jumped into this blogging thing assuming that most of the folks who were visiting knew a little bit about me....well, as the universe would have it, more and more folks are connecting with the energy here, and i thought it fitting to give a WEEEEEE bit of background into who i am and what i would like to do here in my happy corner of the bloggerverse....


As a small child, I always followed my joy....and when i did that, things would always turn out the way i wanted them too...and life was indeed magical....indeed thrilling...and i was a happy being, full of imagination and enthusiasm for life....ofcourse, this way of being got me into trouble with those who thought they could show me how to live life according to the script that society has set forth for young women in America in the latter part of the 20th century...

I grew up in a family that was living the AMERICAN DREAM. Both my parents were immigrants to this country, and came here with little more than their education, the clothes on their back and a dream that they could do anything they put their mind to. While they saw their lack of understanding of American culture as a disability, I view it, in retrospect as something that greatly benefited me in my development as a strong being. I lived with a passionate and emotional family where creativity was encouraged, but self-sufficiency was expected. I had big dreams, which were eventually shifted and curtailed as i integrated into society. Some of my newly revised dreams were influenced by what I thought my parents wanted for me ( i wanted to please them because they loved me and i loved them), and others influenced by what society expected of young women coming of age at that time.

Even though I didn’t achieve some parts of my dream, I did achieve others, graduating from college and creating a successful career, personal relationships and material success. I also gladly gave many of them up in order to get married and have a family. Along that path, I put who I was on the back burner and offered all my love, all my support, all my care and creativity to my children and my family, working long hours at a career in the advertising industry that had long ago lost its luster for me, coming home to create the perfect household, tend to my children and be supportive for my husband. Beyond the basics of self maintenance, I was not at all thinking of my needs or desires or dreams in the equation that had become my life, because that is what was expected of me in a society that worships the young and wild, but still pointedly assumed a transition to “family first” for women as they marry and raise children. I got on with the busy work of life, and ignored the lonely hole that was developing at the core of my being. I worried a bit about that lonely spot, but tried to blow it off as just me being silly, because I was basically happy with the trappings of a successful life, and lucky to have a great husband and supportive family. It was not until much later that I realized that that loneliness was ME longing for contact with who I really was, my true self and my own independent spirit, which had always followed its own bliss, but was not being stiffled by what others wanted and expected.

That’s when fate dealt me a strong blow, or so I thought, when I became debilitatingly ill with Lymes Disease. Speaking with doctors and suffering through treatment, I settled into a hopelessness and depression that this was all my life would be. In retrospect, this seeming crisis actually set me on a path to personal growth that far exceeded any dreams I had for myself previously.

Along this path, I have learned above all else, to put myself FIRST, selfishly, solely and completely FIRST in line when it comes to any thing I do. I have also, in the long periods of time that it took for me to recover and completely erase the illness from my body, spent many hours following my heart in the exploration of all spiritual paths that felt good to me. I finally and completely released myself from meeting any requirements that society expected of me and eclectically put together a life that has brought me a great reawakening of who I really am, and led me consistently farther and farther along the path to where my joy and bliss resides.

In my meanderings and exploration of finding what brought me elation, I came across many wonderful truths from a wide variety of teachings and beliefs. Some are as ancient as this world, others relatively new, and still others, recycled and expanded versions of older truths. It is with immense joy that I share this sampling of various teachings with you, and my personal realizations for expanding my life that have brought me to know myself completely. I am confident that at the completion of reading these musings, that you will feel a tug to begin exploring more fully who YOU really are and allow that person more complete acceptance and expression in your life.

First, I will tell you what this blog is NOT. It is not a blog about blaming society, or blaming our mothers and fathers, or blaming our husbands or wives, or blaming our children, or blaming ourselves for where we are and what we are feeling.

This blog is about understanding that WE create it all for ourselves and we can RE-create it all again for ourselves, if we aren’t happy with where we are! Its also about reconnecting with the universal wisdom of our souls and using the natural laws of the universe to create a dynamic life where you can be yourself and enjoy miraculous relationships with others and satisfy EVERYONE by satisfying yourself FIRST…I will go over ways you can refine your view of the world and tools you can use to create the life you dream of having. A life where you are the centerpiece in the lovely display that is your universe.

