My first Abraham-Hicks workshop! I got in the hotseat!

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The amazingly wonderful Esther and Jerry Hicks!

hello all, i am just home and coudnt wait to get on here and post to you all! it was amazing to meet stephanie and give her a REAL human hug--it was like we were long lost sisters--well in fact, we were never lost--always part of the same soul cluster! We had done quite a bit of pre-paving on this visit and it was everything we expected and more--to the point were our husbands got along great and actually took my girls around boston on saturday so we could focus on the workshop.

it was lovely to meet lisa--who posts over on the abeforum under iluvabraham--she has such a wonderful energy and we also met sandi, who is married now to scotty the bus driver who takes esther and jerry round...very nice people and lovely to be in their energy...

We got to the workshop early, after poor sleep on both of our parts...we were so buzzing with anticipation--all night, i lay in bed, trying to formulate a question in my head to discuss with abraham--but i kept coming back to a scene that i savored, the very beginning of my conversation would be a specific thing--that i had day dreamed about for ages--what i would say to abraham when i met them through esther for the first time...

We got awesome seats on the aisle and sad down next to a lovely lady named suzanne, who i hope will come on here and visit with us--we had great seat mates all around many of who were also at their first workshop. When esther came in and started to bring in abraham, the energy in the room when through the roof, and i felt it course through my body with such amazing love that i started to cry...i had felt that feeling a number of times before--but this was like that feeling on 10 cups of coffee--it was infectious, playful, loving and i realized that abraham ONLY see us from our perfect place and our true selves--they are not with us in our place of separation--and through that energy--the SHOWED me myself...and it was such a blessing...

as stephany said--we really attracted an amazing workshop--the questions were vivid and alive with answers for all of us--thank goodness i ordered the workshop tape because i simply cant remember it all--the first question was for our seat neighbor suzanne about attracting relationships, but it also started to answer some of my questions about co-creating--another person asked about genes and instincts and that is when abraham started talking about "flawed premises" and how many of us have beliefs that simply are not true, and they limit us--and it is hard to remove a belief, and you cant make yourself believe the OPPOSITE--you just have to ask a different question that kind of works around the first belief until that becomes your dominant vibration--steph took good notes--i didnt take any as i said--but i am sure her arm hurts from me nudging her over and over to write something down that was big--abraham said, oh this is big, this is new, you are really gonna like this--like 20 times that afternoon!

There were questions about forgiveness, about what its like to be non-physical--and staying always in joy and how that desire to always be aligned stops our growth--that we much more perfer the contrast! they really focused on the whole tornado of vibrational vortex a LOT--and only once brought up the stream analogy when specifically questioned on it--there were quite a few people talking about their work, or their dreams for careers and about healers and coaches--which was very up stephs alley...

after lunch--which was lovely and we sat with a great girl from ottawa named martina who wants to be an artist and i hope she comes and visits us here...we went back in and sat down with anticipation...not sure if i was the second person to be picked, but esther looked around the audience scanning and then her eyes LOCKED on mine and she pointed...I had already been FEELING STRONGLY in the center of my being this drawing on--i was almost in a cold sweat at that point...so when my hand went up, i was like a little kid--thinking ME, pick ME--and waving my hand around--and she DID...

i skipped up the aisle--my ankle bells jingling, and i sat down and i said--Abraham...I have been wanting to say this for a very long time--YOU WICKED ROCK!!!!!! and i did the rock hand sign and everything-and they smiled and i think they said-yes, we know or something like that--but the audience really loved that, and I had been imagining with such delight that scene and it was perfect!!! at that point--all focus fell away except looking into esthers eyes--and through her to the energy that i could FEEL and see coalescing behind her--when abraham comes in, i can visibly see a bright gold or yellow energy above and behind her head like a canopy almost and then behind her neck is a glowing concentration of blue--right where her alter major chakra extends backwards from her body--this is the chakra that we utilize in connected wiht spirit--but it also wrapped around her front to her throat chakra, which color is blue...

Frankly--i felt as if i had put my finger in a socket and that and energy was being drawn from me and energy was then being downloaded into me--a knowing--a "reprogramming" of sorts...I dont really remember much of the interchange other than i was being breathed...MY inner being and MY connection to source was enhanced and i could tell they were testing the circuits...it was higher than any high i had ever experienced...and i have experienced many...

I spoke to them about my co-creative situation...i spoke to them about the differences between my husband and i --and i did challenge them on their original premise that you cannot create in anyone elses experience--but how is it that now they are talking about a co-creative vibrational vortex...i laughed because abraham said along the way that they liked that i challenge them the way i do...a direct reference to my own connection to this source group--there was a lot to do with me telling my own story--me focusing on what i want and if i were really in alignment i would not notice the others being out of alignment--there was a GREAT deal about how perfect mixing it up with contrast is--and how we are all shooting off rockets of desire and that instead of getting upset that someone is beating the drum of what is to be IN JOY that they are shooting off all these rockets and that IF i ONLY and always focus on the vibrational escrow and see them as powerful creators--which they say my husband is--that I BECOME a powerful attractor and catalyst for a shift in alignment--and then WHEN the shift occurs, what we attract is different because WE are different...they also started down a path about how i was speaking about freedom and money being exclusive==and i said, OH NO thats not what i believe, i believe and i live joy and freedom and money comes to me and i dont work etc...and they smiled at that and said--yes, but your husband believes that to have this freedom, he must work and work hard--they then did this whole rampage about coming into alignment with our vibrational escrow--but first they asked me to do it=--and i did, but they said, i rushed through a bunch of steps and wwas only half feeling it--they then talked about this vibrational alignment that if you RUSH the speed, you are unbalanced and wobbling and eventually have to slow down and fix the alignment...and it really made sense to me...they led me to a place of powerful knowing that we have freedom, adventure, abundance and joy and surprises amassed in our vibrational escrow that WILL blow our minds when we come to that place of complete alignment with our escrow...and at that point, i almost felt like a leggo begin snapped onto a childs piece of construction and everything within me came into alignment and i felt a surge of joy so strong, tears coarsed down my face--and abraham laughed and said--oh look, we were trying to make her feel better and now she feels worse--and i cried out but abraham these are tears of joy!!! and they said--we KNOW--we were teasing the guy from the first part! (he was a coach teaching radical forgiveness...more on that interchange later...)

