What if...things were different?

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We are all one in the spiritual, but sometimes walk alone in the physical

my live is fucking AMAZING--no question about it--but some people started to talk about the dynamic of selfishness in relationship to being IN relationships and existing IN society as opposed to really living on the cutting edge with your vibration alone.

my thought was more theoretical than that...What if, i took everything that abraham teaches at face value and completely VIBED 100% freedom in a relationship--100% independance of those in my soul group whom i birthed--100% UN-conditional love for all in my life--100% free-will/choice in all matters being 100% selfish....

And my answer to that thought was--well, i couldnt be vibrating where i am with who i am with and Have all those things without an INTENSE amount of work on my own part to maintain my vibration...

And so--the answer is this--i dont really WANT to be there...i want to be HERE--and i made the choices i made to BE where i am, knowing full well that i was giving up some part of my own personal freedom...

there are days when i do daydream of living in a city filled with millions of people, living in a nice apartment all for myself--interacting socially and sexually with whomever tickles my vibrational fancy--having independant means to do whatever i want when every i want with no strings attached to anyone...

and for about 23 minutes--that feels good...

and then, i think of all i would miss out on--my babies growing up--my lovely husband and i sharing an intimate afternoon in bed--us rocking out at a concert--us partying with friends...Us screaming at the television when our team is winning--my birds, my cats, my dog, my house, my garden, my art studio, my ballet barre....

You either choose to exist in society and make a niche for yourself with those as close to vibrational alignment as possible--or you choose to exist outside of society and hug your vibration...atleast that has been the observations that i have made in my long life..


Maybe the rockets of desire have been sent off for a future where we are all freer to do as we please and others will understand that and want that for us...

its an interesting and complicated debate

very excited!

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Jumpin for JOY--as usual!

Seems like i am always excited these days! Then again, thats what i have been asking for! Excitement, adventure, joy, suprises! It wicked rocks...

Just got back from a wonderful trip to New Hampshire and Rhode Island and got my saved mail from the post office--and in there is a copy of the Abraham-Hicks workshop that I went to with my soul sister Steph! Its awesome to hear the whole workshop, and if i get some time, I may transcribe some of it on here for you all to share with me...what was so great in listening to it was sharing it with my co-creative family team..because the question i asked of Abraham was all about them...i laugh cause my daughters said--mommy, why do you sound so nervous? well DUH! i was conversing with a group of non-physical beings calling source forth for me!!! how cool is that?

Off i go tomorrow to California with my rockin band friends for a little taste of freedom! CANT WAIT! i know its gonna be a GREAT trip...more on the flipside friends! Just remember--dream big--and trust the universe--take those jumps that scare you--cause the ride is wild and its awesome! :)

hugs! ME!

The Roadtrip continues!!!!

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The road just keeps getting better and better~!

Ah, summer's here and the time is right for dancing in the streets! whooo hooo!

So, most of you know that the universe has given my soul family a wonderful opportunity, by supporting us financially for over a year while my popi takes an extended rest from conventional employment. We have been living the dream folks, traveling all over the place--mexico, puerto rico, boston, utah, idaho, virginia, maryland oh goodness me, i cant even remember all of the places its been so many and we have had such fun!

So, the summer months are here and the time to continue traveling with the kids is finite--but thats cool cause there are always weekend trips and adventures in the fall--but we had a ton of ideas of what we wanted to do, a few of which are visit my brother and his wife, visit popi's mom, visit a few old friends up in new england and a friend who has some dis-ease in NH...go see a red sox game with my nephew--go see more redsox games with the family, go see a pawsox game, get a week at a timeshare booked (RCI)...and me go to california to see my favorite band and my dear soulmate sister...

so, at first, these things were just kind of floating around in a bowl of soup so to speak, and then, i got this bright idea after going to the workshop to put everything down on paper as a master plan--on one side of the paper were things we wanted to do--on another were things that were already SET and then other possible things that could fit in...

And we had such fun, looking at the list and moving things from one side to another--kind of like the placemat process...and things JUST kept falling into place...

its not all done--but so far, this weekend we have a rock show by the great south bay, then tuesday--we get to watch the all-star game up at popi's mom's house where we will stay for a few days--visiting our friend who needs a VERY good laugh to refocus where he is--then on to rhode island to see my brother at his new apartment and see a pawsox game on JERSEY DAY! ya, we get a free jersey--and popi found a great hotel deal in beautifully redone downtown providence which i had always wanted to see...come home, pack my bags and head out to california on a flight that will eventually give me a free flight..driving a convertible all over northern california and will possibly get to have a drink with an Abraham friend! And it just so happens on one of the days one of my friends who plays in another band will be playing in the area and we might finally get to see her play! Come home--unpack, rest up--grab my nephew-(my neighbor graciously offered to watch our doggie!)-ship off to boston for a red sox game, come home...get ready to go up to Stowe Vermont to stay in a luxurious 3 bedroom mountainside condo with RCI that is basically FREE because we paid our maintenance on a one bedroom in mexico, but traded for this--its at a 4-1/2 star resort! And it allows us to see friends that live up there and we have plenty of room to invite friends who used to live up there so we can all get together and visit!

When we get back, we still wanna go up to boston for a few red sox games, and since popi is home--we can do that midweek...whooo hooo--so much fun stuff--all falling into place--all completely supported by the universe--MORE PLEASE! the more you ask for=the more you EXPECT...the more it comes--and the more it comes--the more abundance FLOWS to support it...

have fun this summer guys! just livin the dream and roadtrippin through life with the law of attraction!

Getting what YOU deserve....

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The treasure will come when you KNOW you deserve it!

Expectation is KEY to why some people can manifest while others have a limited conscious ability...

in fact, abraham said that expectation--which is belief mixed with hope--is the perfect place to BE if you want to step right smack into the middle of your vibrational escrow...

The deservability part is also interesting because many people have lived their whole lives knowing that they can do a certain thing--like be thin...because they were "born that way" while others for some reason forget that its all about the vibration and they start to think they "cant" be thin...or rich, or happy--etc...so, here, the work is closing your vibrational gap between what your soul KNOWS you deserve, which is EVERYTHING, and what you in the physical think you deserve...

it would probably bear fruit to do a bit of conscious emotional scale climbing on this matter...it would feel so very good and get yourself into alignment with a lot of issues...