So sit back, get comfy, put the kids to bed, take the phone off the hook and enjoy YOUR time reconnecting with YOU….its gonna be a wicked rockin journey!

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Friday, March 14, 2008

happy birthday to MEEE....happy birthday to MEEE





OH, i woke in such a joyous mood today! its my birthday! and i was so filled with gratitude to the universe for all the wonderful fun adventures i have had in this incarnation. It really is a joy to be ME in this body right NOW at this time in the world....so, i thought i would do a rampage of appreciation--one of my favorite Abraham processes--on my life and times here roadtrippin through the universe...

I love this world--and all that are in it
I love who i am--the silly and the profound
I love where i am--by the ocean, on an island, by the city, in the green forest...
I love who i am with--my parents, who taught me so much, and gave me the lessons i needed to learn, my husband, who knew me the first time he saw me and has shared this roadtrip with me, my beautiful daughters, who shine like a light from heaven and create and have fun and just love being, my dearest friends, who have come to me from all over the world, connecting as the universe has bent over backwards to bring them to me!!!
I love the things that interest me--abraham, the abeforum, this lovely blog, rock and roll, blue oyster cult! traveling, cooking, reading, yoga, you name it, i will try it and usually love it!
I love that i can laugh, and look at life as the game that it is...
I love that i can look at pain as the gift that it is
I love that i am abundant in many ways-health, wealth, joy, gratitude, wisdom
I love that every day brings me something new to ponder, something new to experience
I love that i am curious
I love that i LOVE....

happy birthday to me...i love me, i am a beloved child of the universe...I deserve all the abundance of the universe and anything else that tickles my fancy--this is a wonderful place to be!!!and i WICKED ROCK!!! :)

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Thursday, March 13, 2008

So how do you expand the universe through your Life Plays?

a smile from the universe!
(courtesy of http://robinlee.typepad.com/i_was_just_thinking_/images/2007/11/16/oneinami_3.jpg)


From your very limited human perspective, you see your life experiences as happening TO you and most likely beyond your control, but obviously, from your small degree of focus, you have yet to discover that you are literally creating the world with your thoughts and desires.

Have any of you seen a crystal forming, or frost spreading across glass on a cold winter’s night? You see that on one side of the crystal, there is nothingness...blank space, and on the other side there is the ice crystal formed, pattern intact, singularly beautiful and unique. At the edge, there are tiny needles shooting out, every which way, in no apparent pattern, darting here and there, crossing each other, becoming thicker and thicker, moving one way and then another until they cross so much that the randomness disappears and the pattern comes forth. Again, similar to what came before, but unique in its own way.

That seemingly simple, divinely beautiful, yet exceedingly complex process exactly mirrors how humans, through their desires for more, expand their souls and the universe. The universe simply cannot expand without the physical life force experiencing situations, which create desires for different and expanded experience, which issues requests for more to the universe (the ice needles) which are then focused upon, and energy is added to them and they become part of the REALITY that you desire.

Most folks are sitting in the middle of the frost, its observable reality, its comfortable, it’s there. Life shows them some intensity that creates desires in them for change, but the change is slower, their overall creative energy slower. It’s a comfortable life, but their degree of enjoyment from creating an intensely passionate life with the subsequent expansion of their soul and soul group and the universe is much smaller. Others may feel frozen as if in a rut or groove of the ice crystal, and feel unable to create the energy and passion needed to jump the tracks and manifest the life they truly desire. It’s always wonderful to know that the law of attraction is eternally working, no matter where you are in your life, and you can instantly decide to make a change just by focusing on the things you truly desire. The universe will summon forth all that is necessary for the creation, as long as you follow your happiness and honor your own personal Truth.

Some folks are more conscious of the creation process and closer to the defining edge of the creation--in the frosty pattern that is beginning to develop. They are the ones experiencing great intensity in their lives, and they are the ones sending out those ice fingers, requesting more from the universe, with their positive energy and focus, affecting the expansion of the universe through their desires and the Future path of ALL THAT IS.


So, we as humans are standing on the frontier of the universe, creating physically and through our desires for MORE, energy is being stored and vibrations are being pushed up and up and up--and matter...is literally being formed out of nothing but thought and energy.