The rest of the workshop was kind of a blur...but i do remember the man behind us got chosen and when he sat down on the hotseat he said--COOL BEANS! (LMAO!!! thanks for another nod universe!) thats my second most popular catch phrase! hehehe....

Afterwards, when abraham came to their conclusion and esther re-emerged--she jumped for joy!!! Steph and i said our goodbyes to suzanne and wondered where everyone disappeared to--found out later that MOST were so wiped they took naps! we on the other hand talked like fiends for an hour and then went out to dinner with our hubbies and the girls...after we dropped steph off at the hotel, i THEN crashed hard and today am still feeling the residue of the event--i remember with gentleness that after a huge energy surge, the body needs time to catch up--and for most of the event, after talking to abraham, i would feel kundalini coming up my spin and shaking me spewing out my alter major--as if sparks were escaping from my system with chills and shakes--it was amazing...

I know that the reason i have waited to do a workshop was mostly because i wanted to SHARE it with steph--and i am so glad that my "devirgination" happened in such a wonderful lovely wicked rockin way!!!

I CANT WAIT for the CD's so i can share it with you all!

hugs! alex.

On death, and dying....

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We are all just passing through....

A friend of mine is awaiting the passing of his very elderly grandmother--he knows she had a good life and is ready to leave, but his family is angry with him for not being in the fear and grieving space that they have chosen--I shared this story of my grandmothers passing with him to help him see how truly wonderful it is to return to pure positive energy....


people feel fear surrounding death for a number of reasons--and when anyone dies, it reminds them of their own mortality....they are where they are, and you are where you are...and YOU can intend and prepave to have this experience be a blessing for you, and allow them to have their own feelings as well.

you need not explain yourself to others, but maybe you could offer words as you offered them to us here related to how you are feeling--i think anyone would agree that your granny was a wonderful person, she lived a full life and she wouldnt have wanted to suffer and pine away--she wants to move on and thats what she wants and everyone is going to eventually have to accept that..

i will tell you a wonderful story--the passing of my lovely tassy granny at 94--she had a wonderful life as well, but things were starting to weigh heavy on her here, not the least of which was the fact that because of minor strokes, my mom could no longer take care of her at home--and so, she went into a very lovely adult home and finally into a nursing home--we visited often, my mother every day--and one day, i was wheeling her outside and she said to me--alex, i am tired, i am tired of living and i want to die...and i looked at her and said--granny, wanting something and willing it to be so are two different things--if you want to die--then die...she smiled and we had a lovely rest of the afternoon--my granny believed in the "life force" and in her later years had rejected formal religion--but to make my mother happy, she went through all the final religious rites...though i knew in her heart she believed as i do...

about a week later--my parents and I were supposed to go out sailing--but the wind was tremendous, and so, they came over to our house instead to visit--we got a call there that my granny was in congestive heart failure--and so, we all ran to the nursing home--she was huffing and puffing and my mother had her put on oxygen...i gently took my mothers arm and led her out--and told her granny wants to die--she signed a DNR and that means no special help--my mother wanted to fight this, but in the end, my father who is also a dr. and also intuitive asked for it to be removed...granny struggled a bit with fear at that point, but my lovely daughter--who was 2 at the time went up to her as we were leaving for the evening and kissed her and said--its ok granny, the angels are not here for you--its not your time...

The next day when we went to visit her, she was comfortable, but definitely laboring--and we sat around and talked with her about life and funny stories from our childhood--my whole family was there wiht her--and it was like being at a birth--we were waiting for the reaper--we all knew that--but it was joyous, it was standing on the edge of the divide and we were in heavens waiting room--waiting for the call so to speak.

I had to drive my older daughter to dance and thought against it, but my parents told me to go--before we left, my younger daughter was very quiet and looking around the room--my sister was holding her and she who is also intuitive said to chri--do you have something to say to tassie--and she looked wide eyed around the room and then said--tassy,they are here for you--you can go now...she kissed her and left...

ten minutes later we got the call from my father that tassy had passed--she was holding hands with my sister and mother--gave a suprised gasp, smiled and that was the last breath she took--her death face was not one of pain or fear, but one of happy surprise...

when we returned--my mother, who is a midwife and nurse was given permission to wash my grandmothers body, so there were no nurses present in the room when we came...my mother told us each to go in and say our goodbyes--and i went in and kissed her and touched her lovely wattled soft neck skin that i thought was so soft and beautiful as a child--and her old hands, which had knit millions of things for us kids when we were children..i walked back out and my mother was trying to contain chri--she wanted to go see tassy--and my mother said oh no--she is dead--and she wouldnt stop fidgetting until she broke free and ran into the room-she climbed up on that bed--and kissed tassy on the cheeks and hugged her and said bye bye! she then took the throw blanket off her (one she had bought from home) and took her knitting back--threw them over her shoulders and said--these are mine now--she wont need them anymore...and walked out--(she still sleeps with that blanket and tassy still visits her in her dreams)...

when i got home, i had a call from a very gifted friend--who said to me--your granny was a grand lady (this woman didnt know her, and i hadnt told her she had died--but my grandmother was from landed gentry in england--her family went back to the doomsday book)...she also told me that a great wind was blowing for her--warm and soothing...

The day i went in to see my granny before she died--i had whispered to her...gran, today is a good day to die--you have a great tailwind...

to this day, i feel blessed to have shared with her her passing--i wish i could have been there in that moment--but it is what it is and thats that--she was with family--but she was also with others, who came to take her--to her great suprise and delight...

death does not exist--life is eternal--we shift--from one plane to the next and return to pure positive energy--YOU know this to be true--your grandmother knows this to be true...all that matters in this is how YOU feel about it....you dont owe them any explanation at all for your beliefs--unless they are in the right space--they wont even be able to hear you--and you can never feel badly enough to make them feel better...you can honor their choices though, by not rubbing your feelings in their face...

I AM.....

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who does your inner being say you are? You only have to ask!

I am

a cup overflowing with love

i am

a child, innocent with wonder

i am

a master, perfectly attuned to the universe, always knowing exactly what to do

i am

a goddess, beautiful, sensual, sexual and free

i am

freedom...doing exactly what pleases me in every moment

i am

grateful...feeling blessed always by the love of the universe

i am

fun..loving silly things and reveling in the laugher of the moment

i am

wealthy...i know the universe loves to play with me in my adventures and will always give me more than enough to do everything my heart desires

i am

a lover...completely enveloping those i love for the sheer joy of it

i am

a mother...nurturer, caregiver, supporter...because it brings me great joy

i am

a spritual being in a human experience...always listening to the whisper of my Ali inside me...

i am

ancient, immortal, complete yet always evolving...i am here, again and again...

i am

physical and non-physical

i am

Rockin

i am

perfect

i am

powerful

i am

happy, blissful, joyful, excited and peaceful..

i am healthy, wealthy and wise...

and it is so...