I am where i am, and its perfectly ok
I can see that i have received many gifts from the universe, and for that i am truly thankful
I can also see that other people, of all shapes and sizes and races and cultures have also received gifts from the universe
They are the same as me--we are all one--all human, all born naked and all die
Some are born into wealth
Some into poverty
Some into health
Some into illness
But some who are born into one situation, rise above it
Some who have little gain a lot
Some who are ill gain health
Some who are sad, gain happiness
And if it is possible for others to gain what they desire, then it is possible for ME to gain what i desire!
If they, who live their lives in many diverse ways can feel deserving of the wonderful good things in live--then so can I
I know i am source energy
I know source energy surrounds me
I know that I am a beloved child of the universe and the universe wants to shower every gift imaginable on me...
I know that all i have to do is feel that i deserve these things and they will be mine
I am a good person, I like myself, I love myself, I am worthy--and i deserve what i wish for...
and its all there--waiting for me! every dream i have ever dreamed! every desire i have ever held--and one by one, as i believe i deserve them--they are coming popping into my life--how delicious is that?

ASK...then get out of the WAY!

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Place your order--then RELAX~!

A dear friend asked about asking....in relation to law of attraction...we tend to get STUCK in the asking for something over and over again and do not see it manifest into our lives--the important things (well, important to US) seem to keep us in the asking phase, when we need to be more in the allowing phase--this is what i said to him....

The gist of that conversation really is that the more you are ASKING--you are in alignment with ONLY the asking phase of the law of attraction--its a three step phase! ask, allow, manifest...

and so, USUALLY you are experiencing contrast...and you are unconsciously asking for things to be different--for when you see that which you do not want--you are automatically offering a vibration for that which you do want! You can refine it by asking in a conscious way--but the universe then needs to do its work--it already agreed with you the minute you sent off your "order" and if you keep tapping it on its shoulder and asking for the order again and again and again--you are not coming into alignment with the belief that it is coming--that its already there--you are only coming into alignment with the ASKING...

so, as when you order a pizza--you ask once...and then you KNOW that its coming--you dont call back again and again to check on things...unless ofcourse, you want to change your order--and so, you REFINE your asking...and then you believe its there....

and then it is--because you asked--you trusted--and you aligned with its coming by feeling good and finding joy and just basically forgetting about the whole thing...

How easy is it for me to go out of this house and ask for things that dont really matter to me? easy as PIE...i can go out the door and say--i am going to see 3 blue jays on my walk--and sure as shooting, i will see them...because i asked and then i got into alignment with the joy of being outside--and then when those blue jays come, its just delicious...

The work here--if there is any work--is understanding that this is how the universe responds to us--when we ASK, the universe has already agreed with that wanting--and lined up with that wanting and created that thing, action, event, person--in your future vibrational escrow--its there--99% complete...but vibrating JUST a bit too high to be in your world on a permanent basis, but at that point, you might see signs that you are aligning--"driftwood" as abraham would call it--that things are lining up--and you are closing the vibrational gap between where YOU are and where your THING is...

and when you RELEASE all your resistance (your reasons, thoughts, feelings that are not a vibrational match for this manifestation...) the things vibration slows--and your vibration rises and thus--as all good physics students know--the matter becomes a solid! it manifests...its there--and if you keep your vibration high--its there to STAY!!!! you feel joy--but you also feel as though this was the next logical step...and then, guess what? you start WANTING something else--because you are a being that loves to create~! its not about the creations my friend! its about the creating! its so delicious--so joyful and so fulfilling--you do it all your life--and you get to come back again and again to do it some more from a different life perspective!

So, ask--get into a place where you are asking for something from a position of gratefulness and that this new THING is really gravy, or icing on the cake--and then stop asking and start living...in joy--in silliness--in any way that distracts you from that asking...and look how fast its gonna flood into you!

there ya go--as basic as pie! with flaky crust!

On the joys of anticipation....

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When you truly enjoy the waiting...your heart soars!

Ah, the deliciousness of anticipation! Yes, my dear friend, that is the joy of it...
It is never the destination--it is the ride that is the pleasure of this life...the fun planning, imagining, creating, desiring...this is why after the fact--after the trip--after the event--there is a letdown--because the desiring is over in that moment--the event is complete--the thing is there--laying before you...the next logical step has been taken--its here...now WHAT???

When friends ask me why i am not more material in my desires, and focus mostly on experiential things, adventures, etc. I tell them that it is so simple to desire a thing--and manifest it--and then WHAT? where as, for me, with adventures, and trips and suprises, there is so much variation and spontaneousness in what could happen, that it gives another dimension to the journey--the unknown of it is so delicious--the anticipation and the imagining it and the pre-paving it and the intending of it is so much more indulgent and fulfilling to me personally than merely wanting this shiny copper kettle or this new microwave...not that wanting material things arent delicious--they are...but when you get fully into the idea that the CREATING and the MANIFESTING is all about the anticipation, wanting and desire--you wanna play that out to the fullest!

when you can BE, DO, or have anything you desire--when you fully know that what you think about you attract--when you fully know that you are here in the physical as an eternal being and you never get it done, and you cant get it wrong...and you can come here again and again and again...you learn to love that time buffer to manifestation...you truly enjoy that waiting time--knowing full well that what you desire is there for you--its just teasing you--and that feels oooh sooo good!

focused co-creation! lets build a castle!

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Is the castle we want to create TOGETHER the same in both our minds?