For things to CHANGE--for a desire to be created in the physical realm, the level of vibration has to raise enough TO MAINTAIN THAT CHANGE AND CREATION in the physical realm. It is not enough to CREATE the change--you have to have the momentum to maintain the change.

This is why things do not just appear out of thin air when you desire them, though, if you truly believed it could be so, it would happen. As you develop and practice more skills for conscious living, you will learn to actively focus your energy and increase the vibration of manifestation more quickly, by releasing any beliefs that are holding you back, and by constantly looking to feel good about where you are and where you are going.

It’s also important to note a very interesting phenomenon in this physical dimension. Every single person has their own reality, and you can only truly see your own, because you can only get into your own head. No matter how much you know someone else, how long you have known them, how much you have shared and even if you have known them their entire life, you cannot ever share every single moment and thought they are having. Each has come into this world with different perceptions, abilities, perceived biases and a chosen Life Play to enact, and all of these things are valid and acceptable for them alone, just as yours are such for you. When we accept that no two people see things exactly the same way, we realize what a moot point it would be to try and get others to see our points of view and accept them as their own. They CANT! They can only see their own point of view. They may empathize with you, or dissuade you, but the best position would be to accept you as you are and allow you your views, just as that would be the perfect stance for you in all physical interactions. Imagine how wonderful it would be to live in a world where all views were allowed, and no one asked anyone else to change in order for the other to feel comfortable and safe.

Divine Source has also set it up this way from the earliest time to ensure a broad range of viewpoints, experience, desire and a varied asking for MORE. This stimulates continued Universal expansion in many directions and keeps everything divinely balanced. If we all had the same reality, the same experiences and desires, the expansion would be one dimensional and unsustainable, but because of the wide variety of Life Plays, we are all experiencing different things and asking for more in a multitude of areas.

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Wednesday, March 12, 2008

update on the abeforum

for those of you wondering, the abe forum took a major crash. David is currently doing his best to retrieve it, but posts and information may be lost. If you talk to people who are wondering, please give them this website address so they can check in for updates. Steph and i are in the process of putting together a forum for LOA roadtrippers, and i will be posting information on that soon. All are welcome and all conversations allowed. :) hugs to you all and i will keep you posted! alex.

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How you came to be YOU then you… your soul group, family, youth and life experiences..

(courtesy of http://www.more4kids.info)
We are all one family we are all ONE!


First, an introduction to your soul, soul mates and soul-group—even though they have known you forever!

Long before you incarnated into the body that you now inhabit, you came into conscious being as a shining silver and gold string of light and love energy. You were pure love, pure energy and pure consciousness. You knew you were YOU and you knew that you were not alone, because you were intertwined with many many other similar soul strands that formed different branches, many interweaving to form roots and ultimately the trunk of the tree of universal source energy that is the life force of creation in the universe.

You had the ability to focus your thoughts and energy and through the law of attraction, which operates in both the physical and non-physical dimensions of the universe, you were able to use your creativity and desire to manifest into the physical.

You found it so very enticing to know “Who You Really Are”, which is a piece of divine source energy with the magnificent power to create anything you desire from your own thoughts and focus. You also knew that you, and all your connected souls, each linked by the thin silver threads of source energy, expanded the entire universe with your desires and creations. You literally stretched the boundaries of what was, what was indeed possible, and created out of nothing but thought and desire things that were once impossible.

This true creative power was so intoxicating to you, that you desired to use it again and again in an ever changing environment so you could experience different scenarios in the physical plane and develop new desires and create new things. Since you are an eternal being, the idea of using one lifetime did not seem enjoyable to you, for you wished to use this creative power again and again, adding each time, a perfect pearl of life incarnation to the strand of soul energy that remained at the core, eternal, always safe, always protected and always pure divinity.

Since you wanted each incarnation to be fresh, and since you so enjoyed discovering over and over your VAST creative power and your own exciting soul identity, you chose to come into the physical plane with a type of amnesia related to your power, so you could see it as freshly as a new born baby would see it.

Of course, you were far from a new born baby, because each incarnation you lived, provided you with vast knowledge and experience that focused your desires and expanded your soul and all of that wisdom and knowledge were available to you. With each incarnation, you were literally MORE than you were before, and so was the universe.