Co-creation....

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Many hands and hearts make light work of co-creation!

Abraham has often said, you cannot create in anothers experience...and i think they say that so folks will not focus on changing others...as in, well, you might want to drop the if they change i will love them bit...it never works...

but i do strongly believe that my family is a wonderful team...and while we have individual desires and shoot off individual rockets of desire--we have always focused on the soul cluster aspect of our family--while allowing personal freedom, privacy and support for all individual endeavors...

That said--i have long settled into and been comfortable with the idea that people give me money to be who i am--i havent worked at a paying job in over 15 years, and still i am tremendously abundant...

This past february, due to some extreme desires on the parts of all family members, my beloved vibrated out of a very contrasty work situation, and the universe has blessed us with abundance for an entire year and then some...we have been having the time of our lives, traveling--enjoying each others company--just being together and spontaneously deciding to do things...its been such sheer joy--and as the school year ends and my kids have more time-we are looking forward to more suprises and wonderous adventures provided by the universe--because this is what we focus on...

every morning, when we can--we all climb into our huge feather bed--cat included and we hug--and cuddle--all four of us--and then, we hold hands and we set intentions with the universe...dear lord and goddess, dear universe, we thank you for our lives and all that you have given us--we know that it is through your blessings and your love that we can accomplish anything we desire--and then we talk on what we wish to focus on for the day--for the week--for our lives--abundance, financial freedom, health, happiness, adventures, harmony, love, life etc...and more specifics, like great tickets to see the red sox, the kids doing awesome on their finals--me facilitiating a ton of girl scout things, etc...

and it feel so very good--and we know that through the four of us--we focus our intentions on co-creating an amazing life together...

and we know the universe will always support us--and it is so...because law of attraction says it is so--we live a happy lovely life...

and others would have us focus on what is--and sometimes some of us do focus on what is--and what is in the future--and tell a story that is not to the liking of all of us--and so, i sit here, and i will tell the story of our co-creation that would bring us all great joy--and i ask the universe for all our inner beings to converse--and to come into alignment with our joint desires...

We want to spend loving time together freely--whenever we wish to share time--the time is there--and it is good

we want to share financial freedom together--and know that the unverse will always provide us with all we need and more to do all the things we wish to do...abundaceis ours and comes from many avenues...we need do nothing but come into alignment with abundance and with great joy feel it fill us up.

we want to share health and happiness and harmony together---because we love each other and we know we can shine

we want to share adventures and surprises and thrills together, because it is what we love to do together--

we want to be able to take the time we need alone for each other--and bless that time apart as recharging and joyous private time...filled with individual freedom and bliss...we want to support each being in our family team in their individual pursuits and goals....

we want to travel together happily...and see new places and meet wonderful new people...because it is what we love

we want all of us to be doing things that they love--doing things that are engaging, exciting, fulfilling and enjoyable, because life can be that way--and the universe supports us in that desire..

and so...it is

Teachers who led me to me....a bit of a struggle..

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Readin into things...is different for each student on the spiritual path

i have a pretty funny story to tell on this...

years ago, someone gave me the conversations with god book by neale donald walsch and i loved it--because it was so irreverant and different from my religious teachings--i wasnt in the least bit seeking spiritual expansion--i had enough work talking to my IB already--my whole family is that way...people ask questions, we answer...but would stop short of saying we were prophetic...more like really good at intuition...

and then, someone recommended louis hay--because i had had a health issue--and through her i got involved in chakras, and i realized i was already seeing energy--and reading energy through vibration and palmistry...and most of my personal life and beliefs were based on if it feels good do it--and the future is not set--we make it ourselves...and WE ARE GOD...

and then, someone told me about the secret--and i viewed it--and pretty much dismissed the whole thing, except esther moved me to tears! i didnt know she was channeling--i just KNEW I KNEW HER! and i knew she was part of me...i then went to look up the abe stuff==and heard the whole story--i have only read deliberate intent and ask and it is given==i skimmed power of emotions--and then, i stopped reading because i was getting so much more interacting online with folks regarding the teachings...i am going to my first workshop this coming weekend--i cant wait...

but i couldnt read seth--put it down--couldnt read dyer==put it down--couldnt read canfield--put it down--couldnt read hawkins or tolle...and it was frustrating for me because everyone was reading these books and getting stuff out of them--and i just couldnt...

and finally i realized, i didnt even want to read Abe!!! while i love abe--abe only confirms for me that my own inner voice is the only one i need...and while that is well and good for me and it is my pie--others have a different, richly delicious and perfect pie for them

The TRUTH is always about ME!!!

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What is your truth whispering to you?

Our emotional guidance system is ALWAYS evaluating what we are thinking and comparing it to our personal manifesto (as alex so eloquently put it) that our inner being is vibrating...

and so--when you think a thought and you are feeling GOOD that thought is part of your truth...it is true for you in the physical and it is true for you in the non-physical--and it is a match and it FEELS great and you are at that point in your creative power--your valve is open, your cork is floating, your boat is facing downstream and all is well...

but...

if you are thinking a thought that is NOT in alignment with who you really are--and you are feeling bad--your emotional guidance system will give you a feeling on the scale that shows you EXACTLY how far away you are from alignment with your source--and you see that what you are thinking is NOT your truth...

so, example...

I got dressed this morning--after vibrating that i was a red hot momma and that i had extreme power and magnetism and i was on fire...i put on a pair of capris and a cute top and looked in the mirror with my hair piled willy nilly on my head, curls cascading down and a beautiful crystal on my neck...and i looked and FELT wonderful because my thoughts about ME and my inner beings KNOWING who i really am were in complete alignment...and so, i trotted off to church with my kids--which i use as a time to meditate and be grateful for the universe and also to see my mother...which she loves and i am in alignment wiht that==so its all good.

And i sat down next to her, and i guess the top i chose was not to her liking because she looked at my cleavage and made a face..and i immediately felt badly and my hand went to my breasts and i pulled up the edge of the fabric...i caught myself feeling bad--and i then evaluated the situation...