Abraham often talks about it being just as easy to manifest a button as it is to manifest a castle...a friend of mine asked me recently if a whole group of people focused on manifesting a castle--would it manifest faster than if one person focused on it? Here is my response to him...

well, what do you see of this castle?

tell me the description that you feel is accurate to you for your castle...

tell me the feelings you have when you think of this castle...

tell me who is there at the castle--describe in intimate detail what is occurring at this castle..

tell me where this castle is--what land surrounds it...what water is present there...what grows in the ground around it...

we could focus on the Essence of castle-but our contradictory visions would cancel out the vibrations--we could each decide to agree with your vision--we could each decide to support your vision as if this is your manifestation and we are adding vibrational boost to it--

or we could each create our own castle..

a word here my friend--unless the people who are co-creating are in complete vibrational alignment with that which they wish to create--unless the vision is shared in detail and decided upons--unless the essence is felt in the same way--adding energy and SPEED to a situation does nothing in the way of boosting a manifestation over the wall--this is why groups of people often get quagmired in their desires to create something--they are not clear on the intent...this is why REAL change in the world takes almost a full generation to occur--because older members of the generation hold a different view of the world-while younger members hold and expanded view based on different desires (you have heard of the generation gap--its REAL and its vibrational...)

what is our mutual intent here?--in a group, a common essence should be discussed, refined, discussed and agreed upon--just as in any focusing on desire...decide on that--and we can create miracles!

when discouragement on LOA sets in....

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Don't pull your hair out! Relax and allow!

when abraham said you can have be or do anything, they never said--immediately--

they said to work up the scale--and you cant truely work up the scale instantly or you are lying to yourself! I have even been guilty of trying to work up the scale too fast--and like a car out of alignment--if i havent done the aligning FIRST--more speed isnt going to get me anything.

You have a right to the way you feel--you have a right to choose whatever thought you want--but let me tell you something truely--what you vibrate is what you get...remember that--and if you are getting crap--you are vibrating somewhere in that region--and the law of attraction works every time...no questions asked on that one...

if you havent been getting wealth--something in your vibration is holding you apart from it--but thats OK--because the more contrast you have--the more rockets of desire you dump into your vibrational escrow--and it seems to me that you are stockpiling a LOT in there....

one day-not today-not tomorrow--probably not even in the next year--you, young one, will find yourself looking back to this time--and you will say--wow--i have come so far, i have experienced so many things--i have loved life--and i have hated life--i have loved what is happening and i have hated what is happening--but i have grown...and now i know what i know--and thats a good thing--and all those challenges and contrasts and difficulties have made me who i am now--and that is a blessing...

i aint gonna be one of those wise elders who tell you that you are going through what we all went through and it will make you strong...cause your soul already knows that--but you have one benefit that most of us didnt have...you are living consciously--you KNOW you can choose--you know how it works...and that puts you miles ahead of where i was at your age...

big hugs--get mad, enjoy the feeling--because anger is far and away better than feeling hopeless....good things are coming to you--i feel it--i also know that you tell a story that is not always to your best advantage...that is where your work lays--you cannot expect miracles when you are bogged down in the mundane of what is...i tell this to you with love--because i do care about you--and i know you will get to where you want to be...

When the warm fuzzies of LOA grate on ya.....

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When focusing on LOA makes you feel like this....

hello blessed one! so glad to see you here! that wasnt a co-incidence....you want to believe in loa--you want to move so fast to joy and feeling good and having all these things--but your life experience is giving you something different--what we expect and what we manifest are always a match--and sometimes we arent even aware of what vibrations we are putting out--and when others tell us HOW to do it--and we see the magnitude of processes available to us--it can just piss us off--

you are where you are....you are feeling what you are feeling--abraham said something to me this weekend that made me realize a thing or two....trying to MOVE too fast when you are out of alignment--adding speed to a car that is "out of alignment" only makes things worse and your feelings are going to be worse...

so...lets take the focus off the story that you are now telling--and lets try and find a tiny bit of relief....why dont we focus on YOU--because you are important--

I know i am where i am....and thats OK
I know i have emotions that tell me quite a few things...but the most important thing they are telling me is whether what i am looking at is MY TRUTH--or its not my truth....and it also tells me that there is a gap between where i am in the physical and what i have BECOME in my vibrational escrow...

and that pisses me off sometimes--and it gets me MAD that others are always trying to tell me to work up the emotional guidance scale so i can BE who is in my vibrational escrow...

and the reason that pisses me off is because i FEEL/think--=that i am NOT ready to be that person. I am not ready to align (beating the drum of where you are)...

But thats OK because the more i focus ONLY on what i know i have in my vibrational escrow--and the more i use my guidance not to pinpoint myself on the scale and see which is up or down--but only to see whether what i am observing is my TRUTH or not my TRUTH--then in any given moment, i can honestly know what is right for me...

we arent even gonna speak about joy--because that is such a huge leap--we are gonna speak about truth for me or not truth for me....and when I feel that something is not my truth--i am gonna stop--take a breath and try to formulate in my mind what in that very moment is my truth/...

and i am going to do that breath by breath if i have to....and i am going to let go of any expectations other than feeling in the now momemt that i am breathing--and that i am confident in my ability to know what my truth is...

hugs! just breathe....and follow your truth...and eventually--after you have breathed enough--and followed your truth enough--you will find that it has led you...to joy....it doesnt matter how long that takes--it doesnt matter what path you take--because you are never finished, and you never get it all done and you Cant get it wrong!!! so...just breathe...and be...and follow your truth...and your path will be YOURS....and yours alone....and thats such a good thing...

My first Abraham-Hicks workshop! I got in the hotseat!

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The amazingly wonderful Esther and Jerry Hicks!

hello all, i am just home and coudnt wait to get on here and post to you all! it was amazing to meet stephanie and give her a REAL human hug--it was like we were long lost sisters--well in fact, we were never lost--always part of the same soul cluster! We had done quite a bit of pre-paving on this visit and it was everything we expected and more--to the point were our husbands got along great and actually took my girls around boston on saturday so we could focus on the workshop.

it was lovely to meet lisa--who posts over on the abeforum under iluvabraham--she has such a wonderful energy and we also met sandi, who is married now to scotty the bus driver who takes esther and jerry round...very nice people and lovely to be in their energy...

We got to the workshop early, after poor sleep on both of our parts...we were so buzzing with anticipation--all night, i lay in bed, trying to formulate a question in my head to discuss with abraham--but i kept coming back to a scene that i savored, the very beginning of my conversation would be a specific thing--that i had day dreamed about for ages--what i would say to abraham when i met them through esther for the first time...