You moved through these lives and continue to move through these lives, but you do not do it alone. You are accompanied on your journey to a varying degree by soul mates, which are members of your original soul branch and are bound close to you vibrationally, as two gold strands are twined together on a necklace. There are many soul mates on a soul branch, and in each lifetime, they may play different roles. Sometimes one of your soul mates is your sister, another time, your mother, another time a lover. Many people believe that there is only one soul mate in this world for each person, and this is completely the opposite of what is true. There are countless soul mates, and most if not all of your immediate family are members of your soul-group. If you encounter a non-related individual who is a soul mate, you will feel a very strong sense of knowing them before, and either a very strong sense of friendship and love, or anger and distain. Soul mates can be here to give us the greatest love or show us the hardest time! During each lifetime they are there for you, and you for them to help you live out the scenarios that you thought you would enjoy during this incarnation. These are the soul beings who love you eternally, unconditionally and enthusiastically, and they will always answer YES to you when you ask from the soul perspective for them to participate in your life so you can experience a life situation that will expand your soul into ever growing knowledge of the world and the universe.

You are here to have experiences. As I said previously, there are no good or bad experiences or choices, there are only experiences and choices and it is your view of them that polarizes them. From the soul’s perspective, that knows there is no real death, that you can come back again and again, that the soul is always protected and nothing bad can happen to it or damage it because it is pure eternal divine energy, all experience is enthusiastically embraced and accepted. Additionally, a soul knows exactly what they are going to run into when they choose to come into the physical, and the universe never forces any soul to come into a life that they did not choose, that they did not excitedly anticipate and take part in creating.

As you pondered in the non-physical realm, the life that you wished to live, you chose the basic scenario, not the complete day to day details. You chose specific experiences you wanted to have that would create great desire within you for specific outcomes, and you asked your soul-group for assistance in creating these experiences in the physical plane. You created the outline for this LIFE PLAY and you lovingly assigned roles to those soul mates that would be incarnating with you or rendezvousing with you along the path you had chosen during this life. You all then looked for ways to assist each other so that all soul mates could grow and expand during the life time. All was planned with excited anticipation of the incarnation, the experiences, the desires, the creations and the ultimate expansion of the soul, soul-group and universe it would entail.

So, within any given soul-group, some individual soul strands with their own distinct personality and eternal consciousness will have a PART of their energy incarnated into the physical and some will not. The majority of the soul energy that is YOU remains in the realm of the divine and observes life on earth from the wider perspective of source energy.

The physical being gains the wisdom, energy and knowledge it needs by listening to the voice of soul and spirit within them, which is represented in many different ways. The voice of source may come in signs from the physical environment, such as bird song, a special book, a flower or a turn in the weather. The voice of source may be a real whispered word heard with the inner ear of your being. It is always represented by the way you feel, because your emotions are a direct indicator of your TRUTH at any given time, and your soul always keeps an EYE on your TRUTH. If you divert from your truth in the physical, your soul will always point you in the direction of your divine intentions that you set forth before incarnating, by giving you very strong emotional signals. You will always know when you are squarely on your life path because you will feel an amazing elation within your being that says YES—this is MY TRUTH and it is wonderful!

You come into this world over and over again to experience as many different life scenarios as you wish. From your current perspective, as a physical human, some of the life choices of others may seem more or less desirable to you. From the perspective of source, they are ALL good because they all create a desire for MORE. When you no longer desire MORE, you will move back into the realm of soul energy and cast off this present physical incarnation as easily as if it were a set of clothing. You will not miss this life, you will not miss the individuals who were in this life, because their souls will always be with you in your soul-group and your energy will forever be intertwined, one lifetime after another, experiencing life, choosing and creating desires and expanding the universe with each Life Play you enact.

Since the soul knows that nothing can harm it, and life in the physical is a temporary thing in the scheme of eternity, it may choose to live a life filled with bliss, or a life filled with fear, or a life filled with fame, or a life filled with disease. These are all valid choices for a soul that knows these are simply temporary incarnations or LIFE PLAYS, just as you may choose to go to a scary movie for the thrill of it, or think about living on a high mountain in Tibet. From the souls eternal perspective, its exactly the same thing, because the soul knows that there is only divine love energy surrounding it and the total support of the universe to experience any physical life scenario it chooses so as to gain wisdom, empathy, focus desires and ultimately expand.