I know who i am--i dont give a rip what anyone else thinks of me--i know i look good and i was dressing for ME and who i really am--my inner being is in complete alignment with that...but i have old habits and as a child, looked to my mother for approval--and that always felt badly--

why?

because my inner being knows i dont need anyone elses approval to be who i really am--and so, in looking to and reacting to my mother so she can be comfortable with ME, i was "dishonoring" myself and that felt bad...

so...

i took a deep breath--and i focused on being in alignment with my mother and the fun part of her spirit...i focused on her accepting me as i was, and me being ok to show her who i am...

do you know--in less than five minutes, my mother got the giggles...she was also whispering to me in the middle of the sermon and telling silly things to make me laugh and complaining about how long the sermon was and how she wasnt getting anything out of it and how she would rather be out living the day...

we even held hands...

so, i listened to myself--realigned based on the complete knowing that whenever i feel badly its because i am thinking a thought that is not my truth--and i realigned myself and my thoughts to be MY TRUTH with the full knowledge that it is MY thoughts, MY vibration and MY decision to in any given moment powerfully turn my boat around and get back to being ME...

Having your cake...and eating it too!

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Oh the JOY of it! YUMMMMY!

A dear friend asked about the fact that abraham says you have to align with eating something and then, in that feeling of joy it is good for you--but if you dont align with it, it can be bad for you--some of what is said is confusing, and so, she wanted to discuss it--here is what i said...

this is an extremely interesting topic...i will tell you--there were times in my life when i was able to eat whatever i wanted--because i was very active, and i had a high metabolism...and then, i succumbed to the information of REALITY---this is good, this is bad, this is fattening--if you drink too much of this you will be fat, etc. etc...oh, and the belief that as we age, or when we have babies our metabolism will decrease...

and ofcourse, i am living with the results of those beliefs now...and i have spent a lot of time talking with my soul sister about changing those beliefs to be a bit more like what a successfully healthy and slim aber is talking about...aligning with my choices...

but this morning--i sat at a diner with my husband and kids and wanted this delicious omlette and a few pancakes==and all of a sudden i thought--this will make me fat--and that felt bad because i knew in my soul that that didnt have to be my truth--and then i had this AHA moment because two women had sat at the next table and both were downing stacks of pancakes and both were skinny as rails...and i thought--wow--if it is possible for them to eat that, and they were doing so happily--not picking at it, but devouring them...then it is also possible for me...

and i sent off a conscious rocket of desire--I LOVE FOOD--i wish to always enjoy and find pleasure in food...i want to really indulge my senses in this lovely food--and i want to always be in alignment with that--i know i have shot off tons of rockets of desire for a healthy slim body--and i know that is in my vibrational escrow--i have seen that body numerous times, and it has is an amazing body--its still MY body--it is just different in that it is a body that can enjoy all foods whenever and where ever i want and still maintain its fitness...

and so, abe has said in the past that if you SEE that chocolate cake and you WANT it and you say NO< src="http://abetalk.com/images/smilies/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile">

What a feeling!!!!

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Get Fired up every day, by simply ASKING FOR IT!!!

A dear friend of mine just got back from the meditteranean abraham cruise--what a wonderful thing! He really enjoyed himself and brought back the message that the KEY to all this is not asking for things, or even experiences, its asking for the essence of FEELINGS and through that life is a joy--life will bring you what you are asking for if you align with that essence...here's my response to that!!!!


wow--aint it GREAT to finally truly REALLY get what its all about...

FEELINGS!!! i remember years ago, when i really got this--i got it out of the buddist teaching of walking meditation--of meditation in the NOW-also called mindfulness-not of focusing away from the mind or body--but focusing on EACH and every movement of the body in joy--and at first it was a very busy mental exercise...oh, i am moving my arm--this muscle is contracting--that muscle is relaxing--i am doing this--

and then i read this lovely little buddist poem by thic nhat hahn who is an amazingly abeing buddist monk...

breath in...smile at the body
breath out. feel the body
breath in...joyful moment
breath out...perfect moment...

and i started doing that meditation in my walking meditation and all of a sudden--i can FEEL JOY no matter what i am doing--just the act of breathing gives me joy--just the act of moving was joyous--it didnt matter what i was doing, how much money i had, how pretty i was or whether i was in love--if i focused in the now moment on joy--anything brought happiness...

this asking for the essence of a feeling is wonderful--today--i am asking for the essence of fun and adventure--i ask for that alot--thats the essence that i absolutely adore--its a very childlike essence--a very exciting essence--and a very much surprising essence--you never know what is gonna happen! we are gonna go to twighlight racing at belmont--and i am gonna win whoo hooo! i am good with the ponies!

hugs you guys--enjoy the feeling!!!

all hell breaking loose....

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Up up and away...it can make you feel giddy!

Over the past few days, a number of dear friends have spoken to me on the issue of using new spritual techniques in order to change and grow and how invariably, "all hell breaks loose" at the point where you are finally feeling GOOD about the new stuff--and it feels like backsliding or scary and why does this type of thing happen...this is what i wrote..


oh, this is a lovely thing to talk about--because people hear the term and they get scared! I like the idea of it being like shaking things up--and cleaning house...

what i have also noticed, and this came up for me the other day after meeting with a very gifted spiritual healer who worked on some VERY OLD holding in my body and released it--that most of the time when you release an energetic holding pattern that you unconsciously felt was "protecting" you--you draw to YOU once again, an event or situation that tests the actual need for the holding--you go through the process then without that holding pattern and you deal with the event in a different way...thus--it is now completely released...

example...