We got awesome seats on the aisle and sad down next to a lovely lady named suzanne, who i hope will come on here and visit with us--we had great seat mates all around many of who were also at their first workshop. When esther came in and started to bring in abraham, the energy in the room when through the roof, and i felt it course through my body with such amazing love that i started to cry...i had felt that feeling a number of times before--but this was like that feeling on 10 cups of coffee--it was infectious, playful, loving and i realized that abraham ONLY see us from our perfect place and our true selves--they are not with us in our place of separation--and through that energy--the SHOWED me myself...and it was such a blessing...

as stephany said--we really attracted an amazing workshop--the questions were vivid and alive with answers for all of us--thank goodness i ordered the workshop tape because i simply cant remember it all--the first question was for our seat neighbor suzanne about attracting relationships, but it also started to answer some of my questions about co-creating--another person asked about genes and instincts and that is when abraham started talking about "flawed premises" and how many of us have beliefs that simply are not true, and they limit us--and it is hard to remove a belief, and you cant make yourself believe the OPPOSITE--you just have to ask a different question that kind of works around the first belief until that becomes your dominant vibration--steph took good notes--i didnt take any as i said--but i am sure her arm hurts from me nudging her over and over to write something down that was big--abraham said, oh this is big, this is new, you are really gonna like this--like 20 times that afternoon!

There were questions about forgiveness, about what its like to be non-physical--and staying always in joy and how that desire to always be aligned stops our growth--that we much more perfer the contrast! they really focused on the whole tornado of vibrational vortex a LOT--and only once brought up the stream analogy when specifically questioned on it--there were quite a few people talking about their work, or their dreams for careers and about healers and coaches--which was very up stephs alley...

after lunch--which was lovely and we sat with a great girl from ottawa named martina who wants to be an artist and i hope she comes and visits us here...we went back in and sat down with anticipation...not sure if i was the second person to be picked, but esther looked around the audience scanning and then her eyes LOCKED on mine and she pointed...I had already been FEELING STRONGLY in the center of my being this drawing on--i was almost in a cold sweat at that point...so when my hand went up, i was like a little kid--thinking ME, pick ME--and waving my hand around--and she DID...

i skipped up the aisle--my ankle bells jingling, and i sat down and i said--Abraham...I have been wanting to say this for a very long time--YOU WICKED ROCK!!!!!! and i did the rock hand sign and everything-and they smiled and i think they said-yes, we know or something like that--but the audience really loved that, and I had been imagining with such delight that scene and it was perfect!!! at that point--all focus fell away except looking into esthers eyes--and through her to the energy that i could FEEL and see coalescing behind her--when abraham comes in, i can visibly see a bright gold or yellow energy above and behind her head like a canopy almost and then behind her neck is a glowing concentration of blue--right where her alter major chakra extends backwards from her body--this is the chakra that we utilize in connected wiht spirit--but it also wrapped around her front to her throat chakra, which color is blue...

Frankly--i felt as if i had put my finger in a socket and that and energy was being drawn from me and energy was then being downloaded into me--a knowing--a "reprogramming" of sorts...I dont really remember much of the interchange other than i was being breathed...MY inner being and MY connection to source was enhanced and i could tell they were testing the circuits...it was higher than any high i had ever experienced...and i have experienced many...

I spoke to them about my co-creative situation...i spoke to them about the differences between my husband and i --and i did challenge them on their original premise that you cannot create in anyone elses experience--but how is it that now they are talking about a co-creative vibrational vortex...i laughed because abraham said along the way that they liked that i challenge them the way i do...a direct reference to my own connection to this source group--there was a lot to do with me telling my own story--me focusing on what i want and if i were really in alignment i would not notice the others being out of alignment--there was a GREAT deal about how perfect mixing it up with contrast is--and how we are all shooting off rockets of desire and that instead of getting upset that someone is beating the drum of what is to be IN JOY that they are shooting off all these rockets and that IF i ONLY and always focus on the vibrational escrow and see them as powerful creators--which they say my husband is--that I BECOME a powerful attractor and catalyst for a shift in alignment--and then WHEN the shift occurs, what we attract is different because WE are different...they also started down a path about how i was speaking about freedom and money being exclusive==and i said, OH NO thats not what i believe, i believe and i live joy and freedom and money comes to me and i dont work etc...and they smiled at that and said--yes, but your husband believes that to have this freedom, he must work and work hard--they then did this whole rampage about coming into alignment with our vibrational escrow--but first they asked me to do it=--and i did, but they said, i rushed through a bunch of steps and wwas only half feeling it--they then talked about this vibrational alignment that if you RUSH the speed, you are unbalanced and wobbling and eventually have to slow down and fix the alignment...and it really made sense to me...they led me to a place of powerful knowing that we have freedom, adventure, abundance and joy and surprises amassed in our vibrational escrow that WILL blow our minds when we come to that place of complete alignment with our escrow...and at that point, i almost felt like a leggo begin snapped onto a childs piece of construction and everything within me came into alignment and i felt a surge of joy so strong, tears coarsed down my face--and abraham laughed and said--oh look, we were trying to make her feel better and now she feels worse--and i cried out but abraham these are tears of joy!!! and they said--we KNOW--we were teasing the guy from the first part! (he was a coach teaching radical forgiveness...more on that interchange later...)

The rest of the workshop was kind of a blur...but i do remember the man behind us got chosen and when he sat down on the hotseat he said--COOL BEANS! (LMAO!!! thanks for another nod universe!) thats my second most popular catch phrase! hehehe....

Afterwards, when abraham came to their conclusion and esther re-emerged--she jumped for joy!!! Steph and i said our goodbyes to suzanne and wondered where everyone disappeared to--found out later that MOST were so wiped they took naps! we on the other hand talked like fiends for an hour and then went out to dinner with our hubbies and the girls...after we dropped steph off at the hotel, i THEN crashed hard and today am still feeling the residue of the event--i remember with gentleness that after a huge energy surge, the body needs time to catch up--and for most of the event, after talking to abraham, i would feel kundalini coming up my spin and shaking me spewing out my alter major--as if sparks were escaping from my system with chills and shakes--it was amazing...

I know that the reason i have waited to do a workshop was mostly because i wanted to SHARE it with steph--and i am so glad that my "devirgination" happened in such a wonderful lovely wicked rockin way!!!