So how do you expand the universe through your Life Plays?

From your very limited human perspective, you see your life experiences as happening TO you and most likely beyond your control, but obviously, from your small degree of focus, you have yet to discover that you are literally creating the world with your thoughts and desires.

Have any of you seen a crystal forming, or frost spreading across glass on a cold winter’s night? You see that on one side of the crystal, there is nothingness...blank space, and on the other side there is the ice crystal formed, pattern intact, singularly beautiful and unique. At the edge, there are tiny needles shooting out, every which way, in no apparent pattern, darting here and there, crossing each other, becoming thicker and thicker, moving one way and then another until they cross so much that the randomness disappears and the pattern comes forth. Again, similar to what came before, but unique in its own way.

That seemingly simple, divinely beautiful, yet exceedingly complex process exactly mirrors how humans, through their desires for more, expand their souls and the universe. The universe simply cannot expand without the physical life force experiencing situations, which create desires for different and expanded experience, which issues requests for more to the universe (the ice needles) which are then focused upon, and energy is added to them and they become part of the REALITY that you desire.

Most folks are sitting in the middle of the frost, its observable reality, its comfortable, it’s there. Life shows them some intensity that creates desires in them for change, but the change is slower, their overall creative energy slower. It’s a comfortable life, but their degree of enjoyment from creating an intensely passionate life with the subsequent expansion of their soul and soul group and the universe is much smaller. Others may feel frozen as if in a rut or groove of the ice crystal, and feel unable to create the energy and passion needed to jump the tracks and manifest the life they truly desire. It’s always wonderful to know that the law of attraction is eternally working, no matter where you are in your life, and you can instantly decide to make a change just by focusing on the things you truly desire. The universe will summon forth all that is necessary for the creation, as long as you follow your happiness and honor your own personal Truth.

Some folks are more conscious of the creation process and closer to the defining edge of the creation--in the frosty pattern that is beginning to develop. They are the ones experiencing great intensity in their lives, and they are the ones sending out those ice fingers, requesting more from the universe, with their positive energy and focus, affecting the expansion of the universe through their desires and the Future path of ALL THAT IS.


So, we as humans are standing on the frontier of the universe, creating physically and through our desires for MORE, energy is being stored and vibrations are being pushed up and up and up--and matter...is literally being formed out of nothing but thought and energy.

For things to CHANGE--for a desire to be created in the physical realm, the level of vibration has to raise enough TO MAINTAIN THAT CHANGE AND CREATION in the physical realm. It is not enough to CREATE the change--you have to have the momentum to maintain the change.

This is why things do not just appear out of thin air when you desire them, though, if you truly believed it could be so, it would happen. As you develop and practice more skills for conscious living, you will learn to actively focus your energy and increase the vibration of manifestation more quickly, by releasing any beliefs that are holding you back, and by constantly looking to feel good about where you are and where you are going.

It’s also important to note a very interesting phenomenon in this physical dimension. Every single person has their own reality, and you can only truly see your own, because you can only get into your own head. No matter how much you know someone else, how long you have known them, how much you have shared and even if you have known them their entire life, you cannot ever share every single moment and thought they are having. Each has come into this world with different perceptions, abilities, perceived biases and a chosen Life Play to enact, and all of these things are valid and acceptable for them alone, just as yours are such for you. When we accept that no two people see things exactly the same way, we realize what a moot point it would be to try and get others to see our points of view and accept them as their own. They CANT! They can only see their own point of view. They may empathize with you, or dissuade you, but the best position would be to accept you as you are and allow you your views, just as that would be the perfect stance for you in all physical interactions. Imagine how wonderful it would be to live in a world where all views were allowed, and no one asked anyone else to change in order for the other to feel comfortable and safe.

Divine Source has also set it up this way from the earliest time to ensure a broad range of viewpoints, experience, desire and a varied asking for MORE. This stimulates continued Universal expansion in many directions and keeps everything divinely balanced. If we all had the same reality, the same experiences and desires, the expansion would be one dimensional and unsustainable, but because of the wide variety of Life Plays, we are all experiencing different things and asking for more in a multitude of areas.

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