I had some energetic holding (stagnant energy aka resistance aka body armor) in my sacral and root chakras...i understood already that many of my issues in life have dealt with these two areas--a number of abuse issues, spoke to the sacral chakra holding--but the root chakra issues spoke to a feeling of being picked on--a feeling of not being allowed to be different, and a feeling that NO one would stand up for me in life--that i always had to take care of myself--I knew what the issues were--and i had been working on releasing them myself--but sometimes it takes a gifted hand to HELP vibrationally because our holding patterns are sometimes so ingrained, so subtle, we dont even "feel" them anylonger...

so, she released this stuff...and the VERY next day--all hell broke loose for me regarding the root chakra issues...i had someone Pick on me related to something i was doing that was highly sucessful--to the point she reported me to the administration related to that project...and even though i was RIGHT--I felt so angry--so hurt, and did not understand why she would pick on me, although i knew energetically that it related to jealousy--which is not an emotion that i have EVER had in my being--so, i dont understand the driving force behind it...

in the past, i would have kept this to myself--i would have held it in--and i wouldnt have asked for help--this time--i cried out loud, i allowed myself to FEEL the emotions i felt and then, i asked for help--and this time--instead of feeling rejected and alone--people came to my aid--stood up for me--made things right...and it felt good--because i reached out where i wouldnt have done that before...i have been completely able to release this because i know its not about me--i was just an easy target, and it wasnt about ME being less than--it was about ME thinking on the situation and seeing it was NOT MY TRUTH...

so, yes, all hell broke loose--and i dealt with it in a different way than ever before--because i didnt fall back on old patterns--and it felt marvelous afterwards...

here's to all hell breaking loose--and shaking things up a bit!

Getting happy when your child leaves...

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They come, you love them, they grow and they leave--as it should be!

A dear friend is beginning her journey into the empty nest syndrome--and is very sad that her child is at college and she misses them terribly...she asked how to get to a happier place on the matter, and this is what i shared with her--

I had the same situation as you did when i was young--i flew out of the nest so fast my head spun, and went to school far away and then settled into married life soon after...

This was the norm, when we were kids--we were set up early to separate from our parents because they had lived in a difficult world and did their best to make sure we could stand on our own two feet--that and our rebellious natures kicked in and we did just fine standing on our own...ofcourse, we felt sad in our hearts that we were not "closer" to our parents' and thus rockets of desire were sent off...and in the next generation WE as parents developed much stronger emotional bonds with our children...

But children are free spirits and the are ancient souls just like us who came into the physical for a specific life scenario-and you, from the non-physical agreed to be his mother--and you both agreed to exchange contrast...and as most mothers do, you filled YOUR life with him...

and there in lies a big part of the situation--because YOUR life is yours...and his life is his--and in caring for him, you still should have your own life, with your own interests that now can take over a bit and fill the time...you are looking at this as if you have lost something--when you have not lost anything--you still have your lovely son, you still have vibrational contact with him--you can BE with him at any moment by remembering the way he FEELS to you vibrationally--and immediately those heart bonds activate and your energies are together...but now, you havnet lost anything--you have GAINED...

so, what have you gained? More time for yourself to do all the things you put on hold while he was home....more peace and quiet....and a sense of well being that he is standing on his own two feet, starting to live his independant life-not as YOU did, flying from the nest, but as a boy who had a loving and close relationship with his mother...

I have friends who are in their 30's and they STILL live at home with their parents--went to college, came back and then didnt pay rent, but worked and got fancy cars and took fancy vacations and went out to fancy dinners, but still their parents provided the home--and they are pulling their hair out and thinkning why wont he leave? Well, because in your desire to have closeness with your child, you never fostered independance....and so, they dont know how to be alone...

you want your son to be strong, independant, and yet loving and connected...and so, intend that for him--and intend that YOU know this is the right path and you are going to get OK with it--but it will take time...and know YOU will find new exciting friends and thiings to do to fill your days--and soon, it will be time for him to come home for a visit and you will wonder what all the fuss was about!

the thing about this place is, we often come with a story that we have blinders on about--and we cant see it from any other focus than our own--the joy of this place is that people will lovingly show you the other side...and sometimes thats all you need to shift your emotions up the scale...

you arent feeling BADLY because you miss your son--you are missing your son and your inner being is telling YOU through your emotions that that is not your truth--you want your son to be FREE--to be able to spread his wings and live his own life...but you still have fear that he will leave you as you left your parents...

but you are not your parents--and he is not you...and your relationship was different and thus the path is different...all is well, all is unfolding perfectly as the universe and YOU intended...

cow as teacher...lovely story to share...

Lovely Jewelia MOO...a little hazy picture, but the best we could do....


A dear friend of mine has just gone through an event that i feel was life transforming for her--and i think she would agree...i asked her if i could post her story here because it was so moving to me...here it is...the universe is always listening--and the only mistake you make is not asking....

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I have written extensively, and possibly toooo much about my cow Jewelia. She was a dream come true for me and in some ways, the culmination of my dream of a perfect farm. I would look at her and my heart would swell. I would find ways to remember her throughout the day to get the feeling of unconditional love and generosity she gave me. I was so freaky as to try and smell her on my hands and arms. It's hard to explain and perhaps, a little too unusual for the average person to grasp. Luckily, I've found a place where the above average person exists!

My Jewelia transitioned very suddenly into nonphysical on May 16th 36 hours after giving birth, leaving me wondering how I could be on top of the world one day and dragging in the muck the next. I was very puzzled and wrote about it on the Abe forum. I was given words of support and encouragement there and even some tools to help me. One was Brad Yates' eft video "tap of the morning." Thanks Pat I began that one immediately. One part said, "I can't feel badly enough to change the past."

I rebounded, for the most part, remarkably well. I had friends who were upset that I wasn't overtly sad enough for them. They said they thought they were sadder than me. Well, I agreed to let them claim that title. I did my share of crying but I certainly tried not to talk about it. I wanted to move forward, blessing my dear Jewelia for the amazing gifts she had given me. They were beyond description.

For a couple of weeks, I'd been moving up the scale as best I could. I stated to most everyone that I was not going to look for a new cow. She would have to find me. I had looked for 2 years for Jewelia and eventually, someone called me and asked if I would like to buy her, this after contacting everyone in 3 states about a Jersey cow. She was mostly a family pet and they couldn't keep her because we had a drought and they didn't have hay. They wanted a loving person to get her. ME!

I had written to a dear fellow aber about Jewelia and she said, "Tell me about you new cow." I felt a shift in my being when I read that. It was big.I wrote to her and said something like "she is 4 years old, a Jersey, has had 2 calves, both heifers (girls), she's just had a calf so she's freshened and ready to milk, she's healthy, has a beautiful udder, has been handmilked, and her name is Buttercup." I told that story to anyone who would listen.

The night of June 9th, I had a dream that I went to the barn and the middle stall door was open a crack. There was a shaft of light coming in. I looked in and saw a Jersey cow. My husband had bought her for me (not at all likely).