I CANT WAIT for the CD's so i can share it with you all!

hugs! alex.

I AM.....

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who does your inner being say you are? You only have to ask!

I am

a cup overflowing with love

i am

a child, innocent with wonder

i am

a master, perfectly attuned to the universe, always knowing exactly what to do

i am

a goddess, beautiful, sensual, sexual and free

i am

freedom...doing exactly what pleases me in every moment

i am

grateful...feeling blessed always by the love of the universe

i am

fun..loving silly things and reveling in the laugher of the moment

i am

wealthy...i know the universe loves to play with me in my adventures and will always give me more than enough to do everything my heart desires

i am

a lover...completely enveloping those i love for the sheer joy of it

i am

a mother...nurturer, caregiver, supporter...because it brings me great joy

i am

a spritual being in a human experience...always listening to the whisper of my Ali inside me...

i am

ancient, immortal, complete yet always evolving...i am here, again and again...

i am

physical and non-physical

i am

Rockin

i am

perfect

i am

powerful

i am

happy, blissful, joyful, excited and peaceful..

i am healthy, wealthy and wise...

and it is so...

Teachers who led me to me....a bit of a struggle..

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Readin into things...is different for each student on the spiritual path

i have a pretty funny story to tell on this...

years ago, someone gave me the conversations with god book by neale donald walsch and i loved it--because it was so irreverant and different from my religious teachings--i wasnt in the least bit seeking spiritual expansion--i had enough work talking to my IB already--my whole family is that way...people ask questions, we answer...but would stop short of saying we were prophetic...more like really good at intuition...

and then, someone recommended louis hay--because i had had a health issue--and through her i got involved in chakras, and i realized i was already seeing energy--and reading energy through vibration and palmistry...and most of my personal life and beliefs were based on if it feels good do it--and the future is not set--we make it ourselves...and WE ARE GOD...

and then, someone told me about the secret--and i viewed it--and pretty much dismissed the whole thing, except esther moved me to tears! i didnt know she was channeling--i just KNEW I KNEW HER! and i knew she was part of me...i then went to look up the abe stuff==and heard the whole story--i have only read deliberate intent and ask and it is given==i skimmed power of emotions--and then, i stopped reading because i was getting so much more interacting online with folks regarding the teachings...i am going to my first workshop this coming weekend--i cant wait...

but i couldnt read seth--put it down--couldnt read dyer==put it down--couldnt read canfield--put it down--couldnt read hawkins or tolle...and it was frustrating for me because everyone was reading these books and getting stuff out of them--and i just couldnt...

and finally i realized, i didnt even want to read Abe!!! while i love abe--abe only confirms for me that my own inner voice is the only one i need...and while that is well and good for me and it is my pie--others have a different, richly delicious and perfect pie for them

The TRUTH is always about ME!!!

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What is your truth whispering to you?

Our emotional guidance system is ALWAYS evaluating what we are thinking and comparing it to our personal manifesto (as alex so eloquently put it) that our inner being is vibrating...

and so--when you think a thought and you are feeling GOOD that thought is part of your truth...it is true for you in the physical and it is true for you in the non-physical--and it is a match and it FEELS great and you are at that point in your creative power--your valve is open, your cork is floating, your boat is facing downstream and all is well...

but...

if you are thinking a thought that is NOT in alignment with who you really are--and you are feeling bad--your emotional guidance system will give you a feeling on the scale that shows you EXACTLY how far away you are from alignment with your source--and you see that what you are thinking is NOT your truth...

so, example...

I got dressed this morning--after vibrating that i was a red hot momma and that i had extreme power and magnetism and i was on fire...i put on a pair of capris and a cute top and looked in the mirror with my hair piled willy nilly on my head, curls cascading down and a beautiful crystal on my neck...and i looked and FELT wonderful because my thoughts about ME and my inner beings KNOWING who i really am were in complete alignment...and so, i trotted off to church with my kids--which i use as a time to meditate and be grateful for the universe and also to see my mother...which she loves and i am in alignment wiht that==so its all good.

And i sat down next to her, and i guess the top i chose was not to her liking because she looked at my cleavage and made a face..and i immediately felt badly and my hand went to my breasts and i pulled up the edge of the fabric...i caught myself feeling bad--and i then evaluated the situation...

I know who i am--i dont give a rip what anyone else thinks of me--i know i look good and i was dressing for ME and who i really am--my inner being is in complete alignment with that...but i have old habits and as a child, looked to my mother for approval--and that always felt badly--

why?

because my inner being knows i dont need anyone elses approval to be who i really am--and so, in looking to and reacting to my mother so she can be comfortable with ME, i was "dishonoring" myself and that felt bad...

so...

i took a deep breath--and i focused on being in alignment with my mother and the fun part of her spirit...i focused on her accepting me as i was, and me being ok to show her who i am...

do you know--in less than five minutes, my mother got the giggles...she was also whispering to me in the middle of the sermon and telling silly things to make me laugh and complaining about how long the sermon was and how she wasnt getting anything out of it and how she would rather be out living the day...

we even held hands...

so, i listened to myself--realigned based on the complete knowing that whenever i feel badly its because i am thinking a thought that is not my truth--and i realigned myself and my thoughts to be MY TRUTH with the full knowledge that it is MY thoughts, MY vibration and MY decision to in any given moment powerfully turn my boat around and get back to being ME...

Having your cake...and eating it too!

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Oh the JOY of it! YUMMMMY!