On June 11th, I woke up, meditated, did yoga and Abe exercises and decided it was time to watch The Omega Shift. I told my husband I wasn't to be disturbed for 90 minutes. That's not easy on a farm in the summer! So, I watched it. OMG!!!!!! Bliss me out! Major shifting going on. I suggest you eek out 90 minutes and change your life forever! So, I was practicing the exercises that day and relaxing and enjoying and remembering that you can work all day OR relax and let it in.

I had been checking a local publication, online,for weeks for goats and Wednesday is the day it comes out. I checked and it wasn't up. I was feeling a little heavy headed and felt I needed to let things go and nap.

I woke up from my nap and came to the computer, feeling a little otherwordly. I pulled up the publication and before my eyes was: " Jersey cow, 4 years old, freshened in April, handmilked." I could not believe my eyes, really. After that it said, "call Jeff". That's my husband's name and I thought he'd placed the ad and she wasn't really for sale after all. Then I saw the number and it wasn't mine. I almost fell over myself, after recovering from shock, to get to the phone.

I called and they said she has had 2 calves, both heifers, she is healthy and her name is Fig - the only thing I didn't get right. I even said, "you know, I thought you'd say her name is Buttercup."

I went to see her on Friday night and she's beautiful. She has a perfect udder - did I mention that's crucial?!

A funny thing is, about 3 weeks ago, after Jewelia had passed, I had a major craving for fig newtons. I hadn't eaten them in 20 years, probably. I bought a whole box of fig newmans and ate and ate. I'm not a big sweet eater and buying a box of cookies happens maybe once a year, or less. I couldn't get enough of those damn cookies and wondered what the hell was wrong with me. I thought about them all the time and had to stop myself from looking at them in the store.

The new cow's name is Fig! The woman told me Friday that she also had a cow named Newton!

Our dear RnR Goddess encouraged me to post this here. She has been a huge helpmate too in all of this. I really feel like finding the Omega Shift on here was GIANT for me. Big hugs to ya'll too.

So,folks, magic happens ALL THE TIME! Tune in! It's great!

happymanifesting,

happy fathers day!

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Here or gone, they still hold us in spirit...

yes, happy fathers day to all dads in the physical--all dads in the non-physical--and all future dads...

to my grandpa syd, my grandpa nestor--to petes dad pete...we feel your presence always...

to my father, who from the non-physical joyfully agreed to be my father and to deliver to me contrast and a life scenario of my choice so i could expand spiritually...i thank you...

to my husband, who is an amazing father--who joyfully agreed from the non-physical to partner with me and my wonderful spirit being children to create a life filled with expansion, adventure, joy, contrast, resistance, jiggidy jiggs and abundance....i thank you...

WE all have fathers--it cannot be otherwise--we all have a spirit that agreed to bear us--agreed to spawn us and agreed to help us create the life we desired--they may still be with us physically, or we may never have known them...but no matter what--we all had a guardian spirit, who took the role as father and sired us...it cannot be other wise...it is law...

here's to dad...you all wicked ROCK!

intention for interaction....

folks...if you come on here...i would LOVE it if you commented on my posts...it would be great to know i was actually talking to someone in the ether...please post a comment--and if you dont feel like posting a comment--then make a SHOUT on the shoutbox...just type in your name and then post a message...i know folks are reading because i can see who comes in--but i would love some feedback on what to talk about in the future--and to not feel so very lonely!!!!

having fun with water....

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Water crystal from water exposed to the word and vibration of eternity...

Some folks asked for a little background into the charged water that i drink...some of it is crystal elixir, but some of it is called hado water...

hado, is energy--hado is the wellbeing that something gives to you energetically...

Dr. Masuro Emoto wrote a number of books on the secret messages in water--he found, through his experimentation (and ofcourse channeling source, this guy is on fire with the universe and positivity...) that if he gave water a message, it would form these amazing crystals consistently--and each word produced a different vibration in the water and a different crystal in the laboratory...

his hado website is here: https://www.hado.net/index.php

you can google his books and his work--he is currently using his messages in water to promote world peace....

but the basis of the research is that water, like the universe it resides in--is a maleable substance that takes on the vibration of those it interacts with--and so, you can create your own super charged positivity water by doing the following basic steps..

Get clean glass containers or clean water bottles...
Think on the vibrations you wish to put into the water...and then write on an index card those words after writing out--thank you water for your blessings on me and your blessings on the universe...then put as many words are you feel...like abundance, wellbeing, joy, freedom, health, balance, grounding, peace, harmony--a few of the words on my water...

then tape the index card--words in--to the water--its best to use clean filtered water--but really any water will do--as your positive energy is going to transform the water...

Place the water in a quiet spot, it can be in sunlight, and if you like--create a type of altar around it--i put crystals, an automatic wind chime in middle c--and a bowl full of seashells, feathers, pine cones and a picture of my family...you can play positive music to water as well...

Then, every time you see the bottles, send the water energy--love, and know that it will be a part of your body joyfully filling every cell with wonderful energy and life...

I usually give it a few days to 'brew' or "charge" and then i drink about 4 oz at a time--3-4 times a day--and believe me--you will notice the jolt...its wonderful!

I also, consistently make crystal elixir, by taking the crystals of which properties i desire (i have a clear quarz and a rose quartz mostly, for love and energy) and putting them into my water bottle with filtered water, and just drinking it when i feel like it---you will be amazed that after a time, your beautiful shiny stones will have pits in them, as the energy and elements of the stones are transfered to the water--when a stone gets worn like this, you can pick another stone, or you can recharge and clear it by putting it into sea salt water and placing it in the light of the full moon for an evening--or in any light for 7 days--whenever you use a new crystal, you should use this process..

--you can also accomplish something similar by placing water into a deep cobalt blue glass container for a few days and drinking this blue water--which is supposedly very good for indigo children...

I hope you enjoy experimenting with hado water and crystal elixir--it has been my way of honoring water in my life for quite some time and it brings me great joy! i also ALWAYS bless water as i take it--kind of like a mini spiritual prayer in the moment--knowing that with abundant air for breath and water for life--i will always be WELL.

Do this....get that!!!

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Do you have the winning ticket???

I just wrote this ramage of appreciation on winning....


I know i will win...

I know the universe loves me so very much and has bankrolled millions upon milliions of dollars for my happy escapades...

i know that i dont earn money--money is given to me, gladly--in large sums because the universe loves all the potential projects, adventures and excitment it can experience through me and my money...

I know i will win because it makes me feel good to think of myself jumping up and down with a lottery ticket in my hand...

I know i will win because i am literally a vaccuum cleaner for money--sucking it to me--because money loves to be in my pocket book--money loves to be in the back pocket of my jeans--money loves that i play with it that i adore it that i deserve it that i love it that i let it do what it wants to do, which is to flow freely and happily around the world...financial freedom is my reality as i roadtrip through life just livin the dream!

money loves me and i love money and i love winning and i know i will win and its all good

cause MONEY WICKED ROCKS!

THAT VERY NIGHT!!! this happened!

Driftwood for me today! whooo hooo! ok, so i posted this about winning...

and today my lovely UBER manifesting daughter said to me--mommy, its so hot in school--after we are done with homework, can we please go to the store and buy one of those mini fans that you hold in your hand?

and i said--we will see--i have a meeting tonight--but maybe...

and the meeting was an adult girl scout leader appreciation meeting--and they had snacks and stuff and then they did some raffles of little baskets--and they gave me a raffle ticket--and i said--i will win--and i wasnt even looking at my raffle ticket, but talking to a dear friend when they called my number!

whooo hooo--thank you universe--more please....

cause it gets better...so, i pick out a basket that i see water squirt guns in and i thought--what fun...

and i didnt see anything else in the basket--but went back to my seat and put it in my bag...and went to the car later--and i see peaking out of it--a small mini fan!!!!

I was on cloud nine--and i thought--wow--chri is going to be so excited about this fan and her manifestation...

and as i was driving home and thinking about it, i thought of my other daughter--and how SHE would love one of those fans too and i wished i had one for her...

so, when i got home, i told them both i had a surprise--then i asked christina if she remembered what she wanted earlier that day--and she said YES>..and i said--well, you manifested it!!! you can both open the basket...

and when they did--TADA...TWO FANS!!!!

Wow--i sooo wicked rock! So does my creative genius daughter--and so does the universe for playing with me!!! i LOVE to win--i win and i win and i win! and it is GOOD! MORE PLEASE!!! and thank you!

its working and working...even if you dont like the outcome.

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Are you seeing your life unfold or covering your eyes?

people in general are attracting ALL THE TIME!!! its working WONDERFULLY for them=--but they are attracting not feeling good, they are attracting bad things, they are attracting lack of abundance, lack of well being, accidents, etc...because thats what they focus on and thats what they feel is their lot in life!!!

They are certainly NOT resisting anything they are focusing on becuase they are getting it and more...

the LAW of attraction works...it works quickly--and it works for everyone...

If you attract negative things--its STILL WORKS!!!!

But YOU...have made a choice...and have consciously chosen to feel good--and have constantly chosen to apply the law for managing and growing your own field of daisies...and thats wonderful...

You see others as resisting wellbeing--but they do not see wellbeing as their birthright the way you do--that part of the puzzle is missing for them...they have been told, again and again that life is hard, things suck, bad things happen to good people--be careful, be afraid, be possessive, be obsessive...the boogie man is gonna get you...

and then the things that they SEE because they are focusing on them, only confirm those things to be in their lives!

you on the other hand have consciously chosen to fly above the bullshit--you have chosen to see things as YOU wish to see them, because you have made joy your dominant vibration--you have made joy and connection with your inner being your lifes path...and thus...it is so--and law of attraction works for you as well...by giving you what you focus on...

people can pay lip service to wanting to be WELL...wanting to be rich, wanting to be whatever--you can TALk the talk, but unless you vibrate it out to the universe and actually EXPECT and accept it to be so...you aint getting shit.

Nice body baby! lessons from a young one...

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What do you see when you look at yourself?

I spent the earlier part of this afternoon soothing my dear daughter back into alignment. It was a very contrasty experience because it brought up a great many issues that i may have felt as a young girl, but we really did a lot of moving forward and going from deep sadness to joy (she was hysterical, and now she is sitting and singing opera to herself...you can only do that when you are in joy!)

She is a lovely young woman--sparkly, kind, a real energy ball--and astoundingly beautiful, singularly so--and i am trying not to be biased--but in this space, i can say what i want and not be seen as arrogant! lol...When she was young, she had such cute baby cheeks and baby belly, that she carried happily into young adult hood--and because no one was comparing her to anyone, because everyone told her how wonderful and beautiful she was, and accepted her for who she really was...she grew into a petite, but long torsoed healthy bodied teen--oh to have that long waist! lol with long red hair and a smear of freckles accross her translucent skin...

Lately, she has been hanging out with a group of girls that are VERY into their bodies--very into their shapes and being skinny and looking a certain way. She had never really been close to these girls, but because she had been taking a break from hanging out with her best guy friend, she listened to these girls complaining and bitching and started to take on their beliefs because she wanted to belong to the group which is what ALL girls want right?

She had never wanted that before--she had been happy to just flit through life doing her own thing--but for some reason--possibly a desire to experience the group mentality--she fell into place there...and took on their beliefs--and started to feel VERY badly about herself--because she thought she was (GASP--because it is so far from true) Fat...

There is nothing inherently wrong with being plump--I have been EVERY weight--ultra thin, curvy, pudgy and downright fat...and i always loved myself, even as i wished for things to be a bit different...here she was beating herself up because she didnt fit their beliefs related to weight...

and so, i told her the story of how as a young girl i had been a ballerina, and was never thin enough even though you could see my ribs! and because I fell for someone elses beliefs, my body lost its ability to self evaluate in a realistic way. No one tells you these things when you are young, but you will CRAVE that young body that was perfectly fine--but we all tend to fall into a trap of wishing to be what we arent, when if we truly stood up for ourselves and loved ourselves and said NO--i will be who i am, and not who you want me to be...then you would never want to be what you arent because it simply wouldnt be your truth and you wouldnt stand for that!

She realized that she was feeling BADLY because she was having a thought--and that thought was not her truth--and her inner being was telling her STRONGLY (and it always tells her things strongly) that those thoughts were not her truth...she was able to align quite easily again with knowing her lovely body was fine the way it is...she as also able to align easily with the idea that having a friend is not more important than honoring your own internal guidance...that a true friend is a person who sees you for who you really are--and is just fine with that--no matter what...

so, here is to my lovely daughter--who again reminded me that MY body is perfectly fine the way it is--and who reminded me to love myself every day because i wicked ROCK!

a little contrast...

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Without the dark, there can be no light....