A dear friend asked about the fact that abraham says you have to align with eating something and then, in that feeling of joy it is good for you--but if you dont align with it, it can be bad for you--some of what is said is confusing, and so, she wanted to discuss it--here is what i said...

this is an extremely interesting topic...i will tell you--there were times in my life when i was able to eat whatever i wanted--because i was very active, and i had a high metabolism...and then, i succumbed to the information of REALITY---this is good, this is bad, this is fattening--if you drink too much of this you will be fat, etc. etc...oh, and the belief that as we age, or when we have babies our metabolism will decrease...

and ofcourse, i am living with the results of those beliefs now...and i have spent a lot of time talking with my soul sister about changing those beliefs to be a bit more like what a successfully healthy and slim aber is talking about...aligning with my choices...

but this morning--i sat at a diner with my husband and kids and wanted this delicious omlette and a few pancakes==and all of a sudden i thought--this will make me fat--and that felt bad because i knew in my soul that that didnt have to be my truth--and then i had this AHA moment because two women had sat at the next table and both were downing stacks of pancakes and both were skinny as rails...and i thought--wow--if it is possible for them to eat that, and they were doing so happily--not picking at it, but devouring them...then it is also possible for me...

and i sent off a conscious rocket of desire--I LOVE FOOD--i wish to always enjoy and find pleasure in food...i want to really indulge my senses in this lovely food--and i want to always be in alignment with that--i know i have shot off tons of rockets of desire for a healthy slim body--and i know that is in my vibrational escrow--i have seen that body numerous times, and it has is an amazing body--its still MY body--it is just different in that it is a body that can enjoy all foods whenever and where ever i want and still maintain its fitness...

and so, abe has said in the past that if you SEE that chocolate cake and you WANT it and you say NO< src="http://abetalk.com/images/smilies/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile">

Do this....get that!!!

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Do you have the winning ticket???

I just wrote this ramage of appreciation on winning....


I know i will win...

I know the universe loves me so very much and has bankrolled millions upon milliions of dollars for my happy escapades...

i know that i dont earn money--money is given to me, gladly--in large sums because the universe loves all the potential projects, adventures and excitment it can experience through me and my money...

I know i will win because it makes me feel good to think of myself jumping up and down with a lottery ticket in my hand...

I know i will win because i am literally a vaccuum cleaner for money--sucking it to me--because money loves to be in my pocket book--money loves to be in the back pocket of my jeans--money loves that i play with it that i adore it that i deserve it that i love it that i let it do what it wants to do, which is to flow freely and happily around the world...financial freedom is my reality as i roadtrip through life just livin the dream!

money loves me and i love money and i love winning and i know i will win and its all good

cause MONEY WICKED ROCKS!

THAT VERY NIGHT!!! this happened!

Driftwood for me today! whooo hooo! ok, so i posted this about winning...

and today my lovely UBER manifesting daughter said to me--mommy, its so hot in school--after we are done with homework, can we please go to the store and buy one of those mini fans that you hold in your hand?

and i said--we will see--i have a meeting tonight--but maybe...

and the meeting was an adult girl scout leader appreciation meeting--and they had snacks and stuff and then they did some raffles of little baskets--and they gave me a raffle ticket--and i said--i will win--and i wasnt even looking at my raffle ticket, but talking to a dear friend when they called my number!

whooo hooo--thank you universe--more please....

cause it gets better...so, i pick out a basket that i see water squirt guns in and i thought--what fun...

and i didnt see anything else in the basket--but went back to my seat and put it in my bag...and went to the car later--and i see peaking out of it--a small mini fan!!!!

I was on cloud nine--and i thought--wow--chri is going to be so excited about this fan and her manifestation...

and as i was driving home and thinking about it, i thought of my other daughter--and how SHE would love one of those fans too and i wished i had one for her...

so, when i got home, i told them both i had a surprise--then i asked christina if she remembered what she wanted earlier that day--and she said YES>..and i said--well, you manifested it!!! you can both open the basket...

and when they did--TADA...TWO FANS!!!!

Wow--i sooo wicked rock! So does my creative genius daughter--and so does the universe for playing with me!!! i LOVE to win--i win and i win and i win! and it is GOOD! MORE PLEASE!!! and thank you!

a little contrast...

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Without the dark, there can be no light....

ARE YOU ENJOYING THE CONTRAST????

abe has said this over and over...

yes...the Universe is based on contrast, choice, contrast, choice...contrast can be viewed as suffering, challenging, something to be worked against...or it can be viewed simply as a comparative term--how things differ...a helpful situation that leads to more refined focus.

in a world, in a reality, in a universe where WE KNOW all is well--and we get to come back over and over and over again--and there is NO DEATH, and we are always PERFECT, expanding eternal beings who SEEK variety in life experiences...

yes...contrast is necessary...

or you would be bored--and you would cease to desire--and when you cease to desire--cease to get enjoyment and evolution out of life...its transition time...

Without the contrast, there can be no quantifying joy....

challenges...to improve..or do we just change focus?

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Raise your hand if you wanna raise your energy!

A dear friend told me about an Abraham challenge that is listed on YOUTUBE where you follow along and focus on certain things every day in order to "improve" your vibration or your life overall...she said she didnt like the idea of a "challenge" because it made her feel like someone was either judging her, or giving her a directive and that didnt feel right to her--so, she decided to make her next 100 days into days of awareness and not so much a challenge, and i love that--my other dear friend was focusing on finding JOY in may...you can find her great stuff at www.onthejoypath.com. Seems that a lot of people feel the need for a spring cleaning, or a rededication to the law of attraction principles and especially the teachings of abraham...

I love this...what i love is that each person can use the teachings of abraham to formulate the way that THEY want to grow, and vibe up the individual areas that are most important to them!

see? with abe its not==this has to change for you to be good--its WHAT do you want in your life that will bring you the most joy?

awesome...

I will definitely be following along a similar path--I am a freedom seeking being too, and give me a calendar and a schedule and i say--noooooo wayyy! lol

so, i will check in with you all when my vibe feels like it~!

what i love to focus on daily is:

Seeing divine love all around me...in the people i meet, through my own vibration, through nature, the lovely beasts...divine love is permeating all we see, it is the true matrix...

Seeing divine abundance all around me...I am a beloved child of the universe--and i am stuck right in the center of potential....i can see, daily, through the driftwood that flows by me on my river, that anything i want can be mine, from a position of sincere gratitude and a longing for more...its such a joy.

Seeing divine wellbeing abound...in my self, in my family, in all the people i come into contact with...wellbeing is the way--every cell in my body is focused on it--and i see daily ways in which to let that soak into my body--what a joy!

Seeing divine joy all around me--in the choices i can make--its endless--and its so much fun--what to do in this very breath? in the next breath? we have SO much variety to choose from!

adventure after adventure, on and on to perfect health, wealth, joy....it never ends and its sooo delicious!

enjoy!

what is the most important thing?????