ARE YOU ENJOYING THE CONTRAST????

abe has said this over and over...

yes...the Universe is based on contrast, choice, contrast, choice...contrast can be viewed as suffering, challenging, something to be worked against...or it can be viewed simply as a comparative term--how things differ...a helpful situation that leads to more refined focus.

in a world, in a reality, in a universe where WE KNOW all is well--and we get to come back over and over and over again--and there is NO DEATH, and we are always PERFECT, expanding eternal beings who SEEK variety in life experiences...

yes...contrast is necessary...

or you would be bored--and you would cease to desire--and when you cease to desire--cease to get enjoyment and evolution out of life...its transition time...

Without the contrast, there can be no quantifying joy....

the NOW moment...

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Do YOU know what time it is??? IT's NOW!!!

i was just thinking about this...

abraham has often said--that your ONLY point of POWER--your own point of VIBRATIONAL energy vortex is in the NOW MOMENT...

so???????

whats with waiting???

there is NO waiting in the now moment?


there is ONLY the now moment!!!

WOW!!!!

enjoying the joy in the NOW moment!!!! no before--cause i have no power there--its ONLY reminiscing...

no tomorrow--cause i have no power there--its PURE conjecture...

but NOW...WOW-===i got the POWER--do do do do!!! I got the POWER...do do do do--

and it WICKED MAD ROCKS!!!!

Enjoy the JOY in the now....making anticipation a treat!

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OH HOW DELICIOUS!!!!

Someone recently asked me about waiting on a manifestation to occur--and how it so frustrated them when they could SEE the manifestation coming together, but it was not there yet...and they realized that they had to do something to make it happen faster, or make the waiting time more pleasant because they had been feeling pretty badly, even though they KNEW they have been magnificent creators, and they were seeing a big manifestation coming down the pike...
This is what i said...

Dont focus on the waiting, because that will only give you more waiting--completely change your focus and almost ignore the manifestation, if waiting cannot be comfortable for you--focus on the JOY--of each individual moment...

just on the joy IN THE NOW...

I am going to give you an analogy...

you order a pizza and you KNOW its coming...

you are waiting--and you are hungry and you are anticipating how its going to taste--unless you are STARVING literally--this period of waiting can be delicious because it is filled with expectation and happy thoughts about a pizza...that YOU KNOW is coming...

but, if you ordered that pizza...and then kept thinking to yourself--god, i hope they dont screw up my order...and forget to put the pizza in--sometimes that has happened tome, andi dont like it--or i hope they dont burn the pizza--i hate it when its over done...or i hope that they dont mess it up and put ancovies on it--cause that will suck--what is taking so long? its only a pizza???


now--both situations, you are waiting for a pizza...in one, you are enjoying the wait--and drawing that pizza to yourself--which you KNOW is coming...

in the other situaiton--you are pushing against that pizza...and it is something that 10 minutes ago was flour dough, cheese, sauce...NOT a pizza--but because YOU asked for a pizza, the universe conspired to use someone and someones facilities to make you that pizza...and here you are pushing against i.t--the .universe do.esnt hear NOT it only hears the tail enders...and so, if you are feeling badly about waiting--or thinking in a worried way while waiting--you confuse the universe, that loves you so much it wants to give you exactly what you want...

a nice pizza--or money in the bank--or a nice red shiny car....

its always been

ask--knowing it is given
allow--knowing it is coming...

:) enjoy--in the now moment....because THAT is all that matters...the things never matter--the JOY is all that matters!

taking stock of where you are....lets try and experiment!

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Are you following your path to cloud nine? lets take stock!

All i have EVER asked for from the universe has been given to me...all...every SINGLE thing....

and all i have EVER asked the universe for was joy...

bliss...

having fun
laughing
dancing with glee...
enjoying
pleasure
love
harmony
happiness
peace...

and when i focus on those things--all the material items, money, health, adventure, relationships, house, car, friends, etc. came into being

because i trusted THAT THE UNIVERSE WOULD BEND OVER BACKWARDS TO DELIVER TO ME THE ESSENCE OF WHAT I WAS FEELING....

its never about the things...its never about the events..its never about the money...it is always about the essence of joy...

the universe knows who you are--you are looking at what is from a limited physical perspective...your non=physical self is MUCH bigger and broader than YOU--and it is reading not your thoughts--its reading not even your emotions--it is READING your vibration...and then, from your vibration--your rockets of desire around the essence of what you want...the universe delivers a match...

what is your vibration? Think back over your recent life, just as an exercise--do you see places where you have been grateful for who you are? where you are? having breath in your lungs? manifestation comes from a place of being grateful for where you are and expecting the universe to continue to deliver you more of what you are vibrating....more please!!! if it brings you joy...

what are you saying to the universe every single day?

not what you are asking for in physical words...but what you are asking for by where you are on the emotional guidance scale...

If you look at where you are--and how you have been feeling--and what you have been saying to yourself in your inner dialogue--you will see that the law of attraction is indeed bringing to you what you have been asking for...

Try an experiment, put your mind on hold for a day--and play--get up in the morning and roll around on your bed--and enjoy your breath...get into the shower and pamper yourself with warmth, massage in lotion--enjoy your body--make your favorite food for breakfast--even if its spagghetti and meatballs with red wine...give yourself permission to stay in your pajamas all day, or put on your fanciest dress...watch cartoons, or play hop scotch...go out into the woods and pick flowers--look for birds...play with the animals vibrationally--laugh as loud as you can for as long as you can...just fill your day, one moment after another with EXACTLY what you want to do to bring you joy--to make you smile--to feel indulgent...to refocus on your life mission--which is not to have things...it is to find joy...your personal joy--the things ONLY come once you are in joy--and you cant fake joy--you cant affirmation joy into your life--it simply IS or isnt--and it will be or wont be in EVERY single breath you take...its your choice--and NO one is holding YOU away from joy but you....

not because you are going to get anything out of it--but because it feels GOOD.

then come and report back to me on how it went--

and remember, it matters not if you believe in the law of attraction--if you think its a crock, its still going to work in your life...so you may as well have FUN with it--this isnt about work!!! its about HAVING FUN!!!

BE yourself!! REALLY!!!

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You are pure light, and through the focus of your physical perspective, you create a rainbow!

From a very young age, i felt that others wanted me to be different--because i was different from them--sparkly--energetic being that i was--and believe me, it was difficult to put up with their attacks