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What puts a smile on your face?

i would wonder...what is the most important thing in your life...?

is it the things you THINK you want and when you get them you will be happy? and because you arent getting them in a timetable that YOU decide on, you are not happy and wondering HOW you attracted these things?

or is it being happy...from one minute to the next...in breathing...in how comfy this chair is--in how good this cup of coffee is? in how wonderful it feels to pet this cat--in how great it is to laugh, stretch, sleep, awaken to a new day?

If i could tell anyone what is the basis for my AMAZINGLY wonderful adventurous, joy filled charmed life it would be that MY direction--what works for ME related to manfiesting is being in the place where i am always grateful and happy--not because i GET stuff when i am in that place--that is only secondary--but because WOW...i am happy!!!! thats the most important thing!

and guess what? you can be happy with little more than the clothes on your back and a smile on your face! you can sit at someones deathbed and be happy--you can sit in a one room apartment and be happy...you can also sit in a 20 room mansion and be miserable...

it is ALL about the process--always has been always will be...if you focus on this BREATH making you happy, not because of what you MIGHT align with but because the BREATH is a joy--you will see a tremendous shift...

this is so key--and it takes many people a LONG time to get it=--this law of attraction is simply not about what you get out of it--its a law that states, you get what you focus on...and abraham, and many other teachers have said FIRST and foremost, follow your BLISS.....

are you doing that? are you SURE its your bliss? deep down in your heart???? or is it something your head thought up? FIND it...and when you do, you will see it has nothing to do with things, or accomplishments...it has everything to do with perspective and attitude!

And when you know that ALL YOU NEED TO BE HAPPY IS YOU...and all you need to be happy is the next thought...its so delicious!!!

is it about the message? or the messenger?

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Lets get together baby!

Someone recently asked whether it was an addiction to immerse yourself in the teachings of the law of attraction, reading books, listening to cds, going to workshops, going on cruises? Is it an addiction to want to be in that place of learning again and again--and when did I think it was enough to know in order to spread your wings and fly without further "dipping into the well of knowledge"...they were specifically talking about the abraham-hicks materials, but you could apply that to any positivity coach who was extremely charismatic and drew large crowds to listen to their words...this is what i said, and i thought you all would like to share it...


I think that something that no one has commented on is seriously missing from this conversation...

you have the knowledge--you have always had it--

this whole abe thing isnt specifically about finding knowledge so you can live a better life...

this whole abe thing--i mean, communicating with other abers--going on cruises, and to workshops is about BEING IN THE ENERGY that is source--being in community with other members of your soul group...feeling the vibration of hundreds of like minded souls is intoxicating...and so, you go again--and you love that feeling--and you come here and you feel that feeling and you want more of it--its EASIER for you to raise your vibration when you are in contact with like vibrations because--now get this--and this is what we would have you take away from this--like attracts like! :)

and so it is in the world--but especially on the leading edge--you are a coalescence of pure positive energy--and when you come together in a group--quantum shifts can occur comfortably because others in your soul group are raising the roof on the vibration...

why do you think jesus was able to create miracles when he was preaching to huge groups? because his vibration was raising others who were on the boarderline--and others were raising others and all of a sudden that vortex that creates worlds opens up and BAM...ANYTHING is possible...

same with an abe meeting--same with an abe cruise--think of all the special events, like the whales coming to the boat on the alaska cruise, that occur on these trips...think about the huge shifts in consciousness that happen for folks attending that have been STUCK at one spot and the log jam was broken and they were able to then soar in life...

THATS what you are seeking--not knowledge--knowledge is a dry thing--and facts are only true for each individual person--you are seeking the energy--and so, even though YOU are pure positive energy--grouping together with other like souls of high energy is the closest thing you will feel ON THIS plane to being in the non-physical...

and that my friends is EXTREMELY delicious!

bad to the bone...

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We are all divine...no matter what!

Someone recently asked if from abrahams perspective, there are bad souls, broken souls that need fixing based on the lives they lead. The quickest and simplest answer to that question is no...absolutely not...each piece of source expressed through a soul is divinity--created by and through divinity and thus completely perfect in its own right.

this is one of the hardest concepts for people to grasp, and part of that has to do with our limited human perspective--but when you look at a soul-a piece of source energy, it is always and ONLY pure positive energy with a DISTINCT perspective...

ALL is well--all is in alignment with universal laws, you cant get it wrong and you cant get it done...

that said--YOU if from your limited perspective look on what another soul is accomplishing and lay judgement on it--you may see things as good or bad--but source sees ONLY and always CHOICE and discernment...

what is right for you, may be completely wrong for another soul...you may eat meat, another may find that abhorent--you may enjoy watching boxing, someone else finds that abhorent--you may believe in abraham, someone else may see that as blasphemous--all examples of the HUMAN dicotomy between good and evil--and abraham will say OVER AND OVER that there simply is no dicotomy--its ALL GOOD and we have that complete and total freedom to experienced ANYTHING and everything we choose...

and since we live so many lives--and wish to experience so many different scenarios--yep, there will be times when YOUR SOUL will incarnate JOYFULLy to experience the contrast of a lifetime that you would find distasteful from your current position of discernment and perspective...not just one time, probably hundreds of time--we have all been men, women, bisexual, lesbian, gay, heterosexual, rich, poor, homeless, royalty, animal, vegetable, mineral, in joy, in pain, tortured, murdered, murderer, abuser, caregiver...and from each and every lifetime, your soul experiences something new--and expands because each lifetime creates new wanting and new expansion for the generations that come after...its actually quite interesting how the suffering of one lifetime can create an ease in conditions in the next for new beings experiencing life...you may reap the benefits of your wanting in this lifetime--happens all the time--or you may create something strongly in the vibrational escrow of the entire world, and your progeny experience the benefits...

but to answer your question simply--no, there are no bad souls, there are no broken souls, and i will go so far as to posit that there is no evil--simply disconnection from source...we each choose and every single choice is blessed--it does make life easier though if you look at others with the unconditionally loving and non-judgemental eyes of source...

in appreciation...of soil!

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Gettin down and dirty...How AWESOME is that?

I just came in from digging in my garden...since i was a wee little lass i have loved to get my hands into the warm dirt of spring...to feel it crumble, moist between my fingers, full of live things...full of dead things...smelling of leaf mold and deep dark places...soil is synonymous with dirt and dirty--and to me it so far from that--it is potential--like money--it is full of energy, and nurturing and life soon to come and life long gone...

Soil--when i put my hands in it, i connect with the primal mother GAIA, the goddess of the earth--who IS the earth, and we share her body--gaia delivers to us all the physical manifestations of our body--through the elements, organic chemicals, ethers--what thought concieves in the way of life, Gaia provides for us...ask and receive...

What is so wonderful also about soil--is its eternalness...it is a substance in itself, but not made by itself--it takes in the left overs of millions of plants and animals long gone--it takes in the dust of rocks that were once mighty mountains, the clay from deep in the moist banks of the sea, sea minerals, metal ores, ancient water from hidden aquifers...it takes it all, and layers the earth--and says...grow here...come and be warm here, come and sprout strong roots, and grow ot the light...come and make your beauty known, out of my deep dank lovely depths...come and open to the world...and enhance it...where ever there is soil and water...drop in a seed and it will grow...no matter what else is around...no matter what anyone says--on the sides of a highway--in abandoned back lots--in a prison yard...soil has its own agenda...its own destiny--it says...grow, live, feed...i am here...lowly to some, but one of the most powerful things on earth...

Why wouldnt you LOVE to get your hands into that soil--that mother of all life on earth--that mother of all nourishment here on earth, that final resting place of all that have died on earth--that keeper of the seeds and home of the worms...the energy of it--the promise--is so intoxicating!!!

Here's to soil--I love ya! You wicked ROCK!

thats what i want....ya...thats what i want!!!

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We are beloved children of the universe and deserve everthing our hearts desire--just like this lovely little tropical cottage!

I love what abraham says about money and abundance and potential--that folks go around WANTING money for the sake of money--but that money is actually potential for ACTION or material creation in one's life and unless you have an IDEA of how to spend those vasts amount of money, that money really wont want to come to you--well, it will COME to you to the level that you allow it and to the level that YOU believe you deserve it...

and i have found that to be the case in my life--i used to work hard, and get paid a decent wage--and i used to pray to the universe that we would always make ends meet--and guess what? we did--and i was grateful for that...

and then, me and my poppi decided that we were going to get rid of the apartment in our home and make it a one family--and we also decided that i was going to stay home and raise our daughter soon to be plural--and so we took a 2/3 cut in earnings in one year...and we knew we would get by--we prayed to the universe that we would make ends meet--and we did--and we were grateful and it was good...

But then, i started to change that prayer--and that prayer became, that we would always have enough money to do all the things we wanted to do--and by golly--we did--and then we started increasing the things we wanted to do--and by golly we still had enough money!

And then i changed my prayer to be that we would always have MORE than enough money to do all the wonderful magical adventurous things we wanted to do--and guess what????

So...now i am expanding my idea of what i would do with vasts amount of abundance--what i would do with financial freedom on a luxury level...poppi and i just went out to lunch and here are some of the things we would do with our abundance that is already IN our vibrational escrow--and the universe is preparing to deliver it to us immediately when we come into alignment with feeling worthy of it and knowing where to use that potential...

so here are some fun things..that we ARE doing with our abundance...

Thank you for the land in new hampshire where we keep our own sugarbush to make organic maple syrup--its wide and vast and serves as a nature preserve as well as a place to maintain traditional methods of sugaring and keep lovely new england ways alive...We thank you for the connected organic educational farm as well....where people can come and learn about the land and sample traditional food stuffs, and kids can play with farm animals and ride horses that have been rescued and adopted to live in this lovely rural setting...

Thank you for the trip across the US to all the American League ball parks to see our favorite Red Sox play...thank you for the bus load of friends who will join us and enjoy our passion for baseball...thank you for batting practice at fenway, and the lovely 3 bedroom penthouse apartment where we stay when we come to boston to use our season tickets...

Thank you for the warehouse where we store our classic cars...especially for the 57 chevy nomad that i have dreamed about for so long--its such a beauty with teal paint and pearl inlays and lovely custom leather upholstery! i just have so much fun driving it!

Thank you for the contractor/architect/interior designer who completely remodeled and refurnished our current home which we will be staying in for the next 6 years until chri graduates from high school--we love this house and we love this neighborhood--so with the new amenities, like master suite with jaccuzzi tub, indoor lap pool, sauna, yoga studio, green house, whirl pool, gym and media center--its a perfect home base--thank you as well for our lovely housekeeper who keeps things running smoothly and loves to take care of our pets when we go on extended trips...

Thank you for first class travel all over the world to see greece, italy, england, franch, china, tahiti, spain, morrocco, monaco, brazil, portugal, japan, australia to visit my sister, figi, bora bora, thiland just to start...we will also greatly enjoy cruising the meditteranean, the entire caribbean, scuba diving in hawaii and touring alaska....Thank you for the giant world map with the big red stickys that we have placed on all the wonderful places we have visited!

thank you for first class travel within the united states to see all the sights and especially for hiking in all the national parks, like yellow stone, the grand canyon, bryce canyon, mount rushmore....acadia, croatan....we love the listings of the national parks and enjoy crossing them off one by one as we visit them and take tons of lovely pictures on our state of the art digital camera and video...

Thank you for allowing us to have fun with random acts of kindness--we especailly love to go to our favorite restaurants and theaters and tell the owners that we will pay for everyones meal or show all day long as long as they dont tell them ahead of time--we enjoy greatly the thrill people get when they are suprised! We love to give people surprises and we will continue to create bigger and bigger suprises for bigger and bigger joy!

We thank you for allowing us to support our favorite rock bands with VIP luxury travel for their touring--we have so enjoyed sharing music and time with them, and we will greatly enjoy giving back to them so they can enjoy their road experience more...

Oh joy, oh rapture, of adventure, oh charmed life--wonderful things happen to us--there simply is no limit to the fun we can have--and the abundance we create by giving the universe a reason to bestow its potential on us! :) it WICKED ROCKS!